Recurring Dreams

[Craig]

Gaelen's idea that emotional impurities are represented by "filthy bathrooms" certainly seems to equate with my own observations. I had this type of dream a few weeks ago, and it was at a time when I was just beginning to realise that a situation I was in was not a good thing at all; in fact, it was like slowly beginning to awaken from a dream in that, for weeks prior I had - compared to my usual inner state - been in the deepest "sleep". When I met this person, I found myself not caring an ounce for the Work; in fact, all of that seemed at the time to belong to some vague and almost illusory reality. Anyway, here’s what I dreamt on December 14th:

I found myself in a large house with many winding corridors and I was being pursued by a Knight – fully armoured and I think riding on a white horse. I was desperately trying to avoid him and hide in any rooms I came across because he was trying to kill me. I don’t know whether it was me or him (probably me), but I had in my right hand a small golden dagger which was pathetically useless against his sword, and I would try and poke it towards him to ward him off. Whenever I tried to do so, the scene would become fluid - my arms would also turn to jelly - and it was impossible even to tap his metallic armour. The only thing I could do is run and hide. The first room I recall being in, is a bathroom, which was dirty and certainly out of place in this house. More like a public bathroom. I escaped out of there as he charged in, because I was hiding behind the door. I saw [two friends] near this Knight as if distracting him away from where I was. I found another room which was decorated from Christmas, and was brightly lit compared to the dim bathroom, and I crouched in the corner and watched the Knight go past through the glass window in the door. [A friend] followed and started to peer at me, smiling as if to say, "Wow, you avoided him again..." but I was frustrated at him and trying to tell him to get lost because he'd give my away.

The chase was on again in the hallways of the house, and as I was running down one corridor, two really heavy objects fell from the low ceiling that would have killed me if I'd been struck. It was like the place was booby-trapped. I looked up, and the same look golden dagger was pointing downwards, with the handle cemented into the wall. It was like, if you had ducked down to avoid the falling objects, the dagger would stick in your head when you stood up again.

The whole dream represented me running away from myself; or the part that wallows in the "A" influences trying to evade capture by the nobler part - the Knight of "B" influences.

Still continuing with this plain weird drama that has unfolded recently in my life, I had this dream on the night of discovering what had really happened i.e. it was a manipulated "love bite" scenario:

I dreamed last night that I was here at home, but the whole house was under surveillance; in fact, it reminded me very much of the movie "Saw" where the guy kidnaps people and places them into a puzzle-like scenario where they have to escape in time, or else they'll be killed. All the while, he's watching from hidden cameras behind one-way mirrors etc. somewhat unbeknownst to the victims. Anyway, I suddenly found myself being chased by this monstrous figure; his face was a cross between Jigsaw (from the Saw film) and the Texas Chainsaw Massacre. I burst frantically into a bathroom that had stalls and urinals; it was absolutely filthy. The only weapon I had to defend myself was a measly mop and bucket. I grabbed it, and jumped up onto the sink that was behind the door and waited for him to run in. The door flung open, and without even looking, I plunged this mop right down into his throat; but to my horror, I realised it was a completely different person. It was some innocent looking man - the caretaker I think - and I almost passed out from the overwhelming terror and guilt of what I’d just done. But this dark figure was still after me, so I made a run for it.

I suddenly found myself outside - the weather was wet and dreary - and this horrific creature was just making his way out of the front door, when I spotted a red and gold coloured axe on the ground. I lunged for it, as did he, but he tripped and I successfully grabbed it in time. By this point I was raging with anger, and moments before I plunged this axe into his skull, he suddenly transformed into a human being; he looked similar to the caretaker - and I can't rid the impression that he was somewhat similar in appearance to me, though not identical - but I didn't care. The blade chipped off a huge triangular piece of bone, exposing his brain. At this point I was struck by the sheer size of his head, it was triangular with rounded corners; and the lobes of his brain were very intricate, much like that of a dolphin. In other words, not human, but definitely superior... I continued hacking away at it, and his brain was splattering off like a meat paste; it was so disgusting but I had to make sure that he was dead. I was scared that I'd sort of just give him a lobotomy and make him even more evil.

