Ruth said:
Did you learn anything instructive, that you wished to share, when you 'felt the heat' on your mental attitudes? It's quite interesting that it was only a transient problem. Perhaps not that important, all in all?
Well, it's kind of a long sidebar to the main discussion here... So, sometimes I sit on my bed and these ideas come into my head which generate some sort of "internal controversy," and one part of my consciousness takes one side of the argument, and another part takes the other side, and they debate each other trying to find the most appropriate resolution to whatever the original issue was. Without going into too much detail about it, it had to do with how much one's "heart" should be considered when analyzing information and assessing people or events who effect one's reality. It was also triggered by what could ostensibly be considered an "abduction dream," which was roughly contemporaneous with Menna's dream. Shortly afterward, I had another dream where certain members of this forum had "estates" on an island in some form of alternate reality which could only be reached by projecting one's consciousness through some type of dimensional barrier. The most memorable parts of the second dream was a Cassiopaean transcript I found on a table and read a page or two of, and the fact that all of the money had reiki-like symbols on it instead of leaders and national monuments. I decided not to talk about it because the "esoterica quotient" of it all was just a little bit too much.
So the internal controversy was basically over whether these dreams reflected an expanded subconscious awareness that was coming into contact with some sort of information field which could be decoded to provide a richer and fuller understanding of what's going on in my reality, or whether I was freakin' nuts. As some background to the debate, I had in the past used my dreams for inspirations for forum posts after I had brought them down to Earth a bit, and then there was the consideration of why the Cassiopaeans thought that I needed 3 dream stones. The thought had occurred to me immediately upon seeing them the first time, but I didn't quite accept it because it was "unscientific." The intellectual, analytical, reductionist approach of using a scientific/engineering process to evaluate everything and putting all of the psychic stuff off to the side and more or less ignoring it until it could be proven with those methods seemed much "safer."
Based on some psychological texts I had read, I thought the scientific method seemed to be a masculine problem solving technique while the "psychic," or at least intuitive, seemed to be a feminine one. So part of my consciousness took up the argument that the feminine side was too "messy" and prone to hysteria and should only be used in rare circumstances. My heart chakra said no. After I floated this idea to myself, there was a sudden strange heat in my chest followed by a sort of uncomfortable constriction. So over the past 3 months, I went through several iterations of this activity applied to different situations such as: When observing a new person you should only take into account what you can physically research about their behavior and mannerisms and leave the subtleties up to logical analysis. Again, "no." I then applied the situation to romantic relationships, which may seem like a no brainer to some people, but I was having a serious debate with myself over this stuff. The results were the same. On the other side, my intellectual self had a serious problem with relying too much on intuition to accomplish things. So a new idea was floated: I guess its 50/50, yin yang. No heat or constriction this time. So the question became how to integrate these more ethereal impressions which are picked up much better by the heart chakra and combine them with what can be understood by the lower intellectual center in a way that is still objectively valid. My answer was that they had to be tested in such a way as to make accurate predictions about things that I observed or got involved in.
In retrospect, I thought that Menna's dream had a similar "flavor" to my internal controversy even though it wasn't exactly the same thing. By the time I made the connection, the discussion had lapsed and the thread had gotten kind of stale, and since I wasn't sure my commentary was relevant anyway, I just shelved it. Based on the sensations I felt, if I had gone hardcore into telling myself that the "feminine inputs" were invalid, I think I would have had some sort of meltdown and perhaps ended up in a rough patch. It was my supposition that this "balancing of the chakras" was related to what the Cassiopaeans said about "the quickening of the cosmos" and that if you don't work on it you get "left behind." I casually tossed it out as a possibility to explain what was going on with Menna, but did not intend to get into a detailed discussion of how I got there.
