Carlybee
Padawan Learner
Growing up in a crazy family I’ve learned to become quite jumpy and fearful and I struggle to transcend it. My body goes into fear mode occasionally without even a conscious thought, I’m guessing it’s the fight or flight mode. I have just completed reading the wave material, I had days of feeling totally disillusioned with despair and had core belief systems smashed and pulled out from underneath me, oh boy the wave material was a ride on a wave in itself!
I had nightmare after nightmare (mostly of huge tidal waves engulfing me and now I have a strange fear of large waves..and living on the Australian cost in summer that sucks lol) I would listen to the wave series at night before sleep (I made an audio of the wave on my ipod and I would fall asleep with it in my ears every night lol, having to rewind hours of it due to falling asleep) anyway the thing is, I know when the wave comes, I need to be in the best frequency space possible in my mind, because I know being fearful is the worst frequency mode to be in during this time, and I think that the apprehension of remaining fearless no matter what is what in itself is making me fearful. Sometimes I can’t tell if what I feel is fear or just a surge or change in energy…as I am quite sensitive to energy sensations and it seems to be getting more intense these days, where some days I can sense every atom in my body spinning and vibrating (it’s a nice feeling) but being around large crowds of people or negative individuals I almost feel sick and can’t handle the sensations.
I was wondering if anyone else is this sensitive, or feels energy surges, and gets electric shocks from metal shopping carts too lol! But…going back to that crazy reptilian part of the brain or the flight /fight response I mentioned earlier, is there an exercise or way to transcend this? Hypnosis maybe? I meditate frequently, I also do the pipe breathing and stretching exercises Laura has shown us, and I have read tones of information on the nature of fear, but it still floods my body over the sometimes silliest things and I’d like to be able to control it or at least find the core belief or the source of it.. Any assistance or guidance would be greatly appreciated…and thanks so much for your time, Carly :)
I had nightmare after nightmare (mostly of huge tidal waves engulfing me and now I have a strange fear of large waves..and living on the Australian cost in summer that sucks lol) I would listen to the wave series at night before sleep (I made an audio of the wave on my ipod and I would fall asleep with it in my ears every night lol, having to rewind hours of it due to falling asleep) anyway the thing is, I know when the wave comes, I need to be in the best frequency space possible in my mind, because I know being fearful is the worst frequency mode to be in during this time, and I think that the apprehension of remaining fearless no matter what is what in itself is making me fearful. Sometimes I can’t tell if what I feel is fear or just a surge or change in energy…as I am quite sensitive to energy sensations and it seems to be getting more intense these days, where some days I can sense every atom in my body spinning and vibrating (it’s a nice feeling) but being around large crowds of people or negative individuals I almost feel sick and can’t handle the sensations.
I was wondering if anyone else is this sensitive, or feels energy surges, and gets electric shocks from metal shopping carts too lol! But…going back to that crazy reptilian part of the brain or the flight /fight response I mentioned earlier, is there an exercise or way to transcend this? Hypnosis maybe? I meditate frequently, I also do the pipe breathing and stretching exercises Laura has shown us, and I have read tones of information on the nature of fear, but it still floods my body over the sometimes silliest things and I’d like to be able to control it or at least find the core belief or the source of it.. Any assistance or guidance would be greatly appreciated…and thanks so much for your time, Carly :)