tridean
Jedi Master
Bud said:Actually, it is I that feels like I owe you something because of what has developed. Perhaps if I had just said nothing or worded my replies differently, this may have been prevented altogether. I don't think I could feel much worse about something I wrote, but it's no one on here's fault. I feel like you owe me nothing, so don't be concerned with me. :)
Hi Bud,
I do feel I owe you and others something here and it's important that I convey this now...
I have always felt that I can not commit to the levels that I see others do on this forum, and I mean in areas such as reading, health, programs, research, sharing and so forth. Although I do spend a lot of time 'working' on myself, I doubt it is at levels that I should be. Having said that, I feel that I am traveling my own path and that whatever levels of commitment I put in are 'right' for me..I rarely question them as I feel this puts weight on me, rather I have found that I am better at just asking the inner me 'what do I need to do?' and then let go and let whatever develops develop.
Having said that, I still find this forum to be the most open about things and I 'always' without hesitation turned to this forum before any other place when I want to know what others think about a particular topic. It's like the canary in the coal mine....someone out there makes a claim about something, I immediately come here first to see if others have investigated it and what their findings are...
I say this with the risk that because I do not commit like others on this forum, that my presence may be more of a drain on others rather than a contribution...I hope this is not the case
Anart, I have just read your last post..I would ask that you consider what I have just said above to Bud and if you think it's still ok to have posting privileges, you can be assured I have learned my lesson regarding posting and external consideration.
Maybe, we can change the title of this post to 'read this before you decide to delete a post' or something similar...maybe there is a silver lining to this that can benefit others in the future :)
Thanks again
Dingo