Before I leave my country Japan...

Aya said:
But I think in a long term, I need more preparation and I better do things what I can do now. It seems rather STO choice I think.

"It's not WHERE you are, but WHO, you are and WHAT you can SEE". I think I have better mind set than before.
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Aya,

I wish you Godspeed in your travels and travails (working it out).


This may sound harsh, but it is important to ask in one's life in this School called Earth: "Have I only spent my energy in surviving? What else is there? Is this all there is?"


I'm not asking for your thoughts on this, rather, it's a question you should ask yourself in those small moments when you aren't sure what you should do. When you have doubts, when you feel alone, when you think the World will change depending on what decision you have told yourself you have to make.


Whatever you do, know at all times WHY you do it as best you can.
 
Azur said:
Aya said:
But I think in a long term, I need more preparation and I better do things what I can do now. It seems rather STO choice I think.

"It's not WHERE you are, but WHO, you are and WHAT you can SEE". I think I have better mind set than before.
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Aya,

I wish you Godspeed in your travels and travails (working it out).


This may sound harsh, but it is important to ask in one's life in this School called Earth: "Have I only spent my energy in surviving? What else is there? Is this all there is?"


I'm not asking for your thoughts on this, rather, it's a question you should ask yourself in those small moments when you aren't sure what you should do. When you have doubts, when you feel alone, when you think the World will change depending on what decision you have told yourself you have to make.


Whatever you do, know at all times WHY you do it as best you can.
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Azur, I'm not sure I understand the point of your question. Can you elaborate a bit?
 
All right, finally,after searching quite a lot, I´v found a thread about Fukushima. this is something in which I´m concerned, and thought i´ve read say, half of thread, Id like to discuss this item, because i feel it is more important that mass-media and TV shows, and much cover Up.
Am I in the right thread to comment? I try to follow news in alternative media, but I even dare to ask if the Cs had said something about it. This, considering all the info i´v collected seems a huge serious problem, not only for japan... :cry:
Thanks
Kolni
 
Kolnikov said:
All right, finally,after searching quite a lot, I´v found a thread about Fukushima. this is something in which I´m concerned, and thought i´ve read say, half of thread, Id like to discuss this item, because i feel it is more important that mass-media and TV shows, and much cover Up.
Am I in the right thread to comment? I try to follow news in alternative media, but I even dare to ask if the Cs had said something about it. This, considering all the info i´v collected seems a huge serious problem, not only for japan... :cry:
Thanks
Kolni
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Hi Kolni - a better thread to discuss it would be here -> http://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=22335.300
 
Good for uou Aya Sounds like you will be fine, whatever your decisions ate, as you seem to be thibking about all of this with a rational mind, or the right type of faith. Again, good luck. There are a lot of people rooting for you, and not just here on the forum. ;)
Aya said:
Today I was thinking...

In order to leave Japan for a long term and start living in another country, I think I need to start to "prepare" for it more carefully.
I begin to realize that Japan is located on a fault line and there is a long term problem with Fukushima nuclear plants for many years to come.

So, my plan is to go back to Tokyo in the next week. If I have to go back there at some point anyway, earlier is better I think.
Of course I am very aware of that there is a danger of radiation and the situation is still scary. ( I am not willing to go back though but I think it's necessary...)

Once I am back to Tokyo, I am going to prepare....

1. to get a doctors note. (so I can receive salaries for couple of more months)
2. to go to the office of social union and get some information about relocation in outside of country. (It's not easy but there is a possibility.)
3. to prepare some documents for applying for working holiday visa.
4. to return a key to the office at work.
5. to help people to understand the importance of detoxification for radiation poisoning.

6. to say proper "good-bye" to everyone.
...plus...my important books especially "The Secret of the History" is in my shelf. I have to save it from radiation!

So...I think it will open my possibilities and it may give me a chance to stay in Canada longer.
In reality, it is very hard to find work and get a visa in another country. I should keep my options wide open.

If I stay here, I have to find a work or to receive a working holiday visa within six months in Canada.
If I don't, I have to come back to Japan again after six months.

The most important thing is to stay away from the radiation. I know.
But I think in a long term, I need more preparation and I better do things what I can do now. It seems rather STO choice I think.

"It's not WHERE you are, but WHO, you are and WHAT you can SEE". I think I have better mind set than before.
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Just my update.

I came back to Chiba, Japan the day before yesterday. (after my last post, there weren't any posts to say the otherwise to what I wrote so I made the decision to come back.)
I officially quit my job. I guess I was in a BIG trouble so the person from the main office waited for me at the airport in order to make me write a resignation documents.

Hindsite: I was probably considering the situation of my family and myself more than the situation of my boss, coworkers and the office. It left my job about the right time for my parents (because they have more understanding than before.), but it was late enough that I made some people in the office very upset.

