April Drop Dead Date
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luke wilson
The Living Force
So has anyone felt anything different in them that they may consider somewhat out of place due to this grand cross?
For me personally, I am not sure if it is solely due to the grand cross but I have experienced a rather intense internal 'tearing' feeling that was triggered by events in my life. I feel like I should change the way my life is but I am torn as to what direction to take. Certain options appear as viable but they are diametrically opposed. On one side, I can commit to the route I am on and determine that the most important thing in my life are the people around me regardless of my own situation and regardless of other people's views of the value of the people around them. This choice will not be something that the universe is doing to me as is my current path but a choice I have made myself. On another way, I can focus on improving my own personal lot in life, then hopefully in that journey I can capture better terms for myself as a person, the ability to be more mobile and free, plus concentrate on the new people I come across.
Either way, I have chosen the latter as their is no point valuing people who don't value you. I won't burn for people who don't care. In the space of 2 weeks I have decided my life as it is isn't good enough so I have been bold and taken steps to improve it, starting with my job. I have been to a couple of interviews with hopefully others pending that may take me to a new city, to start afresh. If I remain in the same place, I have been speaking to my mum and she said I should move to my own house which means I will cut lose some ties. Most nights I go to bed torn, unsure as to what direction to take, yet making choices and acting through, confronting my fears, yet torn as to what the future holds, what choices I need to make, how I can make a new reality for myself etc. I have had feelings of change inside before but I have never had multiple feelings pushing for change in different directions before.The one thing that is not there is the feeling that everything is ok, that I can just close my eyes and everything will be ok. I am not sure if this is due to some astrological influence or if I would be thinking this way if I didn't know of this.
My candle in the last couple of weeks has definitely burned brighter than usual, I have felt the fire in my chest, I have experienced it consume me into taking some action, felt it put me in a position where the options ahead become clearer, in terms of what I choose to do or don't and what are the consequences of those choices. Whether it is a temporary increase in intensity or something more permanent I am not sure.
For me personally, I am not sure if it is solely due to the grand cross but I have experienced a rather intense internal 'tearing' feeling that was triggered by events in my life. I feel like I should change the way my life is but I am torn as to what direction to take. Certain options appear as viable but they are diametrically opposed. On one side, I can commit to the route I am on and determine that the most important thing in my life are the people around me regardless of my own situation and regardless of other people's views of the value of the people around them. This choice will not be something that the universe is doing to me as is my current path but a choice I have made myself. On another way, I can focus on improving my own personal lot in life, then hopefully in that journey I can capture better terms for myself as a person, the ability to be more mobile and free, plus concentrate on the new people I come across.
Either way, I have chosen the latter as their is no point valuing people who don't value you. I won't burn for people who don't care. In the space of 2 weeks I have decided my life as it is isn't good enough so I have been bold and taken steps to improve it, starting with my job. I have been to a couple of interviews with hopefully others pending that may take me to a new city, to start afresh. If I remain in the same place, I have been speaking to my mum and she said I should move to my own house which means I will cut lose some ties. Most nights I go to bed torn, unsure as to what direction to take, yet making choices and acting through, confronting my fears, yet torn as to what the future holds, what choices I need to make, how I can make a new reality for myself etc. I have had feelings of change inside before but I have never had multiple feelings pushing for change in different directions before.The one thing that is not there is the feeling that everything is ok, that I can just close my eyes and everything will be ok. I am not sure if this is due to some astrological influence or if I would be thinking this way if I didn't know of this.
My candle in the last couple of weeks has definitely burned brighter than usual, I have felt the fire in my chest, I have experienced it consume me into taking some action, felt it put me in a position where the options ahead become clearer, in terms of what I choose to do or don't and what are the consequences of those choices. Whether it is a temporary increase in intensity or something more permanent I am not sure.
happyliza
The Living Force
Quote from Luke Wilson:
I am surprised you mention this, unless I misunderstand you. I don't think many people on the forum feel that everything is OK, because when we look at everything around us, all the signs, it is absolutely not ok. So with all these regular warnings it would be rare for us to feel totally ok, don't you think?
