The activity or syndrome that comes from various different places in the male psyche had been a recurring theme more or less for many years
When very young, about 5 or 6 I would know when someone was going to or 'thinking of' doing some type of sexual exposure action. The fear, nausea, and need to act came so instinctively quick, that I would distract the person. One uncle whose lap I sat on got "funny", and I would pretend to drop something, and run away. I knew no parent would understand and make a case of it where i would be only the child subject to making some adult feel bad ultimately, and paying for it. I couldn't imagine that any adult would punish the bad man. I listened to them and saw their behavior and knew to risk it would mean I would be rejected in one way or another. I saw it happen others. Anything to do with sexual parts was unheard of and shameful. I however did not feel this way towards myself or others, but kept all these very adult things to myself. Ironic from a 5 yr. old. There was the other good-looking uncle(probably child molester) who cornered me in a doorway and told me to pose for him in my dress when I was 13, and I knew he was going to go for it, and before that happened I stormed out of there, past him, since he was fixing something in my house. My mother would of believed me maybe, but I was fearful of the family breaking up. My trust issues were already severely compromised.
When an outside on a train did it to me and my girlfriend in NYC, we just yelled and cursed him. I ignored him mostly cause i knew he wanted a reaction. I had no problem berating him and making fun of him, since I had reference points. At 15 I knew what a dominatrix was, and I knew most of these men were submissive, and wanted that kind of reaction. I studied sex habits of the depraved and of what people did for so-called pleasure and became quite adept at pinpointing why a person did things, what the desired result was, and what motivated them. Not for the faint of heart or those that give up a search easily. That's what got me so interested in phycopathy at an early age. I didn't call it that, and not much was written on them. Not only dysfunction of sexual natures, although there is usually some component, but of the conditions surrounding these events. Can be elusive, but I was a detective. I could remotely view at times also, more than I wanted. Which led me to rebirthing, past-lives, all of it.
In fact these exposures have not stopped happening as far as the thoughts and feelings of others to this day that prompt the desire for this. Its not acted on,because the severity of the dysfunction is very different in individuals Mild, you might say. But the exposing is rampant from those I hear it from. It fact it was big breaking news a few weeks ago of a motorist hanging out the window, exposing himself. No one could fathom how he did it. So it was great fun for all to watch, TV, so to speak.
I have always, as far back as I can remember, felt and experienced these desires in men. In myself none of these sexual energies are personally activated. You might think so for all I've studied it. The only positive, progressive growth have come from women able to share their secret and destructive abuses that come out when in depth conversations arise. I also do not despise men for what others do. That is a gift, is all I can say, since I experienced allot. I can detach from personal experience, Thank The Universal Cosmic Mind. I don't think one can live fully unless you can,but speak for self only. Who knows what a person can function with and why? Well the C's do I bet. I don't know who else for sure. Or anything for sure.
I have experienced abuses of this nature up until I was in my early twenties. They have paved the way for a life that has become dimensional and expansive because of it, not despite it. I probably chose it, seems like it, remember a lot from somewhere. I wouldn't say it was hard, rather life and death to come to terms with why people do what they do and the affect it has had on me personally, professionally, creatively, humanly, and cosmically. You get the chance to experience these states by faith and hard work of putting one foot in front of the other, reading, writing, speaking, and living. Surviving is for peoplewith the veil intact, and rightfully so. I think we get to live our most horrific nightmares only when we have grown enough to be led to the tools we may choose to lighten our way. Every horror is an opportunity to dig deeper through the muck and mire that has been so thoughtfully placed there so long ago, with the intentions of control. This is the freewill planet for better or worse, depending who you are. And what you choose. When it gets painful enough fear , the option we take when we forget who we are, is not an option.
Is this person someone you know? 