My mother was just crying and upset about how I left my job. Especially, the whole situation was a troublesome that I could not even say "good bye" to my coworkers. (They do not want to me to come to the office and see me anymore.) All she wishes me is to never make any inconveniences to other people otherwise she supports me whatever I do like she always has done.

I think I could do it better, but I don't feel bad about it.

I am preparing to go overseas for a long term. I am very aware that I don't have much time.
I will update to remind myself to be steadfast while I am going on my mission.

Thank you.
 
All the best to you, Aya! May your spirit be equal to your challenges, and your challenges be equal to your spirit! :flowers: :hug:
 
Thank you for your update. I'm so sorry about your job. I can not imagine what you are going through right now.



Aya said:
Just my update.

I came back to Chiba, Japan the day before yesterday. (after my last post, there weren't any posts to say the otherwise to what I wrote so I made the decision to come back.)
I officially quit my job. I guess I was in a BIG trouble so the person from the main office waited for me at the airport in order to make me write a resignation documents.

Hindsite: I was probably considering the situation of my family and myself more than the situation of my boss, coworkers and the office. It left my job about the right time for my parents (because they have more understanding than before.), but it was late enough that I made some people in the office very upset.

My mother was just crying and upset about how I left my job. Especially, the whole situation was a troublesome that I could not even say "good bye" to my coworkers. (They do not want to me to come to the office and see me anymore.) All she wishes me is to never make any inconveniences to other people otherwise she supports me whatever I do like she always has done.

I think I could do it better, but I don't feel bad about it.

I am preparing to go overseas for a long term. I am very aware that I don't have much time.
I will update to remind myself to be steadfast while I am going on my mission.

Thank you.
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Aya said:
I think I could do it better, but I don't feel bad about it.

I am preparing to go overseas for a long term. I am very aware that I don't have much time.
I will update to remind myself to be steadfast while I am going on my mission.

Thank you.
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Dear Aya,

Life is full of lessons and it looks like you've been learning a lot lately. It's easy to look back and see how we could have done things better after we've already done them, but we can only ever do the best we can at that time. So, good job being proactive about making important decisions in your life instead of just following others' opinions of how your life should progress. :scooter:
 
Today I asked a friend in Tokyo a very general question, what is the mood of people there now. He stated that mood is not good and cited the electricity-saving measures were adding to this -- darkened neon signs, no subway station lights, no escalators, no air conditioning on trains, construction projects have stopped, and worries over slowing economy. Also, it's the cherry blossom holiday season and the attendant festivities are greatly fewer and more subdued. I would expect, anywhere, a depressed mood amid this kind of literal darkening and apprehension in the wake of a typical, even though enormous, natural disaster, but what about the radiation threat? He didn't mention radiation fears at all, which I found curious. I wonder if some serious social controls haven't been turned on, on top of the usual.
 
Good for you Aya. I'm sure you have seen this before.

He who learns must suffer
And even in our sleep pain that cannot forget
Falls drop by drop upon the heart,
And in our own despair, against our will,
Comes wisdom to us by the awful grace of God.
Agamemnon, Aeschylus

:)
 
Here is my update:

It's been a while since I came back to Japan. I received a visa from the embassy, paid my bills and got airplane tickets. I am moving to Canada for longer term and preparing to leave here in three weeks. My temporary job's contract finishes in a week. :)

The situation here is beyond hopeless. The accident is not only worse than Chernobyl, but also we are dealing with it more terribly. This is telling that we are not learning a single thing from history, and I can see that this is getting worse as days go by. Big companies are now ridiculously cutting the use of electricity for 20%, if they do not manage to do it they have to pay $10000 fine per hour. Seriously, people are saving electricity than saving their lives. My concern is that sometime soon this country is going to rerun nuclear plants that is halted now in different locations, because of this con/"saving electricity campaign". Some people firmly believe that we are doing this for lack of electricity so we still need nuclear energy. The truth is that we have enough energy and it won't be a problem if we stop them immediately. It makes me think that this country still prefer to perform kamikaze until it collapse.

I feel like I am dreaming sometimes but nothing doesn't alter the truth. I noticed this morning, a sandbox in a park near my house is now covered in a blue tarp. My city did a radiation measurement and they measured 0.4 milisievert in sand of kindergarten in my area. This is nothing surprising as it is the same in Tokyo and other area of East Japan.
If I stay here radiation is going to accumulate in my body it will increase a chance of getting cancers and other horrible illnesses. And I know that I will not be able change anything even if I get involve in demonstrations and rebel activities, all I can do is to move forward and pull strings from the outside of the sinking ship if possible.

I appreciate everyone for being here and presenting the only way that I can lead for hope for the future. :flowers:
 
I wish you good luck and strength in your new start and you right with this...
And I know that I will not be able change anything even if I get involve in demonstrations and rebel activities, all I can do is to move forward and pull strings from the outside of the sinking ship if possible.
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