I've been feeling particularly anxiety-ridden in the last 2 weeks. My method to deal with this was to smoke more than usual and catch up on some drama DVD's I'd put aside for a rainy day. Thankfully the method worked, I chilled out more. The dramas were all good character driven stories featuring good writing and naturalistic performances, I really enjoyed taking the time out to watch them. Definitely a period of positive dissociation I think.
Today however I had to go to the supermarket to buy more tobacco and I had to put the old rag on my face before I went in. Immediately my glasses misted over, so I had to take them off as I queued at the till. I'll never tolerate this situation, it's really pee-ing me off big time. If nothing else it illustrated how bad my natural eyesight has become, lol. Life looked like an impressionist painting, just colours and shapes until I got up close.
At some point I've got to get back into my reading though, it's been a few months since I got into a good book. Just don't feel like it at the moment, mainly because I'm still digesting info from the last books I read, they were pretty dense, mainly Jewish/Zionist themed stuff. I wanted a way into understanding the predator's mind more and saw plenty of narcissism and pathological traits in Laurent Guyenot's books. These feelings of doom and gloom are all too familiar to me at this point in time, I think we're heading into a very grim winter period.
Reading on this forum recently a comment from Laura re:- arts/OP's, and something struck a chord there. It perfectly explained why there is so little pushback from people in the arts, and less protest art in general. Here in the UK we only have Van Morrison, Noel Gallagher and Ian Brown saying anything contrarian in the face of this faux pandemic. Efficient machines are not feeling the pinch as much as some of the rest of us at the moment, but of course things could yet change in that regard.
As ever, I think the C's comment about a "plentiful harvest" of STO beings/ideas is going to be a qualitative thing, not quantitative. What are we, 6k people on here now? I don't think that will change much in the years to come, but then I suppose you never know. Sorry for the ramble, I think I just needed to vent, don't have many people in my social life that I can relate with these days.