What woke you up???

Becoming aware that my behaviour toward my young son was exactly like the ugly treatment my father gave me as a child was my first step toward awakening. But that was a very isolated observation, huge but isolated.

But when I took it upon myself to study the events of 9/11, well that's what broke it open for me. Before that I really hadn't been paying attention. After several months of watching and reading everything 9/11-related that I could get my hands on, it hit me at about 2am, in front of my computer - there was no longer any doubt in my mind that it had all been set up. I realized that pretty much anything that I believed to be true about the world just might not be, at all. It hit me so hard that I was trembling with fear for the rest of the night. The feeling didn't go away until a few days later when I realized that the world had not changed, only my awareness of it. This damned world had always been this way and I'd been oblivious to it all!

That is what set me on my search for truth, and about a year later I found one of Laura's books.
 
Think it has been a progression of shocks, similar to what Bud described since youth, but often falling ever backwards into periods of sleep. Met a man when young who at the time was in his mid 90’s and had lived through war after war and the great depression. He left the world at 113, still very cognisant and full of valuable discernment's which were only later more fully recognized.

Since, as best I could, given what was available, worked through human history looking at its many layers, although much was misdirecting, too. The progression kept getting louder all the while; JFK, Vietnam, FLQ, False Flags, Middle East, Arms Race, Berlin Wall, corruption in all the usual places and on and on until 2001, the final insult and shock, rousing me out of the more enduring condition of sleep. This shock, with all the turmoil we face today, including the blueprints of Psychopathology, came together as a more permanent worldview picture. I must also say that was lucky to be around people in my life who valued seeing & hearing for the most part; if not always accurately - self included.

Finally, of books and people, it was ‘Amazing Grace’, the author and all that followed, then, here, now, which have become a default switch to every time sleep creeps within the mind – still learning to stay awake and watch the machine.
 
What woke you up???
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Perhaps still waking up? From sleep in a manner of having no curiosity to pursue questions beyond the boundaries of this sack of water, flesh, bones I / i / we selfishly inhabit? All through my life, I have had glimpses, small moments of external thinking, and perhaps even some "divine guidance" about what is outside my body, in this world, out there in the never ending universe, and even beyond my ignorant imaginings. Always kind of "knowing" that is more going on in the cosmos other than being this little insignificant speck of consciousness I am on this BBM. That there is a whole Universe out there that I do not know of, and Do wonder about, and Do suspect is there. Not able to believe all the lies that we are alone, unique, and "special" in this whole vast universe. Ignorance keeps me unaware of what is "real"... To be in pursuit of these wonderments may be my awakening. And, I still do not know what "reality" is. "Someday" perhaps I may find definite firm answers. In this I have faith.

To me there are two aspects of "waking up"?

1) Internal: Seeing the narcissistic being "I" have been, am, and may still be. Being raised in... for lack of words, a totally engrossed STS envelope. "Being" the best I can be with selfish materiality. Oh sure, trying to give my wife and children the best "things" i can. And only knowing a selfish type of love. Learning and changing continues by my active choices. Be them actively progressive or ignored and what I consider damnable. Not always choosing against the flesh makes me wonder of my true state of being.

2) External: I am continuing to gather information, coming to a better understand as to why the world is so screwed up around me, in my perception. Throughout my life I have been perplexed by the choices people make. World leaders as well as a neighbor. Learning about pathologies, ponerology, has somewhat eased my mind as to yes, there are explanation (theories) that I could not have thought of my own.

fwiw

edit: I would explain the use of the word damnable has no religious meaning as hell or any of that kind of rubbish to the like.

dam - Definition [dam]
(n.) Barrier to obstruct.
(v.) To stop up.

edit2: Clarification - grammar issues...
 
I was always questioning the status quo from when I was a child growing up in Iran. I questioned the religious status quo then, and when i moved to Canada I began to question different aspects of life presented here. I went through a brief Christian period but at the same time I was interested in aliens and crop circles and history. I could never figure out why history seemed so distorted from whatever angle or place you looked into. There was always missing pieces and combining them with religious doctrines, history always seemed somehow "weaved". As if someone or something was grooving it to suit their own purpose. Religion was a big aspect of my life, but I could never accept many things it had to offer like a vengeful god and the idea of hell or heaven was the only options we had after we die.

