mocachapeau
Dagobah Resident
Becoming aware that my behaviour toward my young son was exactly like the ugly treatment my father gave me as a child was my first step toward awakening. But that was a very isolated observation, huge but isolated.
But when I took it upon myself to study the events of 9/11, well that's what broke it open for me. Before that I really hadn't been paying attention. After several months of watching and reading everything 9/11-related that I could get my hands on, it hit me at about 2am, in front of my computer - there was no longer any doubt in my mind that it had all been set up. I realized that pretty much anything that I believed to be true about the world just might not be, at all. It hit me so hard that I was trembling with fear for the rest of the night. The feeling didn't go away until a few days later when I realized that the world had not changed, only my awareness of it. This damned world had always been this way and I'd been oblivious to it all!
That is what set me on my search for truth, and about a year later I found one of Laura's books.
But when I took it upon myself to study the events of 9/11, well that's what broke it open for me. Before that I really hadn't been paying attention. After several months of watching and reading everything 9/11-related that I could get my hands on, it hit me at about 2am, in front of my computer - there was no longer any doubt in my mind that it had all been set up. I realized that pretty much anything that I believed to be true about the world just might not be, at all. It hit me so hard that I was trembling with fear for the rest of the night. The feeling didn't go away until a few days later when I realized that the world had not changed, only my awareness of it. This damned world had always been this way and I'd been oblivious to it all!
That is what set me on my search for truth, and about a year later I found one of Laura's books.