Re: Dream of Laura
Guille said:
Joe said:
Guille said:
Now to the dream:
I was in a place unfamiliar to me, seemed like a house in a rural area. Laura was there, as well as other people that I didn't know. It was a somewhat festive environment, with lots of food and people being in a generally good mood. As the day was wrapping up, and people were leaving, Laura asked me if I was staying to study with them, and she had a book that I couldn't see in her hand. I remember feeling unsure, and being new to the environment, I felt that I didn't want to overstay my welcome. I didn't leave right away, but didn't end up "studying" either. Eventually I got in my car and left, noticing how nice the scenery was, and liking that there weren't many cars and houses around.
Please help me interpret this, since I'm having trouble with it...
The most I can get out of that one is your possible doubts about fully engaging with what you think the work of this forum is.
I thought of that interpretation, but it is hard for me to understand how it could be so(or I don't want to face it). Since I began reading Laura's books in 2011, I have become increasingly more determined to align myself with the ideas and things being done here. I consciously think about this daily, and changed my daily behavior to be more aligned with seeking Truth. I've made it a habit to check the forum daily, although I haven't posted as much in the past week or so because I've picked up more hours at work. But perhaps you are right, and there is an unconscious doubt that I need to find and address, so it doesn't hinder me in engaging this network and the Work. I think you might be right, since as I think about this more, I'm beginning to get a fear reaction.
Thank you, Joe. I have some introspecting to do.
Last night was my first time actually singing to the crystals, and this brought me a deep feeling of connection. After this, I had a dream that relates to the one above. I was again, in a house like the one described above. This time, I was staying for a few days. I remember in the dream a sequence of Laura and I talking. Still in the dream, I went to sleep and woke up the next day, apparently the first one up, and I was unsure of whether to start cooking breakfast or even getting out of bed because I didn't want to make noise, also because since I was a guest, I didn't know where ingredients and such were, and perhaps it would be out of place for me to do that. After an indefinite while, I heard others beginning to get up, and I went to the nearby bathroom. Walking around I still felt groggy, very distinct "just waking up feeling", and looked outside the window to see a very rainy day, and thinking that we'd probably be doing things around the house inside rather than work outside today. Not too long after that, I remember feeling more awake, and seeing others wearing
tuxedos made of out gift wrap! I was the only one without a tux like that. I remember feeling a bit unprepared, although not in a debilitating way, but rather accepting.
I'm thinking the gift wrap tuxedos might mean others were "present". Just imagine the task of making and putting on, let alone wearing around, a tuxedo made out of gift wrap. Seems to me like it must take an incredible amount of patience and delicacy, and seems to me to be symbolic of developing awareness.
The setting of me staying, rather than leaving, like in the previous dream, I think is a good sign of progress(in light of my recent increase in involvement), yet the rest of the dream indicates to me there is still work to do, and a simultaneous call to patience as well as action.