It was obviously, a pretty horrific dream; I get the whole large triangular head, intricate brain thing: to me that is associated with a typical description of an alien being. So I was trying to kill off, it seems, the fears aroused by my realisations that day. I've yet to write about them, but I will quite soon. I have another dream to include that is pertinent to the high strangeness; about a preying-mantis headed being, which really came out of the blue towards the end of December and is important in the manipulation that went on. I'm almost convinced that that wasn't a creation of my own imagination.

But anyway, there's another dirty bathroom dream, associated with negative emotions aroused from events in waking life. I also recall another, about a year ago, of being on the run in a very dirty city; I was leaping between buildings - Spring Heeled Jack style - and landing barefooted in raw sewage, heroin needles, and seeing a lot of partially-intact filthy bathrooms in derelict houses. Again, I remember I was dealing with some not very pleasant emotional issues at the time.

I also have recurring back to school ones; the last I had was on the same night as the Knight dream. I returned for some sort of reunion, and when I got inside I realised that I'd actually left about three suitcases near my locker for all these years, packed full of personal items. I grabbed the zippers, but there was so much pressure inside, the things burst open and all of my belongings were scattered everywhere. All of the school kids were looking and stepping on everything which really made me angry and anxious at the same time. I tried as best as I could to gather everything back and just to make a break for home; I was finished with this place. I didn't have much of a good time at school in real life, and obviously my personal items represent some emotional issues that were still keeping my tied there. The dream ended during the final ceremony; everyone seemed to be in such a good and celebratory mood except me. We were all asked to give a short speech and I think I was one of the last to talk. Up until then, all I was hearing was what a great period of their lives it had been. I stood up, feeling quite neutral emotionally, and said: "All you did was make life a misery." I walked towards the school gates - everybody was completely silent - and just as I stepped outside them, the huge suitcases that I was lugging along with me, vaporised right out of my hands.

In my interactions with this new "friend" of mine, a lot of childhood anxieties were being stirred up and so the dream is again symbolic of progress being made in coming to terms with things and letting the past go. However, last night I did have a dream about returning to college (which I suppose has its own place and issues to be dealt with); but it'll be interesting to see if I have another back to schooler, or whether that's finished for good.

 

[Keit]

Wow, how come I didn't pay attention to this thread before.

Well, here's another one, that I have at least once a week. I looked this up on a dream forum one time, and saw others dream about it, too. In the dream, I'm looking for a bathroom. If I find one, sometimes the toilets are all soiled and really yucky, so it's not possible to use them. If I do find one that's not, for some reason, it's not private. Somebody is watching me "do my business" or else, there's a feeling that somebody may walk in on me any second and see.

I have the same recurring dream! Actually, for a very long time I was sure that there is something wrong with my head if I dream about filthy/dirty public bathrooms. :)
And like in your dreams, "my" bathrooms are public without doors for all to see. Or there is fear that someone will interfere, or bathroom is too filthy to use, so I leave. In most of dreams I do get interfered.

In fact, a week ago I had a dream where I’ve entered public and filthy toilet and saw a long line of ladies waiting for their turn. So I understood that I am out of luck again and approached the perfume stand (there was one in a bathroom). I was looking for particular perfume but couldn’t see it. After having this dream I made a search about dream significance of toilets and perfumes, and apparently my inner self trying to get rid of emotional garbage but every time get interrupted, so in this particular case I was looking for a perfume to mask the stink of those filthy/useless (probably negative) emotions.

My own interpretation is that my current situation doesn’t allow me to clean my inner self and get rid of unnecessary garbage, to become really myself or to act, as I would like to. Those people who stand in line or interfere represent all those obstacles in life that I forced to endure and to deal with. And it’s a constant cause for frustration.

