Yes. I agree. Self-Observation and Samenows books have been really helpful in this regard in catching my Thinking Errors (of which there are quite a lot) and choosing not to participate in some of the nonsense that runs through my head.But you need to take an active role in the present so you don't live mechanically, as this kind of development doesn't happen mechanically.
It’s crazy how much I have to consciously fight falling into some of these negative or obsessive thought patterns, and how easy it is to fall into them with little to no awareness of doing so.
I greatly appreciate this reminder. Generally, I seem to find ways to actually make things ‘harder’ on myself. Ex. Stubbornness to do what needs to be done or forcing myself to do ‘without’ as I’ve always operated from the mindset of: ‘I can make-do with as little as possible. My needs aren’t important.’Find ways to make things easier for yourself, rather than making unnecessary restrictions
Which all just reinforces a mind-set of limitation rather than abundance.
Ya, I’ve recently discovered the joy of setting small tasks for oneself throughout the day, and the feelings of accomplishment of checking each one off one by one.The car may be dying, the kitchen drain is plugged, house is dirty, shower needs cleaned etc. but for some reason it's this thing that happened years ago that gets all the blame for making life miserable. A lot of people don't seem to realize that if you fix the car, clean the drain, clean the house, and clean the shower you will feel a whole lot better!
I’ve struggled with substance abuse and addictive behaviors in the past and was searching for ways to properly regulate the dopamine levels in my brain.
I came across this article:
Increase your dopamine levels and feel good naturally -- Sott.net
And it was a good reminder to get back to doing all of the things that are laid out in this article; things I used to do consistently before. I.E. Not resorting to substance/addiction, eating a healthy diet, accomplishing daily tasks, exercising and meditating.
Another observation I’ve made is that these 180 degree turns in my behavior come at me in cycles. I’ll be doing very well for several months and then something hits me and I completely fall off and give up. Then I become tired of the suffering and slowly get back on track until I peak, then fall again.
I would very much like to stop falling off the wagon and having the internal strength to not do so in times of adversity.
This also makes me reflect on the necessity for a network and group.
When I’m going through all of that despair I always do it alone. Force myself to do it alone. And my stubbornness to reach out to others for help/feedback seems to be a major crux of the problem.
I suppose it would be good to try and always remember, that a single individual cannot fight the Control System alone.