I've been having a bit of an existential dilemma lately about what constitutes a path towards a balanced and harmonious existence in the objective sense. Firstly, what is balance? It seems to me that balance is an equivalent presence of two antithetical things. Too much disorder leads to chaos, too much order leads to stagnation; an equal presence of both creates stability. I also think that Ark's work is centered around seeking balance. People that are strict scientists seem to ignore the spiritual reality which obviously flows through us while spiritualists have abstract beliefs that often lead to a primitive, if not superstitious existence. It seems that by combining the two, this impasse can be bridged and a new, much more comprehensive understanding of the universe will result. Do we, by finding some relationship between seemingly opposing things, create balance? So, my second question is how do we achieve this balance, and thirdly, is the seeking of balance a worthwhile quest on the path to ascension?
This question of balance is not as easy as it initially appears. Since my seeking began, I've always thought that a balanced and transcendental approach to existence lie in gathering knowledge about everything. (Ok, maybe not about the latest pop idol or Hollywood flings, but pretty much everything else such as politics, science, spirituality...) My "mission" was to learn as much as I could about subjects I deemed relevant so that I would be prepared for the war/realm crossing/apocalypse or whatever you wish to call it. This was really a very personal goal that isolated me from practically everyone and had nothing to do with serving others. Then this girl came along who was really quite aware and shook my belief system a bit; causing me to reexamine my life quest. While I was more or less preparing for war, she had a much different goal in mind; she thought the key to this life lie in the acquisition and giving of unconditional love. I suppose it is not THAT unusual for adolescent girls to dream of achieving such a thing, but this girl seemed to have the awareness to actually understand what love is. Having read almost no Cass material or channeled sources with which we are familiar, she seemed surprisingly well-versed in the dynamics of our matrix reality. We met a little over a year ago. I was typing up something on the computer at school, and she comes over to me out of the blue and asks me if I believed that alien intelligences had visited the Earth. I gave a "quite possibly" answer; unsure of whether this girl was going to be a blessing or a curse. She started going on and on about how aliens crashed at Roswell and how the government is basically a huge front for the aliens who will take advantage of our apocalypse as a cover for their "invasion." Then she started talking about weird dreams she had which were metaphysical/mystical in nature and how she believed that entities were talking to her to further her on her spiritual quest. I must say that it was about the quickest hour and a half I ever experienced. It was all very fascinating, but it was the end of the year and I was willing to let this go as more or less of a coincidence. I was rather surprised that my dealings with Cassiopaea weren't attracting the attention of more "interesting" people. We didn't speak again until December; even though we were in contact with one another, we more or less avoided each other. At that time, she told me that she had a lot to tell me, and that the reason she knew so much was because her uncle was in the FBI and had some how gotten a hold of pictures of the crash site and since her involvement with him she had expereinced numerous sightings and "vivid dreams" of the Greys. I then wrote her a letter (which I still have on the computer) basically summarizing my reading and the state of our world. And our contact began... In January, I learned that she was also somewhat psychic, and could telepathically communicate thoughts and feelings by doing "circles" which involved surrounding herself with salt and meditating. She said that she could "find people" by locking on to an energy signature created by their chakras. I still have the drawing of mine that she gave me. In addition, we aparently had the ability to "travel" places and dream-linked on a couple of occasions. I asked her questions about my dreams involving her, and she answered them pretty accurately, so that was my "proof." I kept records of my experiences. I do not know if this is just telepathy or astral projection or what, but it seemed we had the ability to go places outside of our normal realm of experience at will... It's weird, and I am still skeptical, but it seems to be possible. As time went on, I got to know her a little better and these interesting little phenomena surfaced from time to time. It seemed that she was always under attack from all sides. She was certainly a giver, she said it herself, "when I give, I give all," and always seemed to be in an unbalanced state because her "love" was not returned. Her mother was psychotic, her "friends" often took advantage of her, and her boyfriend was supportive, but "normal" for the most part and rather shook up by things he didn't understand. I told her that a lot of her problems in life came from her emotional attachments to people who just drain energy. Yeah, I'm sure your mother is nice when she's not having one of her delusional outbursts, but why do they make you upset? They will just happen over and over again and you will get depressed and it will be an endless cycle... I also told her that she couldn't get to close to "normal people" because they will turn on you as soon as it suits