My furry friend is gone

[Iron]

One of the dogs that live with us, died last night. Exactly one year ago, she had her ovaries removed because of a suspected malignancy. Now, one year later, on sunday she started having difficulty breathing and started tiring fast from normal activities. On monday we rushed with her to our local vet, and the suspicion was that there was something wrong with her heart and she started taking medication with this on mind, and got a little better. On Tuesday the results of x-ray she took arrive, and there was a blurry mass on her left lung.

We did our best to care for her, and she was seemingly improving. On saturday the results of the blood test would come, and we would discuss the options with the vet (probably chemotherapy if was cancer).

On Friday I woke up with zero energy, no will to do anything. I found that strange, because nothing much out of the ordinary had occurred in the day before, so I fought that feeling and went to the lab to work as usual. At 10 pm or so, my little friend started convulsing and passed away in 10 minutes or so. I wasn't at home yet. She was waiting for me I think. She waited as long as she could. I was not there to try to assist in her passing.
I feel like I failed her.

9 Years of friendship. She was an awesome friend. A splendid dog. She was the one I had the deeper connection with. So many nights I went studying about the world, and the articles of Laura and similars were my sole company was her at my feet. So many nights when I, distraught with my chaotic relationship at the time, cried alone in the dark, again with her in my feet.

Farewell my friend. I hope we meet again.
Thanks for listening.

 

[JonnyRadar]

:( Iron, so sorry to hear about this. I know these things happen, and it's part of life, but it still doesn't make it any easier to handle, IMO. I love my dog dearly, and I know the day she passes on will be a very hard one. Hang in there, and do write about it some more here if you need to.

 

[Mr.Cyan]

My sincere condolences Iron on the loss of your dear friend, its never easy, and time will heal sadness.

 

[Jacques]

I'm so sorry for your loss Iron.

I know these things happen, and it's part of life, but it still doesn't make it any easier to handle, IMO. I love my dog dearly, and I know the day she passes on will be a very hard one.

I don't even want to think about that.

 

[Adaryn]

Sorry for your loss, Iron. I hope you will meet her again, in one form or another

 

[Paragon]

Very sorry to hear of this Iron. Your friend seemed like a great companion to you, on this BBM, a fellow adventurer. May she rest in peace now

 

[Keit]

Very sorry for your loss, Iron. All this love and care weren't lost, that's for sure. She will always remain close to you in your heart.

 

[Iron]

She came into our life 7 months after our previous dog, a german shepperd died of cancer. This previous dog, Pietra, was also very loyal and despite being very ill waited for us to arrive from school to die.
Those were very dark times. My father and my mother were not getting along well and my grandmother (mother of my mother) despite her "good" intentions made all the tensions worse.
In this setting that little furball came to us. She was given to my father one day of december when he was on the feira (a kind of open air grocery shopping, mainly selling fruits, vegetables and fish, very common here in Brazil). Another dog was already here in our house, dropped in our front door, but my father could't refuse the little Pantera.

When my grandmother fell ill and eventually died in 2006 (another story in itself, a kinda of a high strangely one), these two dogs were essential in keeping the family together, just by being dogs.

I thought I knew how important she was to me, until she was abruptly taken from us. Then I realized that she is even more important.
She will be missed. I hope she is ok, and that she didn't felt too much pain. I hope that I will meet her again in any form.
Thanks guys for taking the time to listen.

 

[Laura]

I am very sorry to hear about your loss. Our fur friends sure do enrich our lives and I hope we do the same for them. We are facing a similar event here with our Sebastian being 12 1/2 now. He is having problems and we know each day could be his last so we try to give him as many lovies as possible. I think you must have done the same so I'm sure you didn't let your girl down.

 

[Jacques]

We are facing a similar event here with our Sebastian being 12 1/2 now. He is having problems and we know each day could be his last so we try to give him as many lovies as possible.

Oh no... what a sad news.

Fortunately Sebastien is in « good hearts ».

Here's some big Hugs for him.

 

[kalibex]

Please accept my condolences for your loss, Iron.

I have to say... even if the odd feeling you had early in the day was you receiving some information about her passing... it's not your fault you weren't able to 'translate' what it meant. (I hope that doesn't come across as taking you to task for your feeling of guilt... just offering another perspective.)

 

[Xico]

I'm sorry for your loss Iron, I know it is difficult to lose a dear friend, I lost mine when I was 15 years old, I believe she was poisoned her name was Patch, I felt terribly sad, because she was my best companion everywhere I went.

 

[Z...]

Sorry for your loss Iron, I know exactly how you feel.

Perhaps it will help if you write her a letter. Here is mine:

Letter To Breeze

Wait for me dear friend,
right there on the lush plane
- where nothing is "only"
while bullets of rebellious dawn are sparkling insane,
where heights are dizzying, happiness a sea
- and love a mountain.

Wait for me!
As dreams are spinning to the other side,
where upwards lasts longer then any fall,
and benevolent shadows are cast by clouds that gently glide,
let the faith in better part of myself roll.

Wrapped in fruitful water springs blossom,
supple rain hidden in midnight blue of the valley's bosom,
narrow path meandering through the grassy mount...
Please be there! - when I forsake this earthly mortal coil, to reach the celestial fount.

As soon as I release fruits of my possessions, loud sigh of relief will fill the ether.
Its getting scarce- good will and kinship , I wish for nothing better then your friendship.

Memory of our similitude brings warmth, as the winter of unpreparedness comes.
Virtue amongst whim I stalk halfheartedly, the more people surround me, the more I need thee.

Nine to five in a chicken coop, on the brink of abyss, cut till I bleed...
You know already, you've seen it here with me,
As I pierce through the sorrow, longing for sense, following the rainbow - memories of your unwavering devotion nourish my mind, my soul and my bones.
Gentle, warm eyes, two soothing lakes, founts of strength and virtue.
My refuge from oppression, from chains and evil that prevails.

This strange hamster wheel experiment with the eyes fixed to the vertex of the skies, humble meaning on this road paved with jade.
I have seen a plenty, don't understand much.
There has to be a garden after garbage dump!
Where magic of the flower rules, inkling of meaning in the world's design,
where truth has a mighty wings of crane, flying as Mistral in the air, and summers are golden without murky shadows...

Lets call it The Land of Sensibility and Sensible!
You waited for me always, wait for me there, again!
The end is not very far, like a prancing pony.
Then we'll start our play again, and go for a lazy stroll...​

 

[Iron]

I am very sorry to hear about your loss. Our fur friends sure do enrich our lives and I hope we do the same for them. We are facing a similar event here with our Sebastian being 12 1/2 now. He is having problems and we know each day could be his last so we try to give him as many lovies as possible. I think you must have done the same so I'm sure you didn't let your girl down.

We did all we could to make her feel loved, but in these situations the mind plays tricks and I always think there is something else i could have done.

Please accept my condolences for your loss, Iron.

I have to say... even if the odd feeling you had early in the day was you receiving some information about her passing... it's not your fault you weren't able to 'translate' what it meant. (I hope that doesn't come across as taking you to task for your feeling of guilt... just offering another perspective.)

This feeling always precedes something big happening. Well, maybe someday I will be able to "catch" it.

I dedicated a prayer for her yesterday and wrote a little letter for her. It helped to ease the pain.

 

[Keyhole]

Sorry to hear of your loss Iron I know it's difficult to deal with now but it gradually gets better.

Your friend is always with you, no matter how long ago it was that they passed. They stay in the form of happy, loving memories and guide you just as they did before