For example: what if the natural tendency is to be open and friendly, but every time something like this is happening, a person is manipulated, used or something similar. In this case the "positive" emotion transforms into suppressed anger and frustration, also influencing the person’s behavior. But it still feels as garbage by inner self and there is no optimal way to get rid of it yet. Maybe that’s why those dreams come back again, like a reminder. But maybe I am way off and there is some other meaning.

 

[substanze]

hi people i have never been a strong dreamer but i had a dream recently that involved alot of things i had never experinced before in a dream the whole dream was so real a nd vivid that even now i have to keep on remembering that it was a dream and not a memory seriously it was cool i stood up for my brother agaist alot of much bigger people and won met my hero archieved my biggest goals met discussed the meaning of life and other eluding questions(unfortunatly i cant remmeber what we came up with) with millions of really cool and interesting people young and old made love with the women of my fantasy flew at the peak had super powers much like those of dragon ball Z characters(a japanese animae which im not really that fond of??) and had a ultermate show down with "MAX" the main character of james camerons Dark Angel tv series, and ended up winning with the help of two really accentric old men now you think this would be the end but after al this things turned bads the seemed to be people out to kill me some how in the dream i knew it was the people i stood up to over my brother but for uknown reasons they were ahead of me i would arrive home to find it blown up the same went for my friends i would get to thier house and find them missing replaced with thousands of bullet hole just before i woke i was hidding in a jail cell with the killer just out side the door it was just then before i awoke i reliealised that the supposed killer was actualy helping me and my friends by making it appear them and me were dead so the real killers left us alone. the main thing that interests me was that the whole time i was dreaming i didnt no it was a dream but al the places and events seemed familure but i knew id never been to this places or done this things. Anyway ive gone on long enough i was just wondering if some one can help explain this deam and the feeling of knowing the places and events in them.

 

[anart]

'substanze', are you aware that your entire post - 16 lines on my screen - used only three periods, little capitalization and many, many phonetically spelled (misspelled) words? If you could practice some external consideration in your writing; take the time to do the work to make what you are writing clear, so your reader doesn't have to - that might encourage some feedback from others. Just a thought.

 

[Mrs. Peel]

hi people i have never been a strong dreamer but i had a dream recently that involved alot of things i had never experinced before in a dream the whole dream was so real a nd vivid that even now i have to keep on remembering that it was a dream and not a memory seriously it was cool i stood up for my brother agaist alot of much bigger people and won met my hero archieved my biggest goals met discussed the meaning of life and other eluding questions(unfortunatly i cant remmeber what we came up with) with millions of really cool and interesting people young and old made love with the women of my fantasy flew at the peak had super powers much like those of dragon ball Z characters(a japanese animae which im not really that fond of??) and had a ultermate show down with "MAX" the main character of james camerons Dark Angel tv series, and ended up winning with the help of two really accentric old men

Anyway ive gone on long enough i was just wondering if some one can help explain this deam and the feeling of knowing the places and events in them.

Hi substanze,

Sounds to me like you've been playing too many video games and/or watching too much TV, and have started acting it out in your dreams. ;)

Maybe that's why it seems familier.

 

[agni]

That’s odd. Many days in a row I am seeing dreams about school (it has started with a alien dream of black flying spheres, that’s where people from school have started to appear).
Today in a dream someone was gathering students, and I said: “No way!!" and ran towards the hallway on the second floor, it was filled with water. It was very clean, and I swam away butterfly style.
There is a commonality in the dream, mostly people who had a conflict with me are surfacing. I am not sure what’s up with that ?

It’s interesting how people see similar dreams in similar time…

 

[Wisteria]

Well, I can see no one has posted in this particular thread for several years, but it is appropriate for my subject so....

I had this recurring dream countless times through my childhood. It is extremely frustrating because it is simply impossible to put into words. It is unlike any dream I have had before or since. Definitely not in the "normal" dream category. It was all very unreal. Shapes, feelings, colours, tastes... nothing really tangible..... but it utterly terrified me down to my very core. I think it's the reason that normal bad dreams have never particularly bothered me. A nightmare is a walk in the park compared to this experience.