their ignorant purposes. "If they knew what you really thought and believed, they would probably think you were the antichrist," I told her. And this where we started to diverge and my own internal conflict about which I am writing began. I believed that it was best not to get too attached to anyone because it eliminated a lot of emotional baggage and made it difficult for people to abuse me. I could seek greater understanding in solitude and be happy that no one was banging at my door. She believed that it was all rather selfish and pointless if you didn't know anything about loving people. I had to admit, she did kind of have a point. I had cut myself off from humanity to be on the verge of being antisocial, and I was just consolidating knowledge that I never intended to share. "Everyone is dimly aware," she told me,"they're just waiting for the right thing to wake them up." I had my doubts, but I did think that part of what I was doing might be to provide certain people with the knowledge they need to defend this planet against 4D STS. Perhaps her whole "love issue" was part of a mission to facilitate the development of a unified social consciousness. This divide became greater when we discussed our future plans. She asked me if I would be happy when school was over and we could put this mundane BS behind us. I said yes, although it was only another step on my life plan. She then warned that we would then have to tolerate the mediocrity of jobs. I am determined to find meaning in my work, and I told her I intended to pursue a career in science. I could use the scientific career as a semi-relevant front for my own seeking and gain insight into both the scientific and spiritual worlds. Science is indeed very interesting and has made modern civilization possible. It does seem to be part of a greater understanding of the universe. I must admit, I did borrow ideas from Ark when I decided to do this, and my scientific standing may be in a bit of trouble because I got involved in this alien conspiracy/spiritual weird stuff at a young age before my scientific discipline was developed. I do not know whether this will make me open-minded or just gullible. She said I needed to think of simplicity. I laughed and said that simplicity only existed for the naive or the ignorant. Reality is complex, experience is complex, truth is complex, everything is complex. It is by understanding this complexity that we advance, not by striving for simplicity. I saw that as sticking your head in the ground and ignoring what is there. As everyone around here likes to say, "the devil is in the details." The last discussion we had was about a week ago. We were talking about balance and the state of humanity. This discussion got started because her boyfriend, whom she had just married, supposively had a dream about me in a future where I was supposed to lead the battle of Armageddon. Yes, I know, this just gets weirder and weirder. After practically choking on my food after hearing this, I told her that I did believe that someone must fight for balance. She said that there was no such thing as balance. I would never get everyone to agree with me and besides, my very own thoughts and actions created imbalance. The only way that Earth would be rebalanced would be for everything to be destroyed and a new society to rise from the ashes. "But then that society would grow just as corrupt as this one and the whole cycle would repeat again," I said. "Exactly, that's all there is," she told me. I refused to believe that. There was a better way, a way to release oneself from the cycle. I believe, though she did not know it, that we were actually talking about the 309,000 year cycle. Which I believed could be escaped by attaining 4th density, which could be attained by seeking balance within oneself. And the new STO society would be the one that could aspire to this dream. It seemed the key to the whole situation lie in STO. How does one achieve STO? It seemed to me by seeking balanced and objective understanding in their being. This was quite a dilemma, and I thought about posting about achieving STO by itself, but I decided against it. The topic seemed to already be covered and there was something else that bothered me. She told me it was up to me what to do with the insights she gave me, and I decided to post them here. We will likely never speak seriously again because she has her quaint little house with her little hometown minimum-wage job and her nice husband while I'm sitting at this computer trying to figure everything out, preparing myself for a long arduous life that will cost me great time and money in search of some arcane knowledge. Ah, the simple life...
While my drama was winding down, my friend's, who is also into this stuff, was just winding up. There was a girl who had shown interest in him because he was "different" and she wanted to know why he was the way he was. She said that she had realized she no longer wanted a mundane existence and was intrigued by me when we first met. She seemed pretty much normal and I told my friend to be careful because he might completely inundate her with weirdness if he says too much at once. So he told her a few things and she seemed to be ok with it. They were actually making plans together; she was even willing to endure college so that they would have a decent financial future. Before things got too far advanced, my friend decided to tell her the "truth." After some discussion about aliens, metaphysics, and our place in it, she thought he was crazy and decided she was going back to her hometown so she could go be with her old friends and get away from us weirdos. Ah, the simple life...
