Drea
Jedi Master
Well no metaphors here, because I don't have any advice. I just wanted to say thanks for hitting the panic button. So many times I've wanted to do the same thing here, but I don't have that kind of courage. For me the big thing here is anticipation. All my thoughts are wrapped around the future and what we are headed into. It has been dictating all my thoughts for some time now, and I feel like I losing myself. Or maybe it is like Bud said about being "unglued" and I am misinterpreting it.
Only when I don't anticipate does anything seem to get done on my part. Sometimes I have to tell myself that if something bad is to happen so be it. It has already happened and I cant fight what can't be known. On the other hand the C's say facing the upcoming events should be extacy in the 4d way of thinking. Then I think about where I came from and who I was before I found the forum. Back then I was wishing it was the end of the world, so why do I feel panic now? So after the end of that little trail of thoughts it just repeats itself and I end up in panic wash and repeat.
It is a loop that I need to break, but sometimes I just have to sit back and laugh at how mechanical I am. All this stress and frustration over the inescapable. I wish I knew what to tell you Luke, but in all honesty we're all stuck here, and we will do what we will do.
By the way I like the wall analogy. I don't know if you have ever seen the movie Short Circuit, but there is a scene in the beginning where the robot is just stuck on this wall in the factory and a few seconds later he gains consciousness, escapes the facility, and high jacks a truck.
Only when I don't anticipate does anything seem to get done on my part. Sometimes I have to tell myself that if something bad is to happen so be it. It has already happened and I cant fight what can't be known. On the other hand the C's say facing the upcoming events should be extacy in the 4d way of thinking. Then I think about where I came from and who I was before I found the forum. Back then I was wishing it was the end of the world, so why do I feel panic now? So after the end of that little trail of thoughts it just repeats itself and I end up in panic wash and repeat.
It is a loop that I need to break, but sometimes I just have to sit back and laugh at how mechanical I am. All this stress and frustration over the inescapable. I wish I knew what to tell you Luke, but in all honesty we're all stuck here, and we will do what we will do.
By the way I like the wall analogy. I don't know if you have ever seen the movie Short Circuit, but there is a scene in the beginning where the robot is just stuck on this wall in the factory and a few seconds later he gains consciousness, escapes the facility, and high jacks a truck.
