Thoughts/questions re: missing cat

[Heather]

Hi everyone.

This question is obviously on the micro level of things, but my year old cat, who is an indoor/outdoor cat, mysteriously disappeared last Thursday night. People have told me that cats do sometimes return after some weeks spent away.

I've been dreaming of Genevieve's return, just this morning I had such a dream. I was holding her, and wondered if I was dreaming. Then I realized it was a dream, and she vanished. Yet still I was in the dream. I was telling my husband all this in the dream, and we were both weeping.. and in our weeping my husband told me I was beautiful, but as if he were seeing my heart, now broken given this loss.

I'm a writer and spend a good deal of time alone up here on this mountain in upstate New York, with my husband having to commute by train into the city each day. I have an older cat as well, but this young cat really brought me such joy, really, and so her going missing has been just awful for me.

But I suppose it would be good to know what happened to her, and so that's my question: what happened to poor little Genevieve? Will she return? Did a varmint attack and kill her?

I would add that I'm writing a novel right now, and it's really my unconscious mind that's writing it, and so it's like having this blindfold on, trying to let my psyche make the connections, and move the "narrative" [I'll loosely call it] forward. One of my characters is now in hell, and so it's the underbelly of the culture that I've been grappling with, and have been grappling with for a long time in other things I've written. So, amid peering at all this darkness--but in a way that maybe can compellingly enlighten readers as to the "mind controlled" state of things--but in the midst of all this my kitty disappears. I put it in the context of my writing since one wonders when one is trying to expose the more hidden dimension of things going on in the world whether one will be punished for it. I don't have children, but one does form close emotional attachments to one's pets. Oh, also, ironically one of my characters has her dog "disappeared" as a warning to not go for help.

So, that's another question. Is this thing I'm suffering now given this loss to do with what I've been trying to do as a writer/artist? Is it a warning? And if so, how do I protect myself [and others] in the future?

I have wanted to write here more often since I am so isolated, I just haven't quite decided how to go about that. There's a lot of reading I'm attempting to do, which I would comment on once I get further into it. But for now, I've written very little here since I joined. Still, I stop by here regularly. Also, my writing does pull me away from other activities, and it's hard to keep a balance sometimes. I'm sure that's at least part of the answer, that I need to have more of a balance--and that's so very tough for me.

Anyway, I suppose the next C session is another month off, but any comments in the meantime would be welcome.

Heather

 

[Meg]

Hi Heather,

I am sorry your kitty went missing. I hope she comes home.

I don't know that your cat going missing is a punishment for peering into the underbelly of life and writing about. Sometimes, animals are just animals, whether she wandered off or was attacked. I am sorry she's missing though. We do get attached to our 2-D friends. They have a way of making the load of life and lessons lighter sometimes. If you can, focus on feeling the emotions that are brought up as a result and allow them to be outwardly expressed.

As far as posting here, while it's important to get up to speed so to speak, sharing/posting as you go along would help you to assimilate the knowledge, ask questions. It would also help other people reading the same thread or book. Don't let 'not feeling up to speed' stop you from posting here. If you can access the web, you don't have to feel (or be) so isolated. Even if it is just a few posts a week, that will go a long way. :)

 

[Heather]

Hi Heather,

I am sorry your kitty went missing. I hope she comes home.

Thanks, Menrva, for your kind words.

If you can, focus on feeling the emotions that are brought up as a result and allow them to be outwardly expressed.

When I spoke of the dream that's what I felt I was doing.

As far as posting here, while it's important to get up to speed so to speak, sharing/posting as you go along would help you to assimilate the knowledge, ask questions. It would also help other people reading the same thread or book. Don't let 'not feeling up to speed' stop you from posting here. If you can access the web, you don't have to feel (or be) so isolated. Even if it is just a few posts a week, that will go a long way. :)

Thanks for that. I've abandoned ship a few times when trying to post here since I feel I should be more comprehensive, so maybe breaking things down as I go along is a better approach.

I don't know that your cat going missing is a punishment for peering into the underbelly of life and writing about. Sometimes, animals are just animals, whether she wandered off or was attacked.

