I guess I'm posting this because I'm kind of at a loss of how to think about all this...
If I were still going to church i would reach out to my paster for a prayer but I'm still reading and learning about FOTCM so do I meditate? sorry if I sound stupid... or naive... so where is he now?

Is his mind\soul aware? Is he looking down on me now?
I love you Daddy! I miss you...