Is there a simplicity that overarchs all of the complexities and creates balance? Or, as I believe, is the universe infinitely complex and balance is achieved by understanding all of the intricacies? Ra believes that such things such as conspiracy theories and alien agendas are trivial. All of Carla's material focuses on the simple spiritual understandings, particularly love, and ignores the dark layers of reality by saying that focusing on the positive will get us through. QFG belives that the secret lies in close scrutiny of everything, and the Cassiopaean material talks almost exclusively about the conspiriacies and dark agendas that are at work on this planet. Is there something to this simplicity, or is it just the excuse humans use to bury their heads in the sand when the truth is too painful to bear? And then there is this:
This question of balance is not as easy as it initially appears. Since my seeking began, I've always thought that a balanced and transcendental approach to existence lie in gathering knowledge about everything. (Ok, maybe not about the latest pop idol or Hollywood flings, but pretty much everything else such as politics, science, spirituality...) My "mission" was to learn as much as I could about subjects I deemed relevant so that I would be prepared for the war/realm crossing/apocalypse or whatever you wish to call it. This was really a very personal goal that isolated me from practically everyone and had nothing to do with serving others. Then this girl came along who was really quite aware and shook my belief system a bit; causing me to reexamine my life quest. While I was more or less preparing for war, she had a much different goal in mind; she thought the key to this life lie in the acquisition and giving of unconditional love. I suppose it is not THAT unusual for adolescent girls to dream of achieving such a thing, but this girl seemed to have the awareness to actually understand what love is. Having read almost no Cass material or channeled sources with which we are familiar, she seemed surprisingly well-versed in the dynamics of our matrix reality. We met a little over a year ago. I was typing up something on the computer at school, and she comes over to me out of the blue and asks me if I believed that alien intelligences had visited the Earth. I gave a "quite possibly" answer; unsure of whether this girl was going to be a blessing or a curse. She started going on and on about how aliens crashed at Roswell and how the government is basically a huge front for the aliens who will take advantage of our apocalypse as a cover for their "invasion." Then she started talking about weird dreams she had which were metaphysical/mystical in nature and how she believed that entities were talking to her to further her on her spiritual quest. I must say that it was about the quickest hour and a half I ever experienced. It was all very fascinating, but it was the end of the year and I was willing to let this go as more or less of a coincidence. I was rather surprised that my dealings with Cassiopaea weren't attracting the attention of more "interesting" people. We didn't speak again until December; even though we were in contact with one another, we more or less avoided each other. At that time, she told me that she had a lot to tell me, and that the reason she knew so much was because her uncle was in the FBI and had some how gotten a hold of pictures of the crash site and since her involvement with him she had expereinced numerous sightings and "vivid dreams" of the Greys. I then wrote her a letter (which I still have on the computer) basically summarizing my reading and the state of our world. And our contact began... In January, I learned that she was also somewhat psychic, and could telepathically communicate thoughts and feelings by doing "circles" which involved surrounding herself with salt and meditating. She said that she could "find people" by locking on to an energy signature created by their chakras. I still have the drawing of mine that she gave me. In addition, we aparently had the ability to "travel" places and dream-linked on a couple of occasions. I asked her questions about my dreams involving her, and she answered them pretty accurately, so that was my "proof." I kept records of my experiences. I do not know if this is just telepathy or astral projection or what, but it seemed we had the ability to go places outside of our normal realm of experience at will... It's weird, and I am still skeptical, but it seems to be possible. As time went on, I got to know her a little better and these interesting little phenomena surfaced from time to time. It seemed that she was always under attack from all sides. She was certainly a giver, she said it herself, "when I give, I give all," and always seemed to be in an unbalanced state because her "love" was not returned. Her mother was psychotic, her "friends" often took advantage of her, and her boyfriend was supportive, but "normal" for the most part and rather shook up by things he didn't understand. I told her that a lot of her problems in life came from her emotional attachments to people who just drain energy. Yeah, I'm sure your mother is nice when she's not having one of her delusional outbursts, but why do they make you upset? They will just happen over and over again and you will get depressed and it will be an endless cycle... I also told her that she couldn't get to close to "normal people" because they will turn on you as soon as it suits their ignorant purposes. "If they knew what you really thought and believed, they would