Dearest Amanda,
I read your email with tears pouring down all the way to my neck. It surely sounds like my dad!
I have been worried/sad because I do not dream about dad, I do not feel his presence, I do not see signs that tell me he is around or fine. Except, the day my brother called to say that dad was gone, a candle I had lit in my house was blown off with force only a couple of minutes after this call, no windows (they are sealed), no drafts, nothing. My husband and I thought it was him who came to say farewell.
Yes, Amanda, you are so right, mom and dad love to dance. We have this old song that we dance to like maniacs. Every time they came to visit me in the USA, we have our dance-off, my husband caught so many of these moments in videos. I watch them and smile. Dad was funny, so funny! Loving, caring, the kindest soul. The messages of love coming from so many people have been remarkable. The lights of his life were his two granddaughters, he adored them! He used to say to them "you don't know how much I love you, you are my adoration". He loved animals, it might surprise you to hear that his cat passed away the same evening as my dad. I was sobbing when dad passed away, but when I heard about his cat "Negrito" passing, my sobs turned into laughter, out-loud laughter. How was that even possible? He took his old cat!
Amanda, a day after dad's burial, my mom was taken to the hospital, she had been feeling sick, but she started to look worse, she was diagnosed with covid, delta variant. She is there now. We are devastated, but trusting that she will recover. She wants to come and stay with me, and she says that she is going to recover. At this point, I am taking a day at a time, she is in a bit of a bad shape, but they took her in earlier than dad, so I have faith that she will get well because I want my mama. I was also thinking that the 'birdsong' sounds like my dad's whistle. My dad has a particular way of whistling, he whistled that tune of his while walking, and today for the first time in months I whistled just like my dad while I was cooking. I caught myself doing it and got a bit sad and decided that I will share that with my brothers when we meet online to do his prayers.
I will keep a dream diary, I haven't dreamed about dad, I only had a crazy dream and saw his face briefly, he was smiling, I wish I could remember it, I did for half a day, but I cannot remember now. I will also revisit the description of the afterlife, I translated one for my older brother. We do not live in the same country, but we are all very close and talk often, Mom and dad raised us to love and help each other.
I want to express to you my deepest appreciation for your message, your hugs, your advice, and the time that you put to communicate with me. I feel peace in my heart knowing that dad is well and watching us. Blessings to you and your loved ones.
Hugs,
Aixa.
Dearest Aixa,
In sweet return, I read your reply with many tears streaming down my face, it was quite overwhelming for me. I was so deeply touched and very moved by your message. I didn’t expect any reply at all, I was worried it might upset you or that it might not be considered ‘appropriate’ but I felt deeply compelled to share it.
My tears flowed for quite some time while reading your message... I felt it was such a privilege to feel and witness the beauty of the enormous love you have within your family, the multitude of blessings that come with such connection, the grace and inspiration that love like this brings to the ‘world’, which is not simply contained within your immediate family... it filters out into the ‘field’ like a starburst, in my heart/mind. It was very touching to see this. Not all families are like this, as I feel you well know.
I am so incredibly sorry to know your mother is now also in hospital with Covid, and appreciate deeply how confronting and stressful that would be for you all.
I am very happy to hear she is a fighter, and wants to be around long term in the physical, and that she looks forward to recovering and being closer to you. Losing your father has been so hugely devastating for you all, but for your mother, there are no words for that kind of pain, though I feel he is very close to her and she can feel this; it is hard because it feels as though in some ways she feels pulled in both directions, to leave and to stay. I am so happy she has such a loving attentive family, a wonderful daughter who utterly adores her and two little angels to inspire her to find the strength to keep fighting.
I feel to encourage you to do all you can to communicate with her, energetically, but also on a visual and auditory level. Let her see your
faces perhaps through face time (surely one of the nurses will do this if a family member is not able to have access, they can put earphones in her ears to not disturb other patients) make her little movies? if this is not possible, ask the nursing staff to tape some family pictures
close up,
big pictures of your faces on the wall where she can see them when lying down - whatever it takes to let her know
you are right there with her. I feel a huge bunch of very happy
flowers - types that you particularly know she loves (I am seeing pinks) - will help her to focus on something of beauty; we all know what it is like in hospital and how much we need to keep our frequency as high as possible, and nature brings such profound healing. Also I don’t if this is possible, but I feel strongly it would help her to have an iPod or something like that where she can listen to
nature sounds, birds singing, healing music… I feel it Is something to do with the ‘frequency’ that these sounds hold that will help her a lot.
