What is wrong with me.

[AWERLORD]

So lately I been feeling down, I just have to make a few confessions here, maybe this will help me out, maybe someone opinion will help me out, dunno, I feel like doing it, so I do it. After you guys showered me me with info in my post about numbers 666, I read some of it, like gaming thread, repeating numbers and civilization crisis (still reading).
I dunno what is wrong with me, some things are easy to learn, while others I can read multiple times and not get a single thing. It's like when I started reading cass material some years ago(Transcripts and wave series), some of it was really easy to grasp since I had an open mind, but now it seems like either I am loosing interest in reading, or I can't understand new things. What is wrong with me? I am sure I didn't came here just to turn away and go back where I came from. If I analyze my life, I was just playing video games, running from lifer problems, and watching documentaries about worlds history and UFO's. I am sure I haven't done all that research for nothing. I am envy when I read your posts guys, because I see that you guys posses a lot higher intelligence then I do, it makes me feel like I am stupid.
Sometimes I am trying to help people with their problems, altough I am rarely successful. Right this moment I am talking with a person who have to eat some shitty pills like keppra every day and live his life like a zombie, and I don't know what to say, how to motivate the man. What is wrong with me, can't I learn new things anymore? Was it all for nothing.

 

[Aiming]

Hi AWERLORD,

the first thing I think that's important is not to think along the lines of 'What is wrong with me', but rather along the lines of 'Are there areas in my life where I can improve?'. The first line of thought makes it really easy to fall into self-defeating thought loops and lose belief in one's abilities, and in the worst case it can even lead to throwing the towel. So, the second line of thought is much more constructive. In another thread you wrote the following:

My diet is actually crap. I eat something like sosages, potato pancakes, normal pancakes with curd, I rarely eat any stewes, almost no vegetables, some fruits like bananas, sandwiches with meat or cheese (Love cheese), some pies (apple or curd) and that's pretty much it. I know this doesn't look healthy, but what can I do about it. My family can't afford to buy better things. I eat what I can get, and I really dislike eating meat, I eat it because I need it, so I try to eat less of it.

So when you combine that with your perception of how there are some new things you don't seem able to grasp/learn, then looking into cleaning up your diet is an important first step. If you haven't done this before and don't have direct experience of all the positive effects of detoxing and eating the food that's the proper fuel for your body, then it's sure hard to see the relation at first glance. But once you start reading the forum threads on diet you'll see the many positive effects members here have experienced. For example, it's essential to cut out gluten, dairy, sugar, trans fats. Gluten and dairy are similar to morphine to the body, so you get addicted, and they're responsible for a myriad of diseases and inflammation in the body. What you eat has also immense effects on your capability to think, as well as on your mood.

As to your point of disliking meat, thing is, when you look into the paleo or ketogenic diet, you'll learn that it's especially meat and animal fats that are essential to your health, and your disliking may be nothing more than a 'programmed habit' which can have various reasons (it can simply be a belief that meat is bad). So as truth seeker advised you in the other thread, it's best you start reading up on what a healthy diet is, because you do need the knowledge first before you start. And concerning your family's restricted budget, there are ways around that, e.g. to start avoiding the unhealthy foods like the grains and sugar and pick out those that are beneficial, like meat, eggs and butter.

So to sum up: No, it wasn't all for nothing, but it does depend on how you carry on. I can imagine that all this information seems a little overwhelming at first sight, but that's part of the process of learning: acquiring the needed information and then applying it and seeing for yourself what this will do for you! :)

Here are a few articles for starters:

10 proven health benefits of low-carb and ketogenic diets
The Ketogenic Diet - An Overview
Why Milk Is So Evil

'Gluten brain': Wheat cuts off blood flow to frontal cortex
Neurological Effects of Gluten
'Keto Clarity' details the many health benefits of ketogenic diet
'Primal Body' transforms metabolism with gluten-free high fat ketogenic diet
Ketogenic diet plan
On viral 'junk' DNA, a DNA-enhancing Ketogenic diet, and cometary kicks
Study finds ketogenic diet improves memory in adults with cognitive impairment

 

[Oxajil]

Hey Awerlord,

Sorry to hear you're feeling down. I second Aiming's advice that following a good diet would be a great step forward. You'd be surprised to learn how cleaning up your diet can affect your thinking in a beneficial way.

Sometimes I am trying to help people with their problems, altough I am rarely successful. Right this moment I am talking with a person who have to eat some shitty pills like keppra every day and live his life like a zombie, and I don't know what to say, how to motivate the man. What is wrong with me, can't I learn new things anymore? Was it all for nothing.