I knew it was a stretch making that connection, but I was having a pretty awful morning. On the other hand, artists do sometimes reap unwanted consequences (or are entirely ignored) if they go off bounds as far as the PTB are concerned. Actually, I had intended the novel I'm writing to be more "acceptable" than something else I'd recently written, which I've decided to sit on for a while. It's tricky, especially if the goal is to find an established publisher. I may discover that's an unrealistic goal. Not relative to the quality of the writing, but in terms of some of the content. Of course, there's also the problem of being an outsider, not having inside contacts, etc., which is a whole 'nother can of worms.

So, anyway, that's a slightly different take on what I was getting at with that.

 

[psychojen]

I don't know if this post will be allowed to go through but I don't think you are being punished or warned about what you're doing by the loss of your cat. Cat's have this amazing ability to be detached from our own state - even more so than dogs or people- and they do what they want to do. Cat's also don't have our years of experience being alive and tend to do things we might think are stupid and careless. They're amazing creatures and I'm very sorry for your loss.
Even if your cat is not a warning, I will give you a warning about all things "darkness". I've noticed in the past that warnings on this subject are typically met with intensified intrigue and then ignored so I've had to rethink how I come across.
Those things in darkness are truly dark and the things of your worst nightmares can become reality. We are creators after all. Once you delve into it, you become responsible for it. However, nothing that is darkness or shadow can remain that way, not in this world, forever. The light of love, trust, and right action can illuminate it. It usually takes people a while to get there though, they suffer in the meantime, and suffering takes a whole different toll that I still don't have a resolution for. Just remember, fire has no shadow.
I still don't understand this forums spiritual beliefs (for lack of a better word) so I don't know if what I've said fits into their paradigm but it is a fundamental truth. And if you think I'm totally nuts then, well, I don't blame you. :) Good luck!

 

[psychojen]

ALSO, while you're looking at the "mind controlled" state of things in the underbelly of the culture aka Hell you might want to look at Scopolamine. People have no idea how much its really out there being used. I could walk a few streets over and have enough to make a lot of people do anything I want.

 

[Heather]

Psychojen, I think I understand the point you're making about "all things darkness," and no, I don't find you to be crazy or anything. I know that when I've done research that's taken me to some pretty dark places I soon realized that at the very least one has to pace oneself. Once again the idea of keeping a balance comes to mind.


As a general FYI on the subject of finding my lost cat, Genevieve: I did some research on missing cats and found a really good website. It's called Missing Pet Partnership or MPP. They're helpful since they break things down into specific categories. So, Genevieve seems to fall into the "displaced outdoor-access cat" category. She may have chased something or have been chased out of her familiar territory, and so she really is lost. Also, someone may have then taken her into his or her home. Of course, a predator may also have gotten her, but if there is no concrete evidence of that MPP encourages you not to give up since there are a lot of examples of people finding their pets even after months have past. And they give you concrete ways to do this. This weekend I just made and put up excellent signs along the roads up here that are a certain size, that use Day-Glo paper, that use a simple, eye catching message, etc. So, for example, if a person did take my cat into his/her home but then sees one of the signs, he/she will realize it's a missing cat and not just a stray, and so that person is then able to contact me.

So, anyone here in a similar situation concerning their pet I urge them to check out this website. It's really helped me to feel a lot more informed and pro-active.


Well, thank you, psychojen, for your kind words concerning Genevieve. I appreciate it, and do hope your good luck reaches us (!)

 

[Heather]

Administrator: I was having a hard time sending this last post, so it seems it's been posted twice. Maybe just remove one. Thanks!

 

[Heather]

I thought I'd post a Lost Cat Update.

I made a dozen day-glo signs w/ Lost Cat and my phone number in large stencils, and a flyer in the middle w/ a better photo and description, all weatherproofed. My husband and I put them at crossroads all over the immediate area this past weekend. I had four other signs up already, but these are somewhat improved, and the number of them hopefully will make a difference as we've extended the area of impact.

I've probably stated some of this previously, but to recap, if Genevieve is still alive she may either have been taken in by someone who assumes she's a stray w/out a home, or she could be surviving just outside her territory, not knowing how to get home. Either way, if someone who has spotted her several times or is taking care of her sees these sorts of signs, and in multiple sites, it's an incentive to call the owner. So, I'll see what happens.