I'm not really sure why I'm posting this. I would love to understand what this dream was. Was it in fact a dream? I have pondered over the last several years whether it was an encounter with another density or something? It was just so intense. The C's could probably tell me...

 

[Serendipity]

I had this recurring dream countless times through my childhood. It is extremely frustrating because it is simply impossible to put into words. It is unlike any dream I have had before or since. Definitely not in the "normal" dream category. It was all very unreal. Shapes, feelings, colours, tastes... nothing really tangible..... but it utterly terrified me down to my very core. I think it's the reason that normal bad dreams have never particularly bothered me. A nightmare is a walk in the park compared to this experience.

Hello, Wisteria! While I don't know what was the nature of experience that you described, right away it caught my eye because of similarity to the experience that I had when I was 5-6 years old. I wrote about it here: http://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,16658.msg320384.html#msg320384 That was when my English language vocabulary wasn't quite good, but even now I find it impossible to describe using words, partly because the fact that when I had woken up after that 'dream', no matter how I tried I just couldn't remember all, even most of it. It simply hadn't or couldn't been retained in memory. But I can tell you that it was soul chilling 'dream', or at least extremely intensive.

The sensations, feelings, visuals, movement and space, even voices that I heard, and objects, that like me, moved at extremely high speeds, were all almost completely unfamiliar to my understanding of the world, and indescribable. When it started, it felt as if I was blown away by a whirlwind into another dimension where nothing was quite as I used it to be. I remember the enormous vastness, space around me that was so huge that I feared I'll get lost in it, or devoured by it. I had no control over my 'body', it was as if some great and powerfull force had overwhelmed me and 'carried'/blew me around on it's own will. The speed, and the big dark incomprehensible objects, but mostly the indescribable weird sensations that I hadn't had the knowledge to deal with, and that produced the fear.

All that remained afterwards was the feeling of 'knowing' that somewhere in some level/part of my being, it's still happening. Maybe that's why when I had woken up, I had a vague, yet distinct (strong) feeling that I've experienced this or been there before, yet to my conscious awareness I hadn't (I only remember having the same, but less intensive experience one more time when I was 17 or so). And yes, even though I had scary nightmares and even more scary night terrors quite a few times, it's nothing compared to what I 'dreamt' as a child, whatever it was.

ADDED: I also remembered that until when I was about 18, on many occasions while just lying/relaxing in my bed, that same sensation/state would appear like a 'thread' of sorts, and I knew that if l 'climbed onto' it and 'follow' it would result in same experience as when I was 5. Each time I would scare out of it, except the one time when I was 17, when it happened, exactly like I suspected it would. And it can't be just a dream because the large part of the 'daily' conscious mind was involved in both occasions. Haven't had it since, don't know why, but perhaps it could be somehow connected to sleep paralysis, since that's almost exactly the time when I had my first sleep paralysis experience. Thanks to this forum and the diet, that's gone now as well. So, perhaps both of those experience are related to diet. Just a thought.

 

[Wisteria]

Hello, Wisteria! While I don't know what was the nature of experience that you described, right away it caught my eye because of similarity to the experience that I had when I was 5-6 years old. I wrote about it here: http://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,16658.msg320384.html#msg320384 That was when my English language vocabulary wasn't quite good, but even now I find it impossible to describe using words, partly because the fact that when I had woken up after that 'dream', no matter how I tried I just couldn't remember all, even most of it. It simply hadn't or couldn't been retained in memory. But I can tell you that it was soul chilling 'dream', or at least extremely intensive.

Thank you for sharing Serendipity. :)

I'm not sure how my memory was with this dream upon waking. I never tried to remember it since it terrified me so much. But I do recall that there was this weird taste (not sure what it was from, I only encountered it a few times) which would trigger flashbacks of the 'dream'. So for a few seconds I could feel the sensations of the 'dream' in real life. That was very strange and scarey.

