astrozombie said:
Buddy, I was gonna give your idea a quick reply but something told me it warranted more thought.
Ouch!
Let me describe what living in the "gap" feels like.
I was a Catholic for two-thirds of my life including and most importantly, my childhood. The Jesuit sec within the church have a saying (best data suggests it originated from them), "Give us the first seven years of your child's life and we will own them".
It's true. Not at face value, but it's true.
Obviously people come and go for various reasons and they certainly don't own any patents on the figurative truth but they aren't lying in the least.
The seeds planted during our childhood always mature. People change radically from the children they once were and those seeds can grow into beautiful roses for some while growing in to the Wandering Jews (it's a real, pesky plant that people always make the mistake of choosing) that drain our life's water, for others.
As far as I can tell, I understand exactly what you're saying.
astrozombie said:
I said that I was happier now and I meant that though I was never particularly miserable. I was just never satisfied.
Therein, lies the problem. If they were truly giving me the keys to the "Kingdom of Heaven" and I turned them down like a selfish and unsatisfied brat, then I just might get what they say I have coming.
So, I know the church is saturated to the bone with lies but what are they specifically is the crux.
It depends, but a significant part of that question relates to the "I" part of you that's asking. If "apparent you" doesn't know what the lies are, then can "apparent you" really say "I
know the church is saturated to the bone with lies?" One reason for the use of "apparent you" may be due to the idea that we have two minds - one is our birthright and one is a "foreign installation" in every sense of that phrase - to which that message related to "Give us the first seven years of your child's life and we will own them" acts like a hint.
astrozombie said:
Did they lie about, of all things.........Jesus himself?!?
He's such a beautiful person and his never ending capacity to always forgive calls me like a siren in the sea.
The way I see it, that particular forgiveness teaching can be practiced to some degree by anyone who is familiar with "Karma dumping", but not the kind of "Karma dumping" that you find when you google the phrase.
What I'm talking about are those people like Jesus, Buddha, etc. who take on the task of absorbing people's emotional garbage, nastiness, betrayals, assaults, confessions and so forth with out reacting against the 'villians'. Basically, the "Jesus" person holds it all inside himself and takes it all to the grave or whatever. The advantage to the 'dumper' is that they are able to, at least temporarily, rid themselves of some rigidity which may grant them just enough freedom to experience a Metanoia, or major change in mind and heart. The advantage for the "receiver" of the dump is just a release from any further obligation to a person who dumps on them and rejects them. From this perspective, it's obvious to me that whoever told you that is acting as if
he is the "Jesus" person. Anyway, it's those people who won't "dump and reject" that require an ongoing involvement, because as long as they are asking, searching, trying to understand, then these kinds of teachers seem to respond like they have an STO-like obligation to help.
At least, this is a description of the concept as I absorbed it from prior researches.
astrozombie said:
I'm always trying to rationalize and incorporate him into my new beliefs in some way, some manner, so that I can have a safety clause, a spiritual loop hole if you will.
I understand the loophole. As for myself, I'm fascinated by the message behind the explanation of Pascal's wager. I think William James does a fine, comprehensive treatment of the subject in his essay "Will to Believe." I think he makes good case. Are you familiar? If not, you can read it from here: _http://www.gutenberg.org/ebooks/26659
And I'm pleased to say that James'
Varieties of Religious Experience comes recommended here
# 16, Esotericism and Parapsychology
astrozombie said:
Pathetic, I know but there it is.
Not pathetic at all, though it may involve emotion (the pathos).
astrozombie said:
Too much introspect? I don't think so. Not when the name of the game is deception and the loser forfeits their soul.
I understand the conviction. I certainly don't have a black and white answer. Your personal Aim for your involvment in our way of Working is mighty important.
astrozombie said:
I really do like Buddy's analogy of the gap and in theme with that, there are many gaps in a person's life...
Probably so. I can see a point of view where the essence of meaning in your topic title applies to a very large portion of everyday life - at least for some people.