It's been tough though. I've read not to give up, that this can take months, and that those who give up too soon miss the opportunity to find their lost pet. So, I've been focusing on that, and trying not to get too down about things. Sometimes it gets you anyway, the sadness. But keeping positive, and doing the signs and flyers [I've also updated the flyers I have at various bulletin boards around town] at least has me feeling that there is the possibility of finding this sweet little cat.

Anyway, since I opened up this topic, just thought I'd do some follow-up.

 

[Buddy]

Anyway, since I opened up this topic, just thought I'd do some follow-up.

Thanks, my hopes are with you. When you've done all you can do for any given period of time just keep the light on for her, so to speak. :)

 

[Heather]

Thanks, Buddy. I think I know what you mean by that.

.. my mother-in-law who is a Westerner living in Goa India, but is right now at this holy mountain some distance away from there, has told people about the cat, and they are sending good vibes from that mountain in my direction.. (rather sweet, I thought). She also spoke with this rickshaw driver who told her I would be reunited with Genevieve given my great love for her.

.. I don't know what's to happen, but it was comforting to hear. And internally speaking I know there's this way of keeping the light on, as you say, and the door open, etc., as opposed to succumbing to sadness and hopelessness.

.. and I suppose that's what we all need to be doing concerning the world at large right now, and our place in it. You try to go about things with intelligence and due caution, but with an open heart. Once that shuts down then all is lost, it seems.

Thanks again for your kind thoughts.

 

[Heather]

I thought I'd post a charming picture of Genevieve that I think captures her personality.

Here she's lying beside the cat door [shut closed w/ some wood] just begging me to let her outside. She loved the great outdoors, so even though a part of me wishes I had never let her out, she was just so happy to be out in the wilds.. catching mice, frogs, birds, chipmunks.. anything small that moved practically. But she loved to return home, too, and would always "announce" herself when she entered the house. (She was terribly fun and funny.)

So, here's to Genevieve, and her speedy return.

 

[lilyalic]

Hi Heather, sorry to hear your beloved cats missing!

My cats used to go missing sometimes for more than 10 days sometimes!

Sorry if I've missed this, but have you rang all the local vets too?

I hope she returns soon :)

 

[Heather]

Hi Lilyalic,

Yes, I checked the vet in the little village near here, and put one of my fliers up at their office.

Actually, a woman called me this morning, was walking her dog, said she heard a cat crying and crying and crying. She didn't
get a good look at it, as her dog scared it away. But a feral cat doesn't cry like that, nor does an indoor-outdoor cat
unless she/he is lost.. so I went out looking.

Interesting enough, I read a lost cat can be shockingly close by. This was pretty close. I plan on trying again.

.. but it was a hopeful sign I thought, the crying. Not that I like thinking of poor Genevieve crying!

Thanks so much for kind thoughts.

 

[Oxajil]

Interesting enough, I read a lost cat can be shockingly close by. This was pretty close. I plan on trying again.

Yeah, my cat was lost once and he happened to be rather close by, hiding in the bushes. Do look inside the bushes as well if you can, with a flashlight if it's dark. If she's not the kind of kitty that would approach you by hearing your voice or seeing you, then it might be helpful to bring some food with you in case you find her. Interestingly, when my kitty was lost I asked the DCM to help me find him, and in a dream I saw him with another kitty near the bushes in a place nearby, and that's where we found him in the end! I hope you will find Genevieve soon and that she's doing okay.

 

[Heather]

Hi Oxajil,

I learned that a lost indoor cat that escapes will hide nearby, while an indoor/outdoor cat (such as Genevieve) may have chased something or gotten chased out of its territory. As it's been a month maybe she's returned to her territory but can no longer recognize its scent, given wind, rain, etc. -- although I'm just guessing.

I have a plastic container with dry food that I shake, and I call her -- both things I did before she was lost, so hopefully it will seem familiar to her.

Well, thanks for your well wishes for Genevieve!

--oh, maybe you can tell me what DCM stands for, it doesn't seem to be in the Cassiopaea Glossary.

I certainly have been praying though, but maybe asking for a visual image would be something to try.