Uff, this is sensitive topic for me.
It is not just about the games, it is about the time, I don't like to be bored, trying in every way to avoid that feeling because it is so much to see, do, feel.
Games are for me, also, runaway from reality where I cannot be where ever I want. For example, if you wanna build a house in the real world you need so much, so much to do and so many years to past. Also, you have to have so much money. What ever you wanna do in you real life you have to do it hard and for a long time. And in games you just have to click some buttons and you are in. Sadly, nothing is material in virtual world ;).
I have noticed reading this thread that every gamer talks about his game with a passion, pardon me if I was wrong.
I have so many stories to tell how I was "wise" and calculate when I was playing online game Khanwars. We were fighting against other clan and there was a lot of them who attack's me because I was close to them. So I plant sneaky trap for them. I made my self another account far away from everyone. In a short time I was filtrate my self in their clan. Building my production and army. I had my goal, to conquer they castles over the night, when they go to sleep. So, after couple of months I went out from their clan so I can attack them and I have conquered they castles, at least they arrived online ;). That is nothing, just my memories, it doesn't have any value to my personality, is it just waste of time, although I enjoyed in planning and accomplishing my goal. I don't wanna be sneaky in my real life because I don't feel good also I think that is very stupid in long terms, even I'm very calculate person (in a bad and good way), maybe because I have lived in narcissistic family where you have to "fight" for everything.
Also, before I been introduce to the Work I have day dreaming all the time. I was one of the people who thought that they will achieve anything if they dream about it
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I like when things our moving, and with playing games I don't think that something is changing in me. And when I'm read some constructive book I can understand things better and feeling I have learned something. Obviously with games (like Khanwars and my planting) I have tried to deluded my self that I could learn something from the game, but the big difference between reading a book (especially on different language) is click. Do you wanna stretch your mind and continuously do that or just wanna click and lost yourself in virtual world, in fact, in a Skinner box. How can someone want to deliberately put himself in the box? Em I lazy, don't know enough, is that some sneaky program that what to stop me from learning or is that just part of my learning process?
Usually I read my post over and over to be sure that don't put my self in bad position, but this time I will do it impulsive.
Also, I don't play anymore Khanwars. I'm playing stupid game Tankionline. There is nothing to learn in this game, just shooting.
Felling like a child that admits mother for his mistake ;).