probably think you were the antichrist," I told her. And this where we started to diverge and my own internal conflict about which I am writing began. I believed that it was best not to get too attached to anyone because it eliminated a lot of emotional baggage and made it difficult for people to abuse me. I could seek greater understanding in solitude and be happy that no one was banging at my door. She believed that it was all rather selfish and pointless if you didn't know anything about loving people. I had to admit, she did kind of have a point. I had cut myself off from humanity to be on the verge of being antisocial, and I was just consolidating knowledge that I never intended to share. "Everyone is dimly aware," she told me,"they're just waiting for the right thing to wake them up." I had my doubts, but I did think that part of what I was doing might be to provide certain people with the knowledge they need to defend this planet against 4D STS. Perhaps her whole "love issue" was part of a mission to facilitate the development of a unified social consciousness. This divide became greater when we discussed our future plans. She asked me if I would be happy when school was over and we could put this mundane BS behind us. I said yes, although it was only another step on my life plan. She then warned that we would then have to tolerate the mediocrity of jobs. I am determined to find meaning in my work, and I told her I intended to pursue a career in science. I could use the scientific career as a semi-relevant front for my own seeking and gain insight into both the scientific and spiritual worlds. Science is indeed very interesting and has made modern civilization possible. It does seem to be part of a greater understanding of the universe. I must admit, I did borrow ideas from Ark when I decided to do this, and my scientific standing may be in a bit of trouble because I got involved in this alien conspiracy/spiritual weird stuff at a young age before my scientific discipline was developed. I do not know whether this will make me open-minded or just gullible. She said I needed to think of simplicity. I laughed and said that simplicity only existed for the naive or the ignorant. Reality is complex, experience is complex, truth is complex, everything is complex. It is by understanding this complexity that we advance, not by striving for simplicity. I saw that as sticking your head in the ground and ignoring what is there. As everyone around here likes to say, "the devil is in the details." The last discussion we had was about a week ago. We were talking about balance and the state of humanity. This discussion got started because her boyfriend, whom she had just married, supposively had a dream about me in a future where I was supposed to lead the battle of Armageddon. Yes, I know, this just gets weirder and weirder. After practically choking on my food after hearing this, I told her that I did believe that someone must fight for balance. She said that there was no such thing as balance. I would never get everyone to agree with me and besides, my very own thoughts and actions created imbalance. The only way that Earth would be rebalanced would be for everything to be destroyed and a new society to rise from the ashes. "But then that society would grow just as corrupt as this one and the whole cycle would repeat again," I said. "Exactly, that's all there is," she told me. I refused to believe that. There was a better way, a way to release oneself from the cycle. I believe, though she did not know it, that we were actually talking about the 309,000 year cycle. Which I believed could be escaped by attaining 4th density, which could be attained by seeking balance within oneself. And the new STO society would be the one that could aspire to this dream. It seemed the key to the whole situation lie in STO. How does one achieve STO? It seemed to me by seeking balanced and objective understanding in their being. This was quite a dilemma, and I thought about posting about achieving STO by itself, but I decided against it. The topic seemed to already be covered and there was something else that bothered me. She told me it was up to me what to do with the insights she gave me, and I decided to post them here. We will likely never speak seriously again because she has her quaint little house with her little hometown minimum-wage job and her nice husband while I'm sitting at this computer trying to figure everything out, preparing myself for a long arduous life that will cost me great time and money in search of some arcane knowledge. Ah, the simple life...
While my drama was winding down, my friend's, who is also into this stuff, was just winding up. There was a girl who had shown interest in him because he was "different" and she wanted to know why he was the way he was. She said that she had realized she no longer wanted a mundane existence and was intrigued by me when we first met. She seemed pretty much normal and I told my friend to be careful because he might completely inundate her with weirdness if he says too much at once. So he told her a few things and she seemed to be ok with it. They were actually making plans together; she was even willing to endure college so that they would have a decent financial future. Before things got too far advanced, my friend decided to tell her the "truth." After some discussion about aliens, metaphysics, and our place in it, she thought he was crazy and decided she was going back to her hometown so she could go be with her old friends and get away from us weirdos. Ah, the simple life...
