Neil said:
Still I have circumstantial evidence that there really is some sort of conspiracy to bombard us with EM noise. Some of this may seem rather dumb, but I have noticed gradual changes in myself that have resulted in a noticable culmination.
Hello Neil and everyone else,
I live in Chicago, and I've been noticing similar 'gradual changes in myself' ever since I moved into my apartment here. As I mentioned in one of my earlier posts (in a different topic), I am relatively new to the Work and the Cass & SOTT material - I discovered them in May of this year. My awakening process has been quite exponential since, but my mind has been kind of 'cloudy' lately, just like you post here:
Neil said:
A lot of times, by the time I get to posting my ideas on SOTT, I feel clouded. It's kinda weird and really annoying.
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Even as I write this, I feel some "resistance."
It takes me a really long time to phrase my posts the way I want them in order to get my message across. Many times what I write seems so cryptic I erase it and start anew. Sometimes I go off on a tangent and lose my original focus. Erase. Rewrite. Many times I just give up - giving myself the excuse that I wasn't going to contribute much anyway...
This is odd because I'm usually a free-flowing writer and stuff tends to connect the right way. Not when it counts, it seems.
All of this also leads me to believe that I'm being bombarded by a lot of EM noise that's disrupting my thought patterns, just like Neil speculates.
Coincidently, just last night I read the sci.fi. short story 'Harrison Bergeron' by Kurt Vonnegut Jr. He satirizes a 'truly equal' world in which more-than-average human beings are handicapped by the government in order to simulate equality in society. One of the characters in the story, George, is naturally more intelligent than average and so is forced to wear a handicap device in his ear that generates a sharp noise every time he uses his brain too much. The sharp noise causes George to lose his train of thought and forget what he was just thinking about. Now that I think about it, something to this effect could be the reason for the PTB to use EM wave bombardment on the population. How 'bout that for synchronicity? :)
To contrast this 'dumbing down', before I moved to my apartment in Chicago, I spent a little over a month in Clearwater, FL on a vacation visiting my parents. This was from mid-June to about mid-July, so I was well into the enlightenment process by then. I brought plenty of valuable reading material on this vacation, knowing I would have a lot of time to sit around and read. I spent most of my days on the beach: floating around in the water, then coming back to shore to read a bit, then back to the water to think, etc. I can't remember a time when my mind was SO CLEAR - I learned more about myself that month than I did in my whole life!
Now, back in the city for almost 2 months, I definitely feel the difference in clarity. I have, however, been thinking about what makes me continue reading and thinking. I noticed that showers, or any prolonged contacts with water, tend to clear my mind and help me re-focus, almost like a reset/restart button for my mind. I also feel myself wanting to take a lot of naps. After these naps, my mind feels relatively clear and ready for more Work (I am aware of the forum topic dealing with this 'sleepiness', but I've only recently read it and I have just started to experiment with resisiting the need to sleep). I get a similar sensation from meditation, though I have only recently started experimenting with this approach. Perhaps a PSI shield against EM noise is possible with enough practice?
Also, Neil, just like you said, I feel that I am 'aware' most of the time, but I don't feel like I have much power to DO anything. This feeling, however, tends to change after one of the above activities. Interestingly enough, I felt a great need to post this while I was taking a shower. Hopefully it was a productive post :)
Oh, and to conclude:
Neil said:
I also wonder if the EM waves cause permanant brain damage or do they scramble you while you are under their influence?
From my limited experience, I feel that it is the latter that is going on; I certainly hope it is NOT the former... could be wishful thinking, though. I'd like to know what others think about this.