For me, the energies are actually encouraging me to study far more intensely than I ever have before (though it has been constant and consistent study for years). My AIM has suddenly become MORE of a priority than ever and everything else just hits the to do list, after, I have given my best energies of the day to furtherance of knowledge/study etc That is just me, others may have different changes they see manifesting inside them. I certainly feel more of an urgency. Not because I am scared or thinking WHTSHT but because my AIM just shouted out at me BIG TIME. Again maybe others have had something similar.
I think your wish to simplify your life (from negatives) and move away to concentrate on what you CAN do, maybe along similar lines. IOW to to take more charge of your life, use what choices you have to extract yourself from your current situation, buy more time, to better serve your goals.
Just my take on it FWIW. I wish to success in this and hope it works out for you. From your previous posts a change may be what you need. I tmay enable you to concentrate more on internal work rather than external 'happenings'. IMO
I am surprised you mention this, unless I misunderstand you. I don't think many people on the forum feel that everything is OK, because when we look at everything around us, all the signs, it is absolutely not ok. So with all these regular warnings it would be rare for us to feel totally ok, don't you think?
For me, the energies are actually encouraging me to study far more intensely than I ever have before (though it has been constant and consistent study for years). My AIM has suddenly become MORE of a priority than ever and everything else just hits the to do list, after, I have given my best energies of the day to furtherance of knowledge/study etc That is just me, others may have different changes they see manifesting inside them. I certainly feel more of an urgency. Not because I am scared or thinking WHTSHT but because my AIM just shouted out at me BIG TIME. Again maybe others have had something similar.
I think your wish to simplify your life (from negatives) and move away to concentrate on what you CAN do, maybe along similar lines. IOW to to take more charge of your life, use what choices you have to extract yourself from your current situation, buy more time, to better serve your goals.
Just my take on it FWIW. I wish to success in this and hope it works out for you. From your previous posts a change may be what you need. I tmay enable you to concentrate more on internal work rather than external 'happenings'. IMO
Vic
Jedi Council Member
happyliza said:
I agree with happylisa. And I can totally relate what you (happylisa) say about the intensified focus on knowledge. Recently I have been as hungry for it as if it was food. Which it is of course - spiritual food - survival food. And I have the sense that an increased intake of knowledge lessens the automatic focus on personal suffering.
luke wilson
The Living Force
happyliza said:
In the big world out there, I always knew something was wrong. However, in my life, I have been more than happy to just continue. I always experience problems but how I overcome them is that I overstay them... Nothing lasts forever. For example, when I lived at home, I may go through months of agony in my dealings with my parents... but then after that, there is good months. The good months make you forget the bad months, then inevitably the bad months return etc. I don't really have to change anything... all I have to do is endure and wait it out. You do this over a number of years over multiple situations, then your life just strings along but technically, I am not DOING anything. All I am doing, is nothing... just feeling my way through multiple experiences.
Other people, they always act... at least in normal life. For example they see something they like, they go after it. I see something I like... I just sit there and experience the feeling. If someone annoys them... they tell them in no uncertain terms. I just sit there and brew in the feelings. At least this is what I have seen, looking out.
It's amazing the power of endurance. Once, I was 15, in high school and being bullied, never reacting... one classmate described me as a shock absorber - something that has stayed in my mind for about 10 years. Story of my life. Burning for others, experiencing internal turmoil on other people's behalf. What do they do in return? They don't even recognise it... Well boohoo... Anyways, yes, rant over.
On a different subject, nice to hear about your desire for more knowledge! That can only be a good thing... :)
davey72
The Living Force
luke wilson said:
It has been shown how these choices can take us where we want to go in the Knowledge and being videos. Is there a reason for you to be complacent right now? The C's said that as long as you are doing what you are supposed to be doing that you will be in the right place when things get ugly.
