In the recent weeks I've taken a time out participating in the forum because I've sensed that I need to sort many things out. Also because I've been feeling so g*ddamn miserable and tired for months now. I feel that something inside me (maybe attachments, false identities, introjects) and maybe also outside forces have really put me up to the test - I guess "they" particularly don't like me doing the EE. So, anyways I've strongly felt that I must boost up my reading and gathering/applying knowledge, as an antidote to this "harassment". Which led me to read the C session transcripts again....
Now, the first time I read the transcripts I didn't have all of them available, so I didn't go through them all. This second time around I gathered them all and uploaded them to my cell phone for easy and fast access, anywhere and anytime (I highly recommend doing this if you can! Those few moments of spare time while sitting on the bus can be made useful!)
I'll cut to the cheese. The first time I read the sessions there was a few lines or words that triggered a strange emotion in me. It felt like a very distant memory of something so terrible that it was blocked away. But these lines or words somehow "woke up" this emotion or should I say memory, a feeling of panic or hysteria in the solar plexus area. And as my title tells you, almost every part where the discussion was of the Nephilim or Nephalim this very disturbing feeling arose. Also this word 'Coatzlmundi' was a heavy "trigger". And as I read the second time I experienced the same "panic" after reading several other parts as well.
Have any of you guys had similar experiences - certain key words acting as some sort of trigger? I realize that my "panic" doesn't have to be related to the Nephilim (if they do exist) per se, the words can just be triggering something different all together. But it certainly is strange and spooky...some moments I feel like I almost can grasp or "touch" this memory...but then the door gets slammed shut, partly because I'm too afraid to sustain the "link". I'll include here a few snippets that have evoked very strong "spookiness".
Those words in bold did trigger me the most.
Maybe its a waste of time to try to figure this out, but on the other hand the link to this "memory" gets clearer for every time it happens so I feel I should get "prepared" some how to "take the blow" when it comes. Any ideas, suggestions? Feel free to mirror also... ;)
Now, the first time I read the transcripts I didn't have all of them available, so I didn't go through them all. This second time around I gathered them all and uploaded them to my cell phone for easy and fast access, anywhere and anytime (I highly recommend doing this if you can! Those few moments of spare time while sitting on the bus can be made useful!)
I'll cut to the cheese. The first time I read the sessions there was a few lines or words that triggered a strange emotion in me. It felt like a very distant memory of something so terrible that it was blocked away. But these lines or words somehow "woke up" this emotion or should I say memory, a feeling of panic or hysteria in the solar plexus area. And as my title tells you, almost every part where the discussion was of the Nephilim or Nephalim this very disturbing feeling arose. Also this word 'Coatzlmundi' was a heavy "trigger". And as I read the second time I experienced the same "panic" after reading several other parts as well.
Have any of you guys had similar experiences - certain key words acting as some sort of trigger? I realize that my "panic" doesn't have to be related to the Nephilim (if they do exist) per se, the words can just be triggering something different all together. But it certainly is strange and spooky...some moments I feel like I almost can grasp or "touch" this memory...but then the door gets slammed shut, partly because I'm too afraid to sustain the "link". I'll include here a few snippets that have evoked very strong "spookiness".
Session 941020:
Q: Who built the city of Mohenjo-Daro?
A: Lizards directly. Coatzlmundi legend ties in to this directly look at
illustrations on stones now.
Q: Who is Coatzlmundi?
A: Other deity of the Lizards worshipped by the Atlanteans and their
descendants because of the direct contact with humans for 1000 years.
Q: Now, you said Mohenjo Daro was built by the Lizzies directly. Did
they occupy this city themselves?
A: No.
Q: When was this city last inhabited continually?
A: 3065 years ago.
Q: When was it built?
A: 6092 years ago.
Q: I would like to go back to the subject of the Nephilim. Now you
said the Nephilim were a group of humanoid types brought here to
earth to be enforcers, is that correct?
A: Yes.
Q: When were they brought here?
A: 9046 BC one reference.
Q: They were giants, is that correct?
A: Yes.
Q: They were presented to the people as the representatives, or "Sons" of God, is that correct?
A: Yes.
Session 941023:
Q: (L) These Nephilim, how tall were they again?
A: Up to 15 feet maximum.
Q: (L) Was Goliath, who was killed by David, one of the Nephilim?
A: Yes. In legend. Actual event depicted in story was earlier.
Q: (L) Was it actually David and Goliath?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Did he actually slay him with a stone from a slingshot?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Were these Nephilim genetically intermixed with human
beings?
A: Temporarily.
Q: (L) Why only temporarily?
A: DNA conflict.
Q: (L) Were they smarter than us?
A: No.
Q: (L) Were they bigger and dumber?
A: No.
Q: (L) About the same?
A: Yes.
Session 990710:
[...]After several minutes he found himself flying into a world of true hallucinations. After arriving in a celestial cavern where a supernatural carnival of demons was in full swing, he saw two strange boats floating through the air that combined to form a huge dragon headed prow not unlike that of a Viking ship.
Those words in bold did trigger me the most.
Maybe its a waste of time to try to figure this out, but on the other hand the link to this "memory" gets clearer for every time it happens so I feel I should get "prepared" some how to "take the blow" when it comes. Any ideas, suggestions? Feel free to mirror also... ;)