Sometimes it's difficult to know how we can best help a person who is struggling. Are they asking for help? Would help be beneficial to them? Networking can usually help us make the right decision. In some cases, all we want is to help a person, but realize that our help isn't really having any effect, and sometimes it has a negative effect! In your case, it's difficult to tell whether you're approaching it in a wrong or good way, as the specifics of the situation is unclear. So maybe it's not so much that there's something wrong with you, or that you can't learn new things, maybe it's more that you don't know the right approach, and that's understandable; some situations are tricky. Networking can help, as more pair of eyes see more than one!

In any case, I second the advice to focus on your diet for the time being, taking it a step at a time.

 

[Mrs.Tigersoap]

Hello Awerlord,

As Aiming told you, eating properly is important, not only for your physical but also for your emotional and mental well-being. It makes a world of difference to your energy levels. If you don't have enough energy, everything becomes a hassle, and learning new things even more so.

When budget is an issue, as it is for a lot of people, eating properly is still possible. A lot of the things most bodies thrive on cost very little because they are supposedly unhealthy and therefore shunned by a lot of people: animal fat, bones to make bone broth, pork, bacon, eggs, etc. Check the price of these items, they probably cost less than you think. And I see you like sausage, so that's a very good start!

But that's for the diet part.

As for as not understanding some things or subjects on the forum, well, you are not alone, don't worry! We've all been there (personally, I go back there regularly :)). Some subjects are difficult to grasp and sometimes, it's just not the right time to integrate something. Another concept must be understood first, a reading done beforehand or perhaps an experience lived first. It's different with everyone and everybody learns at their own pace. The great thing about this forum is that people who do understand are ready to help those who haven't yet. And with time, this person will be able to do the same with another. So, do not hesitate to ask whenever something is unclear (don't forget to make a quick search on the forum to see if the question has already been asked, just in case). We have some amazingly brilliant people here who can explain the trickiest concepts in just a few simple lines.

Remember, too, that since each person is unique, their experience is unique, too. Which means that you can always contribute something to this forum. It's because some of the members of the forum share regularly their experiences, their insights, their remedies or their struggles that this forum represents this wealth of knowledge.

So, if you so wish, continue to read and network and it will get easier. :)

 

[AWERLORD]

Thanks for the replies guys, I will look into my diet. All I can say that everything you guys told me to cut on eating, is what I mostly eat. I love to eat bread since my mother ate a lot of bread once she was carring me. I get a lot of sugar and dairy things from a curd pies. My mother had her arm broken, so she now eats a lot of curd for her bones, and I simply liked to eat curd too. Damn, when I look at my diet, it's all cheep trash. I avoid eating candies, yet I drink tea with sugar and get more sugar with pies. I drink coffe but I drink it with a little of milk.
I should probably start eating eggs again. Does pasta or macaroni as I liked to call them, are also part of the gluten?

 

[Aiming]

Yes, pasta contains gluten as well, since it's usually made of wheat. There are glutenfree alternatives though, and this might be something for you to try during transition to healthier foods and to trick your habituated taste buds somewhat and make it easier.

By the way, bone broth is great for healing, so perhaps there's a way to mention in passing to your mother that you read some interesting articles on the topic, and how dairy is actually detrimental to bone health. Tread carefully though and first check whether she's even open to "alternative" research like that.

Want strong bones? Avoid dairy products and calcium supplements
How do you get enough calcium if you don't eat dairy?
Bone Broth - One of your most healing diet staples

 

[AWERLORD]

I doubt she will, but I can try. I remember she asked what I was reading, and I told her I was reading a conversation between human and alien (Cass transcripts, I said it to make it sound simple) and after that she was laughing at me saying, that there is something wrong with me, since that day I didn't said anything, she is not an open minded individual.

 

[Jenn]

Hi Awerlord, I can empathise with the feelings of stupidy and awe at the knowledge others have, I also find it really difficult to learn some things and often have to take notes and highlight things in books as if I was studying at school. Some subjects are more difficult than others and I've found they require more mental effort than others, it doesn't mean you're stupid though, I try to remind myself "there's no free lunch"

As Mrs Tigersoap said, other members are more than happy to help those who ask, ultimately there is always going to be someone who knows more than you, but that's how the network works, we all share and grow together.

I would also second the importance of changing your diet, in my country butchers are usually happy to give the bones away at a good price as nobody really wants them these days, other things that are cheap are liver and other offal and sometimes butchers do discounts if you bulk buy meat. Making stews and other dishes also make meat taste better if you have abit of an aversion to it, we have a few recipes in the recipe section and also some videos on the cassiopaea youtube page https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8SGK09kZ2M8

 

[Buddy]

Thanks for the replies guys, I will look into my diet. All I can say that everything you guys told me to cut on eating, is what I mostly eat.

