[P.D. Ouspensky, In Search of The Miraculous]
In ordinary life the concept 'conscience' is taken too simply. As if we had a conscience.
Actually the concept 'conscience' in the sphere of the emotions is equivalent to the concept 'consciousness'
in the sphere of the intellect. And as we have no consciousness we have no conscience.
"Consciousness is a state in which a man knows all at once everything that he in general knows and
in which he can see how little he does know and how many contradictions there are in what he knows.
"Conscience is a state in which a man feels all at once everything that he in general feels, or can feel.
And as everyone has within him thousands of contradictory feelings which vary from a deeply hidden realization
of his own nothingness and fears of all kinds to the most stupid kind of self-conceit, self-confidence,
self-satisfaction, and self-praise, to feel all this together would not only be painful but literally unbearable.
"If a man whose entire inner world is composed of contradictions were suddenly to feel all
these contradictions simultaneously within himself, if he were to feel all at once that he loves everything he hates
and hates everything he loves; that he lies when he tells the truth and that he tells the truth when he lies;
and if he could feel the shame and horror of it all, this would be the state which is called 'conscience.
A man cannot live in this state; he must either destroy contradictions or destroy conscience.
He cannot destroy conscience, but if he cannot destroy it he can put it to sleep,
that is, he can separate by impenetrable barriers one feeling of self from another, never see them together,
never feel their incompatibility, the absurdity of one existing alongside another.
"But fortunately for man, that is, for his peace and for his sleep, this state of conscience is very rare.
From early childhood 'buffers' begin to grow and strengthen in him, taking from him the possibility of seeing
his inner contradictions and therefore, for him, there is no danger whatever of a sudden awakening.
Awakening is possible only for those who seek it and want it, for those who are ready to struggle with themselves
and work on themselves for a very long time and very persistently in order to attain it. For this it is necessary
to destroy 'buffers,' that is, to go out to meet all those inner sufferings which are connected
with the sensations of contradictions.
Moreover the destruction of 'buffers' in itself requires very long work and a man must agree to this work
realizing that the result of his work will be every possible discomfort and suffering from the awakening of his conscience.
"But conscience is the fire which alone can fuse all the powders in the glass retort which was mentioned before
and create the unity which a man lacks in that state in which he begins to study himself.
"The concept 'conscience' has nothing in common with the concept 'morality.'
"Conscience is a general and a permanent phenomenon. Conscience is the same for all men and conscience is possible
only in the absence of 'buffers.[...]
"There is nothing general in the concept of 'morality.' Morality consists of buffers. There is no general morality.
What is moral in China is immoral in Europe and what is moral in Europe is immoral in China. What is moral in Petersburg
is immoral in the Caucasus. And what is moral in the Caucasus is immoral in Petersburg. What is moral in one class of society
is immoral in another and vice versa. Morality is always and everywhere an artificial phenomenon. It consists of various 'taboos,'
that is, restrictions, and various demands, sometimes sensible in their basis and sometimes having lost all meaning or never even
having had any meaning, and having been created on a false basis, on a soil of superstition and false fears. [...]
"A morality common to all does not exist. It is even impossible to say that there exists any general idea of morality,
for instance, in Europe. It is said sometimes that the general morality for Europe is 'Christian morality.'
But first of all the idea of 'Christian morality' itself admits of very many different interpretations and many different crimes
have been justified by 'Christian morality.' And in the second place modern Europe has very little in common with 'Christian morality,'
no matter how we understand this morality.
"In any case, if 'Christian morality' brought Europe to the war which is now going on, then it would be as well to be as far as possible
from such morality."
"Many people say that they do not understand the moral side of your teaching," said one of us. "And others say that your teaching
has no morality at all."
"Of course not," said G. "People are very fond of talking about morality. But morality is merely self-suggestion.
What is necessary is conscience. We do not teach morality. We teach how to find conscience. People are not pleased when we say this.
They say that we have no love. Simply because we do not encourage weakness and hypocrisy but, on the contrary, take off all masks.
He who desires the truth will not speak of love or of Christianity because he knows how far he is from these. [...]
"Morality and conscience are quite different things. One conscience can never contradict another conscience.
One morality can always very easily contradict and completely deny another. A man with 'buffers' may be very moral.
And 'buffers' can be very different, that is, two very moral men may consider each other very immoral. As a rule it is almost inevitably so.
The more 'moral' a man is, the more 'immoral' does he think other moral people.
"The idea of morality is connected with the idea of good and evil conduct. But the idea of good and evil is always different for different people,
always subjective in man number one, number two, and number three, and is connected only with a given moment or a given situation.
A subjective man can have no general concept of good and evil. For a subjective man evil is everything that is opposed to his desires or interests
or to his conception of good.
"One may say that evil does not exist for subjective man at all, that there exist only different conceptions of good.
Nobody ever does anything deliberately in the interests of evil, for the sake of evil. Everybody acts in the interests of good, as he understands it.
But everybody understands it in a different way. Consequently men drown, slay, and kill one another in the interests of good.
The reason is again just the same, men's ignorance and the deep sleep in which they live.
"This is so obvious that it even seems strange that people have never thought of it before. However, the fact remains that they fail
to understand this and everyone considers his good as the only good and all the rest as evil.
It is naive and useless to hope that men will ever understand this and that they will evolve a general and identical idea of good."
"But do not good and evil exist in themselves apart from man?" asked someone present.
"A permanent idea of good and evil can be formed in man only in connection with a permanent aim and a permanent understanding.
If a man understands that he is asleep and if he wishes to awake, then everything that helps him to awake will be good and everything
that hinders him, everything that prolongs his sleep, will be evil. Exactly in the same way will he understand what is good and evil for other people.
What helps them to awake is good, what hinders them is evil. But this is so only for those who want to awake, that is, for those who understand
that they are asleep. Those who do not understand that they are asleep and those who can have no wish to awake,
cannot have understanding of good and evil. And as the overwhelming majority of people do not realize and will never realize that they are asleep,
neither good nor evil can actually exist for them.