These days I have dreams that I write down in the morning. But last night's was as much about me as it was about the present. Although there seemed to be a timeline in my dream, the feeling was that everything was intertwined between what is present, past, and personal life, planetary life, attitude to authority and its opposite "freedom" to live this experience by being true to oneself. I'll share it with you in a nutshell:
My current partner and I were young (+/- 25 years old) (and yet I felt in the present as an observer of that period), we were in a car with our 4-year-old daughter in a long traffic line. Two policemen knocked on the car window, and said that my husband had an immediate arrest of all his belongings and that the court date would arrive by mail.
My husband asks why, but they're already in the process of giving the same arrest to the driver of the car behind us. Disconcerted to hear this, we arrived ourselves at another location (without our daughter), where there were large white tents with compartments for 4 families inside, but everything was open (no doors or windows...).
Everyone was respectful. They were naked on the chairs, not bothering to let us pass. There were surfboards leaning against the tent poles, ready to be used. We walked through this tent to sit by a mailbox and discuss what we were going to do without anything to stay, eat or sleep.
A young man arrived with his clothes on - he'd been with the family we'd seen nude. He'd come to collect mail from the neighbor who couldn't come surfing at the weekend.
He sits down with us and asks what we are doing here. I couldn't speak because I was crying. I finally said they'd stolen our 4-year-old daughter (and then I got the feeling and images of families devastated by the loss of their children in Gaza, no longer having a home).
My husband went on to say that he had been arrested and that we had no access to any property until the court date.
The young man, calm and attentive, full of kindness, shared with us that they too were in the same situation with the families here.
He continued by telling my partner that it all depends on your attitude to looking at this authority that's taking everything away from you. You can participate emotionally in different ways, but for now it won't change the act they've done. But you know what they've done, and this knowledge will enable you to know how to look at the situation differently.
He continues: There will be many more arrests by the authorities of people who do nothing to destroy their neighbors, but for the time being, there aren't enough people who have to endure this. This is not the time to act "all together".
I intervene by saying to the young man: how can you be peaceful and use your time to be surfing or waiting for the sea to have more waves to surf again. How can you not be revolted?
He replied: It's how I look at the big picture instead of looking at what's happening to me. During this passage, I can surf the wave when it comes, and after these efforts to stay alert, be in a calm to recover adequately before the next wave for as long as the moment arrives to act "all together ".
It's an internal attitude to cherish. Learning to balance our emotional system and our thoughts takes time, and I'm taking that time. The less energy you give away by thinking you're a victim of authority, the less you'll know how to regenerate and be in JOY.
And after this episode in my dream, the images came to me from my authoritarian father, and it continued up to me in my authority with myself, my family, and the images were clear so that I could observe the part in me that gave its joy to be a victim in the face of authority and especially to defend the other who was a victim.
I woke up realizing that the previous day's pain in the D4 area of my spine was completely gone.
Writing in the morning allows me to gather all the details and do some work afterwards. Unless another dream comes along.
I wanted to share it because there's all this control that's already present, authority versus our freedom to choose, beliefs breaking down about material possessions or loved ones who will leave... There's an inner state needed to stand up straight while looking at the whole. To thirst for knowledge so that the truth is revealed more and more on earth and within us, so that masks fall down and we are naked (authentic) in front of ourselves while surfing the wave.
Wait and See.
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