Clairvoyance event during the third book:
What a Duke Dares.
By this time, I was thoroughly worked by the first two books, experienced deep changes like this dough the baker is kneading:
I was following the tribulations of Pen, the heroine. The Valley of Darkness she had to walk through to finally reach her lover's heart. By this time, all the absolutely stunning love declarations and all the love-scenes threw me into a sort of "therapeutic-soul-hypnosis": as I read and re-read the amazing sentences in complete awe and wonder, they felt like pouring a healing-salve on my soul. Re-living Campbell's descriptions in my mind, I was dazzled, like turning around in a room of mirrors. All these never-before experienced love & warmth romantic feelings were just showering me, loving-kindness was beamed my direction from all the mirrors at once.. I guess I must have reached some kind of a limit, because suddenly I was elsewhere:
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Bright sky and blue low-hills in the background: A meadow, a tree branch.. a
garden, all these very blurry, bathed in almost blinding, golden sunlight. Trees in full bloom, blurred. A person is standing in the center. Golden, semi-short hair.. and she is laughing in genuine bliss.
First that was a shock, as its
very rare in the "social circles" where I don't move in: I hardly ever see someone in my life doing that. Then came her thoughts in a stream of "strobe-light" flashes. It was a short burst, ((lasting as long as you see in action movies, when a trusty, automatic rifle is burst-shot quickly by the professional commando protagonist)).
First I caught a full-bright 'photograph image' of Anna in the sunshine with her blonde, shining hair - she was throwing her head back doing a big, fully heart-felt laughter. Her emotions-thoughts like a transparent 'silk-veil-cloud' was floating into my head touching my mind. It was fantastic! She was filled with delight, happiness and joy. Rare to see people producing such a pure, lovely laughter coming from the heart.
The intimacy of touching her thoughts & Being - felt like a soft-explosion of warmth-surprise-shock in the back of my neck and chest. I caught her amazing, positive general-outlook on life. How she was and is always attempting to solve her life problems by 'looking up to the sun' and let the light shine on her face and the bright rays warm her soul. She was is always striving to be hopeful, jovial,
confident! Aspiring, joyful, good-humored, sunny and optimistic. The shock of the bright "cloud" of emotions coming from her hit me considerably, because I never experienced someone looking so encouragingly and happily
forward(!) to life, toward the future.
Sorry... I have no experience with emotions. Regards solving life problems I was always desperate, depressed, afraid, aghast. I was / am always gnashing my teeth, I was / am always in the darkness.. Then just seeing somebody
living in a brightness-dimension.. experiencing her thoughts - even for just less than a second..
She was the complete-amazing total opposite of all my Grim & Darkness life-outlook: she was so purely, genuinely happy and trusting and brave. What's more ==> She was is CONFIDENT in her ability to remain so and keep up her gaiety!
After the vivacity of this event, I began wondering, if she is alive? Because the beginning of her books didn't explicitly state.. Then I went to her website and read that
she is indeed very much alive! Then one glance on her photo made me smile brightly. :D
My eyes are becoming watery, its harder to type..