Maybe i am wrong, but from what you say it seems that you are gaining knowledge, and sitting back to wait for it all to come to you without doing the required work. FWIW
Thor
Jedi Council Member
luke wilson said:
Hi lukewilson,
To me it sounds like you're pretty much on the right path :). The way I understand your description of the situation, there are some traits in you that are starting to bother you more and more. As the internal tension increases so does the need to find a solution to the inner crisis. Therefore, IMO, the inner crisis is a good sign as it signifies two important things: a) something in you is changing and b) you are sensitive to this change and are willing to act on it.
But changing internal programs and habits requires will as we are creatures of comfort and habit. That's the reason why we don't make the change until the discomfort becomes too great. It seems like this is a pretty fundamental shift in how you want to life your life and I think it'd be a lot more worrisome if you just felt "oh, well, no biggie".
For me it always helps to remember the perspective that we all get dealt different hands. Some people are great at being emphatic and other are great at getting things done. Still others are great thinkers and other great planners or great with their hands or whatever. Everybody gets their share of difficulties. You say that you just sit there and experience the feeling or act like a "shock absorber". While that most likely has some drawbacks as you've experienced I'm sure it also has benefits in the sense that there are many people for whom the opposite is the problem. They always act. They have a compulsive need to act which means that they never really feel what's going on because acting is their defense mechanism to avoid feeling. I guess what you're saying is that feeling is your defense mechanism to avoid acting :). But many times remaining in the feeling long enough to understand what's actually going on (especially if you can avoid being overwhelmed by the feeling) is hugely valuable.
As the Cs say, all there is is lessons. But you can't pass the exam until you've completed the curriculum and in your case you've now completed the curriculum for this particular trait in yourself and are ready to take the examination and decide how you want to live your life. Based on the decision you make, you'll go from one grade to the next and face the curriculum for the next level and when that's completed you'll be able to make more choices. The point I'm trying to make is that while it may seem like you've been stationary throughout the past 10 years I'd argue the opposite. It only because you've taken on more and more experience that you're now at a point where you're able to make a change.
As for the Cardinal Grand Cross, the effects will be different from person to person as it depends on how the involved planets interact with the planetary positions in their natal horoscope. However, the fact that the Grand Cross is in Cardinal signs means that the effect will have something to do with direction, aim, starting something new. The fact that it's a Grand Cross means that there are four squares involved. Squares the strongest developmental aspect in astrology and the way to release the frictions inherent in the square is through a change of perspective or awareness regarding the associated planets. Therefore a very generalized interpretation of the Cardinal Grand Cross is that it'll increase the internal friction with the result that you are forced to make changes to your perspectives in a way that allows you to go new ways or start afresh in different directions.
Hang in there :)
luke wilson
The Living Force
davey72 said:
Thank you. I am now trying to do the required work, as best as I currently know, in changing my life. But it is experimental.
Thor said:
Time will tell. I am definitely in a place where I feel comfortable stepping out of my comfort zone in terms of what choices have been presented to me but I am unsure what the outcome will be. I have stepped out of my comfort zone as my old comfort zone became too hostile.
Thor said:
I will let you know in a couple of weeks if things change permanently.
angelburst29
The Living Force
Interesting article with several graphs explaining the gradual decline of the Stock Market.
Don't be surprised If This is the start of a Stock Market Crash ......
_http://www.businessinsider.com/stock-market-crash-2014-4#ixzz2yWQ1SHxs
Stocks are tanking again.
The sudden dives in recent weeks have taken the tech-heavy Nasdaq down 7% from its highs and the S&P and Dow about 3% from their highs.
Drops like that are no big deal.
But some signs suggest that this pullback — or another one sometime soon — could get much more severe.
Why?
Three basic reasons:
Stocks are still very expensive
Corporate profit margins are at record highs
The Fed is now tightening
Let's take those one at a time.
Don't be surprised If This is the start of a Stock Market Crash ......
_http://www.businessinsider.com/stock-market-crash-2014-4#ixzz2yWQ1SHxs
Stocks are tanking again.
The sudden dives in recent weeks have taken the tech-heavy Nasdaq down 7% from its highs and the S&P and Dow about 3% from their highs.