I was thinking along the same lines as everyone else. As just one example of stuff that's not good for you, high-carb foods are often described as "comfort food" by some people because of their comforting effect during times of boredom, crisis, excessive routine where energy gets drained very fast, etc.

Unfortunately, one of the downsides of feeling this 'comfort' is a cost in terms of speed and efficiency of brain neurons and synaptic activity involved in the smooth coordination of interest, concentration and attention control and recall (memory) involvement when you're trying to read in order to learn something. The diet might be a problem there.

 

[Marina9]

Hello AWERLORD, first i don't think anything is wrong with you, as Jennifer said, i can also relate to this. In the beginning I was having lots of struggle really catching the ideas about things I was reading, but then after highlighting and finding more information on topics things are a bit easier, and I still struggle understanding things. But I think nothing will be that easy, IMO part of this journey will be struggle, and I think we should take this struggle as something positive as we are making lots of changes in our bodies, minds, and lives.

As the others have mentioned diet is a very important thing, for me what has worked its to think about food as something that nurtures my body and brain, not something I have to worry about all the time, and this has been quite hard since I was very scared about eating fat, but taking things slowly is the best thing I can tell you that IMO work best.

I suggest you to be more patient on yourself, don't be to harsh, we are not all born with all the knowledge on everything, and even as the years go by we will realize we were wrong in some stuff, right in others and that we will have lots and lots of learning to do. And as Mrs. Tigersoap mentioned, we are all unique, and that's what makes this forum interesting, rich in experiences, diverse knowledge and real support from others.

 

[Alada]

I suggest you to be more patient on yourself, don't be to harsh, we are not all born with all the knowledge on everything, and even as the years go by we will realize we were wrong in some stuff, right in others and that we will have lots and lots of learning to do. And as Mrs. Tigersoap mentioned, we are all unique, and that's what makes this forum interesting, rich in experiences, diverse knowledge and real support from others.

I agree, it's worth remembering that we're all made differently, and likewise each of us learns in different ways, and at different rates. It's not essential (or even possible) to 'get' everything all at once, what counts is a sincere desire to learn and then to allow each lesson to slot into place as it needs to.

I'm sure most of us have had the experience of reading something again which we may have covered a while back and then suddenly seeing / understanding something completely new in it, that we thought was already understood, or realising that there is a whole heap of information there that we totally missed the first time around! I think it is always like that, that we can't ever 'get' everything, that our understanding constantly changes as we ourselves change.

If making wholesale dietary changes quickly seems like too much maybe you can take it step by step. Some folk can go the 'cold turkey' sudden method, for others of us slowly, bit by bit is better. Depends how you feel about it. Maybe cut down gradually how much sugar you take in your tea until you can drink it without, then move on to the next thing. Little by little big changes can be achieved this way, without becoming overwhelmed by the process. There are always lots of little things we can be doing that can help us along.

 

[AWERLORD]

I thank you guys for your responses, this will definitely help me out. Regarding my diet changes, It is easy for me to cut sugar off completely, altough drinking coffee without milk is tougher, since without milk, I really dislike the taste of it. As the other things I eat, I will checked your suggested thread about different diet options and maybe I will find something that I can find, afford, and get used to it, hell maybe I even end up learning to cook my own meals, that would be a good achievement :)

 

[Meg]

I thank you guys for your responses, this will definitely help me out. Regarding my diet changes, It is easy for me to cut sugar off completely, altough drinking coffee without milk is tougher, since without milk, I really dislike the taste of it. As the other things I eat, I will checked your suggested thread about different diet options and maybe I will find something that I can find, afford, and get used to it, hell maybe I even end up learning to cook my own meals, that would be a good achievement :)

Cooking can be quite fun and a heck of a learning experience. In case you haven't seen it, we have a recipes section on the Forum. It could help you in making the dietary changes and give you some meal ideas. As far as coffee, you could try butter in your coffee instead of milk. You can also try tea with butter. They are both really good.

Happy cooking. :)

 

[Shared Joy]

Hi Awerlord,

here's a link with good advises to start off the diet. It is simple and easy to comply with:

_https://proteinpower.com/drmike/2011/05/30/tips-tricks-for-starting-or-restarting-low-carb-pt-i/

I also think that being able to counsel people requires a lot of personal studies and discoveries - so start with yourself and you'll gain a lot of understanding and confidence. You will be healthy and strong and ready to give and help because you have the means to give not because you want to forget your own fragility but because you are rich in these areas!

After that you can easier achieve a state of relaxed awareness which can help you to use inspiration in your human interaction.

I wish you well!