I was never heavily into politics because I was pretty young, but then 9/11 happened and it was as if my world crashed around me. That's when I really started to look into what the heck is really going on in this world?? I knew that every fiber of my being told me that muslims with box cutters didn't fly those planes into those buildings and that everything the media was telling us was a lie. And if this was all a lie, then what else have they been lying about?

Soon after, I came upon Laura's work which was a life saver, and the rest is history. I still consider myself not fully awake but at least I'm not as gullible as I used to be.
 
DGF said:
For me it was having been in the service, and seeing how sammy really operates. The I was looking at an auto repair manual that covered every make car from 68 to 73. I was looking at how from 68 on the big three car makers reduced the compression ratios of the engines starting in 69 slightly then from 72 to 73 the reduction was dramatic. the same thing was done as far as the rear end differential. It to was reduce in the same fashion. Then I recalled how we had the oil embargo in 73, not to mention bussing started the same year. After looking at the data and doing a little of my analyzation to it. I came to the conclusion: somebody was controlling world events and the auto industry. It couldn't be any other way. Also I read a pamphlet about how the average American car got the same gas milage at 55 as it did at 70. The whole reason Carter lowered the speed limit was to save gas at lease that was what they said. That sorta set my agenda up as far as sammy goes.
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Intresting. Reminds me of how Intel and AMD bring out similar speed processors every year with a 'big leap' in technology, and people rush out and get excited!
Id bet 10000000000000 GHZ chips exist in secret somewhere. (Just a guess lol).
Same with graphics cards and Nvidia and ATI. Yet most people think theres a genuine competition going on.

What woke me up was my breakdown from childhood memories of abuse. Overnight my life changed, and i started having dream recall for the first time, and remembering past life experiences amongst other things.

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Bad relationship where I was convicing myself that my boyfriend psychopat was "deep in hart" good person, like all the other people in the world....I almost get crazy after year of torture
I was talking with my not so close friend about it with "love and light" in my eyes and he called me an idiot, also said that I'm talking nice about everyone because I want them all to think that I'm good, and that I'm egoistic fool. It really press some buttons and I start thinking about it , I change literature, boyfriend stopped playing victim and start to work on my programs. Well it was more waking up regarding the behaving ,I felt like I grow up and start feel responsible for my behaving, thoughts , acts, after couple a years it leads me to other subjects as well.
 
It has been more like many small awakenings, and I think there's more to come as well.

I do not remember the first, I think, because I knew very well that some adults deceive and lie in my first memories. That's one of the positive things that came out of living among psychopaths, it's a great opportunity for learning. (Not kidding. Of course, it didn't feel good then. However, to be aware of the differences between talk and doing became a necessity. Sitting at the floor and pretending to play as a kid, not to listen, too.)

For instance, I had climbed up on a roof. My grandma saw it, and asked me to jump down to her. I didn't, because I knew she would step back and pretend that I just fell down from the roof. I wasn't even two years old. She preferred children that couldn't talk much yet as her prey.
 
since being a child i always felt different from most others i found it hard to fit in with nomal society, even just a typical chat i found it difficult, when i was a teen most kids were all into sport and playing sport, i had more of a musical interest but i really wanted to know about: space, mysteries, conspiracy theories and ancient history basically anything that wasnt widely spoken about in typical circles, but what really sparked my awakening was the whole ufo phenomena, the more i read the more i learned and the more questions i had the more i had to find answers, so over the many years of reading and sorting out the crap from what i feel as true occurances had basically created a path for me which has led my down a loooong rabbit hold and has eventually led me to the cassiopaea material!
 
Well I don't know if you mean by "waking up" to become aware of the cs material, or when you realized that all was just a lie (because it happened in different periods of my life), I had lots of shocks so I can't really say if I woke up.

I have one example, I was a full believer of god's will, until I really saw that there wasn't results, a really deep meaning in my religion, pure sweet full of hope words that didn't help to our situation, I had psychological problems and I needed help, I was actually disgusted because of the violence towards animals by humans, I supressed most of those thoughts because I had fear lol... then well I received a punch on my face from the devil and then magic happened and here I am, tara tan tan!
 
