Depression, isolation, life

FWIW
I think the idea of opening up in general, sharing the burden, speak what is bugging you can help.
The forum may be of good help but not exclusively here, outside of the forum if you can find someone you can open up with.

I recall a few situations of mayor stress, where the words from the C's did help, those who don't create without create within, it applied to me as i was creating within, i was going downwards very fast.
Another thing that served as a helper, when in stress, was when the C's said that emotions are just chemicals, it helped put things in perspective and helped me think outside the box,
(Not that emotions don't carry a meaning) but sometimes that meaning is something that does not come from us or contribute little to our well being.

It is very stressful to think about what the world would be like tomorrow or when comets come, but in reality, we can pass at any moment, or we can live long lives, another thing that helped put things in perspective was that sometimes people choose to leave the planet/body, as part of their process.
I think we are too identified with this social existence, but it is an illusion, tomorrow society will be there or in another planet in its own form, and its own set of planetary lessons. We can DO things all the time! Effect change within and without.


The reminder of the work i wanna make is that, the work help us become free from influences ruling our lives, and many times these influences are internal, our own self defeating moods that we need to fight and so on, one experience was to dissociate for hours and then feel disgusting for it, outwardly this was invisible to others, inside it was causing mayor internal stress, self-inflicted, it is very important to identify, it indicated a series of emotional blockages with many ramifications, identify what we can about ourselves and actively pursue a solution, that is the advise i have.

Praying to the DCM for help, i highly recomend.

I just thought for a minute maybe offering some perspective can help.
 
Hi Muxel,

sometimes there is a lack of certain amino acids that can cause depression and lack of motivation, among others, of course.

Please check the Mood Cure questionnaire and, if you want, tell me what scores you have at each chapter so that I can interpret it.
You can also read the book.

You can access the site here: _https://www.moodcure.com/take_the_mood_type_questionnaire.html

Best wishes!
 
Hi Muxel,

I'm sorry that you are experiencing such hard feelings at this point. Would it be of any benefit to you if we spent some time, just to get to know each other better and for us to talk?

From my experience meeting you in person, I noticed that you had a reserved personality, but you opened up when discussing things that were of interest to you. It's just my observation, please don't take it as criticism. In any case, I would be very glad if we could meet and discuss things happening in your personal life, in our locality, and anything else of interest. I don't have much of a circle of friends to speak of. I only meet moksha once in a while. I meet Mr. Cyan whenever he gets the chance to return to Malaysia, and he is very generous with fitting some time with me into his usually busy schedule. Other than that, I sporadically meet some friends from the old college and school days.

Let me know if you're keen!
 
I am sure most of us on this forum can relate and empathize with the way you feel.

To me, this is a manifestation of the intent of 4th density STS on our world.. to maximize negative harvest means to reduce quality of life and to increase difficulty of survival in general. We are currently experiencing this paradigm shift and unlike the people around us, we have the answers that most of these people will never find out for themselves in their current lives. This is the burden we face, as "potential graduates" of 3rd density.. Personally I have come to terms with the isolation, knowing that the only people I will genuinely be able to relate to will be other initiates/awares who are probably isolating themselves as well(not all of them of course!). I think this is why the C's suggest networking so adamantly, because there is just no way after going through this expansive and revealing journey that the transcripts take you on that I would ever be able to relate or communicate with a portal without developing a resentment/dislike. The configuration just doesn't work.

I think you are being too hard on yourself. Isolation comes hand in hand with awareness... We are the extreme minority. Loneliness and apathy towards life is quite common in the adept, it has always been this way. The more you know, the more abrasive this world is. I think that as you come towards the "end" of third density, a natural reaction is that you feel a longing for "more", and that this density in general simply does not offer enough. A symptom of being ready for 4th D.

It isn't even that I feel empty or jaded, it is simply that this world is very.. mundane. That may sound arrogant, because I surely have not figured it all out, and still have work to do.. but the work becomes more and more tedious by the day, and to be quite honest, I just can't wait until this is over so I can experience something new. Coming to this realization actually helped me accept these things.. Perhaps you can relate?

In any case, I wish you well.
 
Ciao Muxel,

I feel for you, as for anyone with this trouble you describe, I truly do.

All the more so for I was depressed for a good four years of my life! But I know I cannot ever go back into it. This is probably because I perceived all that negative thinking did for me, that is to say, it did nothing at all, nor did it create anything. Only constructive ways helped me out. One day I decided that my life was actually quite good!

In case there are some physical elements at work here I will quickly tell of the foods which do have quite beneficial effects, and they all involve real science. Oats in porridge can release a certain amount of happy chemicals. Live yoghurts can restore the body's harmony sometimes I find, and bring a sense of wellness. "Microbes are good food for man" - G.I.Gurdjieff. Olives and eggs, especially if eaten as one's last meal, I find, can result in one waking up feeling quite harmonious too. This is because they are a natural source of vitamin D. I find supplements of vitamin D do not work. Pure Cocoa as a hot drink is also very, very beneficial to one's mood :)

These may help to ease you out of it but I cannot say that it is these which will bring you out of it.

If you will permit me to say what I think about your post then I would like to say that I noticed immediately that you ascribe negative perspectives to practically all you talked about. A kind of lethargy of hope was there. Hope is the physician of all misery, it has been said. You need hope. There is a great deal to be hopeful about, especially if you have the will to move from your current sense of things into one of the very genuine spiritualities out there. You could find these by simply praying with a pure intention to find them! If you pray really, with real intent, I just know these lightful spiritualities will find their way to you. Being in touch with these may be good for you right now. I will only say that the White Eagle Lodge, and the video addresses by Rabindrath Swami are particularly beautiful spiritualities which really grow the heart. There are others of course. I think for someone in your position a real change to constructive thinking will be of great benefit to you, and if I was your friend in real life I could (perhaps) help you in real ways, and Pray and send you Healing. But this is a forum and I am limited in what I can do. I do not, nor cannot really know you on this thing! That does not mean I should not try - for I personally have a lot of hope in you. Indeed, a lot of people who have experienced depression (like you and I) have gone on to really help the world in especially sympathetic and compassionate ways. (Eckhart Tolle would be the best example perhaps of an incredibly constructive transformation from utter depression to utter peace).

It would be my hope that you consider the possibility that you might be one of these. It has been said that our Creator sometimes chooses the most flawed to show others the Grace of life. It has been said also that in order to feel Grace one has to invite it into one's life. I would very much agree with that - wholeheartedly. My understanding is that that invitation to Grace cannot happen with a negative perspective. Perhaps this is already obvious.

I am sorry if this is a long comment but I made a promise to never ever forget those who suffer depression. When I came out of it. I hope something here helps brother. I wish it with all my essence.

With Love, (xxxxx)
Jesethuaile.
 
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