The sensations, feelings, visuals, movement and space, even voices that I heard, and objects, that like me, moved at extremely high speeds, were all almost completely unfamiliar to my understanding of the world, and indescribable. When it started, it felt as if I was blown away by a whirlwind into another dimension where nothing was quite as I used it to be. I remember the enormous vastness, space around me that was so huge that I feared I'll get lost in it, or devoured by it. I had no control over my 'body', it was as if some great and powerfull force had overwhelmed me and 'carried'/blew me around on it's own will. The speed, and the big dark incomprehensible objects, but mostly the indescribable weird sensations that I hadn't had the knowledge to deal with, and that produced the fear.

"completely unfamiliar to my understanding of the world". "enormous vastness, space around me that was so huge that I feared I'll get lost in it, or devoured by it." "big dark incomprehensible objects, but mostly the indescribable weird sensations"

These phrases are better descriptions of my 'dream' than the poor effort I made. I don't recall having no control over my body though. Although perhaps that was part of it too - as I said, I never consciously tried to remember these 'dreams'. I do remember that I couldn't escape. Everything surrounded and enveloped me.

I also remembered that until when I was about 18, on many occasions while just lying/relaxing in my bed, that same sensation/state would appear like a 'thread' of sorts, and I knew that if l 'climbed onto' it and 'follow' it would result in same experience as when I was 5. Each time I would scare out of it, except the one time when I was 17, when it happened, exactly like I suspected it would. And it can't be just a dream because the large part of the 'daily' conscious mind was involved in both occasions.

It really does sound like your experience was with another dimension or density. Obviously I can never know that though - as with mine. I do find it interesting that someone else has had a similar experience to mine. It's difficult to know how similar they are due to the indescribable factor, but I find it very interesting nonetheless.

Haven't had it since, don't know why, but perhaps it could be somehow connected to sleep paralysis, since that's almost exactly the time when I had my first sleep paralysis experience. Thanks to this forum and the diet, that's gone now as well. So, perhaps both of those experience are related to diet. Just a thought.

I have never experienced sleep paralysis (to my knowledge), so I don't believe my 'dream' is connected with that. From what you described before about your inability to control your body in your 'dream' though, it sounds like it certainly could be a factor in yours.

I'm not sure if mine was related to diet either, as the 'dreams' happened during the seventies - before the low-fat diet malarky kicked in, and my Mum always fed us wholesome home cooked meals.

As utterly terrifying as it was, there is a part of me which is so curious I would be interested to revisit the 'dream' to see if my increased years/experience/knowledge would be able to make some more sense of it. But that's not really an option.

 

[freebird]

Bringing the topic back to top as I marvel at how many are dreaming about being back at school. I thought it was just me fumbling with lockers etc. I am also not prepared for class because I have missed so many. My interpretation is that I am facing something in my waking life that I have not put the proper time in preparation for.

I have another repeating dream that I would love to figure out. My family is out at a nearby sports plex when suddenly the sky is filled with flying cars, armoured trucks and other thing that the people around us believe are hot air balloons. I know differently. These are cloaked alien ships and the invasions has started. They are coming from the north so I hurry my family into our car and flee south. I have been dreaming this monthly for about 4 years. It's a nightmare! I keep my eye on the sky in that area. I expect to see something there while awake someday. Interpretation welcomed and wanted!

 

[DonnieG]

I've had a recurring dream. In this dream I was on a plane heading to South Carolina back to Marine boot camp, in the dream there was a gaping crack in the floor of the plane you could see the trees and land through. I wind up back in boot camp, but it was nothing like my real life experience, and it's different every time, the plane always had a crack in the floor though. Oddly enough shortly after have the recurring dream, life took a decided turn towards being exciting in a perilous way. This is a common theme, when I have the dream, life became extremely interesting.

 

[Ruth]

It's odd, I've been having a lot of dreams with aircraft falling out of the sky. They're all passenger jets and I'm on the ground looking up, wonder if I'm going to avoid being hit by a crashing aircraft or the debris of the crash. It all seems to happen so slowly.