For me, it was a simple case of a friend telling me of the Cass material and the Ra material and how it was channelled from a ouija board, I got so excited and started reading the RA material which turned into obsession with 9/11 conspiracies following Alex Jones, David Willcock and lurking all over the ATS website and eventually evolved into this forum. I started going to a meditation group and recieving crystal healing from members within that group

I have been learning & developing ever since.

This is a great idea as a topic. Perhaps we should try to use this information to gather a list of materials that may be the seed that will assist others in opening up their mind. Its hard when my friends ask me questions about my beliefs to answer them with out freaking them out, perhaps using some of this info will be a better way of awakening people at there own pace rather than just going into detail about Lizzies and Grey's etc.

Is there anything like this here already? like a starter pack of material that can be shown to the average sheep? I suppose it really depends greatly on the person and where they are on their own journey. I have attempted using the wave series and various other material but had little success, I mostly give people video links like Loose change and Klymatica to start the ball rolling.

I am very open to any help anyone can give me on this subject, and would love to go into detail alot more, maybe we should start a new topic all together on this?
 
I don't claim to be "awake", but a number of realizations have brought me to the point I'm at now. I think maybe the strongest overall factor has been my mother's influence. She really made an effort to try and teach us to think for ourselves, and not to be fooled by the lies of society, because she had had her own realizations and lessons learned over the years. I remember when I was in high school living temporarily in a Christian children's home and I realized that a good God, that was true, would never punish me for searching for truth outside of the Bible. So that was when I decided in my mind that I wanted to know the Truth, no matter what it was. It's turning out to be much harder in practice though! ;)

chaps23 said:
Is there anything like this here already? like a starter pack of material that can be shown to the average sheep? I suppose it really depends greatly on the person and where they are on their own journey. I have attempted using the wave series and various other material but had little success, I mostly give people video links like Loose change and Klymatica to start the ball rolling.
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Well, there are the "Connecting The Dots" videos the SOTT team has been producing. Mostly, I would say that reading and passing on SOTT articles could be a good way to suggest new ways of thinking to people, if they are open to it. It's very important to respect people's level of awareness. As I understand it, it's inconsiderate to tell people things that will upset them when they are not really interested. When the questions arise in people, they will seek answers themselves.

That said, maybe it doesn't hurt to offer people a chance to start thinking differently, as long as it is done gently and without manipulative intent.

I think that self-Work is the most important thing. After all, how can a slave go around claiming to free people?
 
I don't think I've awaken yet but I got some nudges in the right direction :)

I think small incremental steps have been taken all my life with many wrong turns and dead-ends.
It's weird but it doesn't seem that I made any real conscious choice about all of this, sometimes it feels more like outgrew some ideas and wanted to know more.

When I was younger I have always been interested by the paranormal, Ufos, alien life and so on but it never was straightforward. There were long stretches of not looking for answers at all.
I kept reading books I could find from Castaneda to David Icke to Wingmakers, all of these prepared me for the C's and The Wave because even though I read a few "spiritual" books I wasn't trusting anything related to channeling or conspiracies before.
Like so many others the events on 9/11 triggered something in me that re-awakened the spark to know about all these hidden matters because the whole event seemed staged. Something was wrong with what was being said about it and I could not pinpoint what it was.

Then I read the Wave and it all fell into place somehow :)
 
Prometeo said:
Well I don't know if you mean by "waking up" to become aware of the cs material, or when you realized that all was just a lie (because it happened in different periods of my life), I had lots of shocks so I can't really say if I woke up.
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I agree. I am struggling to awaken. Asking myself when I woke up seems premature.
 
First of all I want to say that I am not awake yet, but here is my story.

one night while I was chatting with a friend, she received a email from another friend. This friend stumbled upon the C's material. We read some of the content together. It was quite shocking and unbelievable, but it sounded so logical. I still remember how childish we were while reading. However I'm glad we found it and although I felt kind of reluctant in the beginning it started to grow on me.

At this point, I can say that I can't really recall the life i lived before this. I know what it was like, I can tell facts, but it's... different. Besides life became much more interesting since I found the C's material. :)
 
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