Drops like that are no big deal.
But some signs suggest that this pullback — or another one sometime soon — could get much more severe.
Why?
Three basic reasons:
Stocks are still very expensive
Corporate profit margins are at record highs
The Fed is now tightening
Let's take those one at a time.
TheLostBoy
Jedi
luke wilson said:
Hi Luke,
I can certainly relate to what you've described here. I can make very good plans and want things all I want, but for some reason there is a bit of a disconnect in acting on them, no matter how strong my thought/intention of going after it is. I'm happy to guess that you and I are not alone in this.
The words from the other members are encouraging.
Thor said:
I agree with what Thor said above. I (and many others, as I understand) seem to only measure progress in terms of obvious physical changes in their life. As has been pointed out by others here, progress can also mean becoming aware of certain traits about ourselves, coming to the realization that we want to make a change and then considering our options to make that change happen. I completely agree with the perspective that you haven't been idle for so long, you've simply been coming to an understanding about something you observed in yourself. I think what the others have said is very much on target, so I won't continue basically repeating it.
Thanks Luke for sharing with us! And thank you to the forum members who responded. I love seeing the support we give each other here and I also found personal meaning in these posts.
You/we are not alone, Luke! Keep up the good Work! :)
Leòmhann
Jedi Master
April Drop Dead Date = Death of so much in connection also with the Death of the Petrodollar ?
What does this mean in terms of the IMF and World Bank possibly swooping in?
Some other relevant links in this regard:
Dr. Jim Willie: The entire eastern world is rebelling against the dollar
http://www.sott.net/article/277163-Dr-Jim-Wille-The-entire-eastern-world-is-rebelling-against-the-dollar#comment102314
Keiser Report: Institutionalized Stealing (E584) [ _http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rbTiTJdLIcw#aid=P9xKjUybWdo ]
Dr. Paul Craig Roberts: Gold and The Dollar Are In A Fight to the Death!
[ _http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=161Rnuf62Nc ]
Keiser Report: Burning Banks (E586) [ _https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ftsGR_dkXbk&list=PLPszygYHA9K2ZtV_1KphSugBB7iZqbFyz ]
U.S. & Russia at Odds over Ukraine, GOP wants IRS Chief Prosecuted, Sebelius, Out over Obama Care [ _http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i64vRpOAaQc ]
Jim Sinclair's Mineset:
[ _http://www.jsmineset.com/ ]
What does this mean in terms of the IMF and World Bank possibly swooping in?
Some other relevant links in this regard:
Dr. Jim Willie: The entire eastern world is rebelling against the dollar
http://www.sott.net/article/277163-Dr-Jim-Wille-The-entire-eastern-world-is-rebelling-against-the-dollar#comment102314
Keiser Report: Institutionalized Stealing (E584) [ _http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rbTiTJdLIcw#aid=P9xKjUybWdo ]
Dr. Paul Craig Roberts: Gold and The Dollar Are In A Fight to the Death!
[ _http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=161Rnuf62Nc ]
Keiser Report: Burning Banks (E586) [ _https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ftsGR_dkXbk&list=PLPszygYHA9K2ZtV_1KphSugBB7iZqbFyz ]
U.S. & Russia at Odds over Ukraine, GOP wants IRS Chief Prosecuted, Sebelius, Out over Obama Care [ _http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i64vRpOAaQc ]
Jim Sinclair's Mineset:
[ _http://www.jsmineset.com/ ]
TheLostBoy said:
Re: bolded above. I have experienced this as well, and found the only thing that works regarding keeping up the effort, is a strong emotional flame. G called this a "reminding factor". There has to be a 'fuel source' to struggle against yourself. Perhaps a mantra of some sort, crystallized with a strong feeling. My first success with this was a desire to improve my craft, blended with the mantra "only super efforts count". Any time my body, or mind, revolted against practicing, I would repeat to myself that mantra three times, and doing so allowed me to turn inertia into momentum.
Kris