Is there a simplicity that overarchs all of the complexities and creates balance? Or, as I believe, is the universe infinitely complex and balance is achieved by understanding all of the intricacies? Ra believes that such things such as conspiracy theories and alien agendas are trivial. All of Carla's material focuses on the simple spiritual understandings, particularly love, and ignores the dark layers of reality by saying that focusing on the positive will get us through. QFG belives that the secret lies in close scrutiny of everything, and the Cassiopaean material talks almost exclusively about the conspiriacies and dark agendas that are at work on this planet. Is there something to this simplicity, or is it just the excuse humans use to bury their heads in the sand when the truth is too painful to bear? And then there is this:
Considering what has been brought to my attention, this passage has new meaning to me. The Cassiopaeans must've been driving Laura crazy that night. Now we have this huge paradox about wanting to be STO is desiring something and therefore STS, but STS can strive to become STO, which is still desiring, but certain events can occur which allow STS to become STO. So does someone, by desiring to become STO become an STO candidate? Does such a candidate pursue balance and harmony which is touted so by these love and light people? And what is balance in the first place? Can it be attained by STO or STS? I often wonder if I have any knowledge at all, or if my beliefs that I am going somewhere and doing something through my seeking are all just wishful thinking.session990828 said:Q: What I am saying is: if a person can simply BE, in the doing and being of who and what they are, in
simplicity; to become involved in doing everything as a meditation, or as a consecration, whether they are
walking down the street and being at one with the air, the sunshine, the birds and trees and other people; in
this state of oneness, doesn't that constitute a giving to the universe as giving oneself up as a channel for the
universe to experience all these things?
A: Not if one is "feeling this oneness."
Q: We are what we are. Nature is nature. Progression is progression. And if people would just relax and be
who and what they are in honesty, and do what is according to their nature without violating the Free Will of
others, that this is a more pure form of being than doing things out of any feeling of expectation, or desire; to
just BE, not want... just BE?
A: Yes, but STS does not do that.
Q: (A) From which I draw conclusions: if there STS around us, we cannot just...
A: You are all STS. If you were not, you would not be where you are.
Q: (A) There are those who are happy in the STS mode; and there are those who are trying to get out of the
STS mode...
A: STO candidate.
Q: (A) These STO candidates cannot just simply BE, even theoretically, because then, STS would eat them.
A: No.
Q: Why not?
A: STS does not eat according to protocol.
Q: What does that mean?
A: What do you suppose?
Q: I have no idea!
A: STS "eats" whatever it wants to, if it is able.
Q: That's what we said. If you are STO in an STS world, you are basically defenseless and they eat you.
A: No.
Q: Why? What makes STO unavailable or 'inedible?'
A: Frequency resonance not in sync.
Q: (A) But then, that would mean that all these people who are saying that we need just to love everything and
everybody, are right. They just be, and love, don't do anything, just give everything to the Lizzies... they are
right!
A: No, because motivation is STS.
Q: How is the motivation to love everything and everybody, and to just give, STS?
A: Feels good.
Q: So, they want to do it because it feels good?
A: Want is an STS concept.
Q: So, you seem to be suggesting that the real trick is to just become non-attached to anything and anybody,
do nothing, and just dissolve into nothing? No thought, no want, no do, no be, no anything!
A: If you are STS, that does not fit, but, if you did exactly that, you would reincarnate in an STO realm, where
such energy does fit.
Q: But, if you have become nothing, how do you reincarnate? And, when you say 'reincarnate,' that implies
being in a body!
A: You do not become nothingness.
Q: But, being incarnated means being in a body?
A: No.
Q: You mean moving into a realm that does not necessarily mean being in a body?
A: Close. But 4th density is partially physical. Does not consume nor possess.
Q: (A) This is contradictory to what we are doing. (L) Why write a book or do anything? There is no point. We
should just sit around, do nothing but contemplate our navels and do nothing. (F) Why do you say that? (L)
Because doing anything at all constitutes wanting, needing, possessing, having, and so on. (F) Of course,
because this is an STS realm. (L) So, therefore, we should do nothing. We should contemplate our navels and
try to get out of it and to heck with everybody else! (F) I disagree. (L) Otherwise, it is contradictory. If you try
to help anyone else, or do for anyone else, you are desiring to help them. Therefore, you are desiring to change
something... (F) Well, sure, but this is an STS realm. (L) Anyway, I would like to know who and what this
Marcia Schafer is channelling. She seems to be channelling several sources, or claims to be. Could you tell me
who and what?
A: Not yet, because this issue is not yet resolved. You are confused because you seem to think you must be
STO to be an STO candidate. You are STS, and you simply cannot be otherwise, until you either reincarnate
or transform at realm border crossing.