Just a side note - I would not believe ANYTHING they say about covid - until they can prove to you she has ‘Delta’ - do not believe it. As has been mentioned here - they don’t even
test for it so they are just parroting the same wicked mainstream lies. Even if they did actually test for it, DON’T see it as any more ‘dangerous’ than the rest of the so called variants. I believe it’s
brainwashing that terrifies people so badly that they believe they will die from this. And then everyone around them ‘buys into it’ (often subconsciously) through their fear. Imagine THAT being amplified to you while you are fighting for your life?!! I’m not saying that you are doing that, but others in the family may be? There is enough negative energy in the hospital itself, and in the words that are being spoken and heard consciously and unconsciously. So I feel some audio can filter that away from your mama.
Your mama is in my heart and prayers and no doubt many in the forum, as well as many connected to your family and friends. Perhaps you would like to regularly visualise an endless pathway of golden and white light streaming to you from ‘beyond the beyond’ into the deepest part of your soul, then pouring into your mother’s field, as if you are an ‘amplifier’. On a practical level, if you are able to support your mother with high doses of vitamin C, zinc etc, things recommended through
@Gaby/the health protocol on this forum, or anything else you feel you can trust, I feel that would be highly beneficial. I suggest,
do what feels right and what you feel supports the best care for your mother - and is aligned with what she would do for you if she was in the same situation as you.
Listen to your instincts and trust yourself. Whatever you do, I know you will have done your best, the rest is up to the soulpath your mama chooses from her own free will.
In terms of your dad, I’m not surprised that you haven’t been able to feel a direct connection/communication with him. That, sweet sister, is the deep grief and pain, blocking your ability to ‘receive’. Slowly, gradually, it will shift into a different experience, but this will evolve naturally, a little at a time. I loved that in the midst of deep grief and sobbing you could burst into laughter at the
wonderful ‘
Negrito the cat’ story! (That story was beautiful...
as if he would leave his beloved loyal furbaby behind!). I know it seems like a bizarre thing to laugh out loud in the midst of deep emotional release, but I feel this is
very healthy and also
a sign from your father to try to being some ‘lightness’ to the situation, even if just for a moment... so is the
whistling... so is the dream where you saw his
smiling face...
can you see? He IS getting through!
Try not to feel guilty if you are not feeling desperately sad all the time and for having moments of lightness or actual happiness! This is your natural state, and the DNA and frequency of your dad flows through you too, he was clearly a happy soul who was a lot of fun and had a great sense of humour, and he feels pretty determined to come through energetically. He is not ‘gone’ in the way we tend to perceive. You clearly know what the message with the candle was. I have no doubt there will be more messages in many forms.
His love for you is enormous. I saw you in the foetal position after his passing and this is completely normal, but in time you will ‘unfurl’. I see you in ‘future’ days standing strong and smiling your beautiful smile, singing and dancing, just like you always have (loved that image in my mind) and your beautiful dad is right there boogying and partying on down with you, doing the same. It makes my heart smile.
Thank you so much for including the beautiful photo of you and your dad. What gorgeous people! You hold a lot of light, dear sister, as do many connected to this forum. It’s a gift to connect with you. Thank you for the heartfelt blessings you also offer me, I receive them with deep gratitude.
Thank you for taking the time to share greater insight about your family. It was very moving for me to read your message.
Aixa, your name, if I understand correctly it is pronounced AY-SHAA and means
“Alive! She lives”. Your wonderful loving parents gifted you a name of great beauty and frequency. You are deeply loved, surrounded by light and radiate that out to others you connect with. Always remember that in doing so you extend the light of your beloved parents as they shine on in you, no matter what density they ‘reside’ in.
Remember to call on this light whenever you feel you need strength or guidance.
Gentle heart hugs
Amanda xo
Ps you don’t need to reply to this message, you have enough to deal with, but feel free to keep the group updated when and if you feel to. No pressure, just love
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