AdamantineLady
The Force is Strong With This One
Jerry said:[quote author=AdamantineLady]I have simply revealed my experiences
As of yet you haven't shared any experiences, but want us to believe that you are special by merely stating you've had them.
Your posts read as if the members here need to know something that you already know, but aren't mature enough to be told in a straightforward manner.
Such condescending "hinting" is manipulative and reveals a self-serving intent.
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When you do 'find', and the experiences that lead to this are unique to each and every person, you recognize that words about that experience are totally inept to describe it and rather useless to others trying to find their way. I am not manipulating, just pointing out that 'finding' actually is there. No personal motive. No insisting what you 'have' to find. Just describing what helped me find. Nothing more. Nothing less. I am mature enough to recognize this. Your insult and injury over this won't help you at all in the long run.
If members are not here to relate what precipitated their experiences and discoveries along the way, then what do they come for? You can shoot down my expressions of it but it doesn't touch upon what I have experienced in the least. I cannot describe heaven to you yet I know it directly and personally and anything I have heard inside the 'church' or out, or books on enlightenment or realization even approaches what it is and I am pretty extensively read. At best it is allegory. What you would find there would be totally different from what I found yet totally the same at the same time. That is because you are who you are and your experience of it will be tailored to exactly that. Is that straightforward enough for you. A group experience isn't exact duplication as much as you'd like to believe it is. God just isn't that limiting. It is a map to an unconfineable and unconformable ground. Surely you won't fault me for knowing the forest for the trees...or maybe you will.
Butterflies don't have conflicts over the differing shapes of the cocoons left behind. It is immaterial. Were I a guru and could transmit to you the experience of what it is I speak of, you would go "Ohhhhhh" and have nothing more to spar about. As it is currently, I am not. On the 'other side' of this experience, I still love relating to people and that is why I showed up on this forum. I still pick up nuances, and reflections of the discoveries of others that come from so vast a spectrum that any one person doesn't know its fullness and still remain in this world.
Specialness is in the eye of the beholder. What I have experienced and know because of it is with me forever. In this world, you can only come as you are...and I have. There is room for the truth as it is revealed to each person. So far I find that members can bring their struggles along the way but as you have presented they cannot dare to 'find' for if they do and it isn't expressed exactly to your liking they are 'out'. I am not afraid of being out. It is not the penalty that those who practice rejection think it is.
I haven't arrived to compete with you over who I am. If all you can reflect is your resounding disapproval of what I have to contribute, it is your own limiting view and agenda. I haven't come to stroke your ego and grovel at your reproof. It's your mirror. Welcome to it.
These are my thoughts on it.