mada85
The Cosmic Force
Alana said:Endymion said:But there is hope, IMHO. Bringing this demanding self-important inner child into consciousness lessens its hold over me, and to deprive it of energy, and so helps me to have a glimpse of real asking.
Perhaps depriving the child you the energy it needed to grow and mature naturally was what left it a child and a demanding child in you? And if that's the case, maybe giving it the attention it needs yourself so that the child one does not demand it from outside of you, is what will nurture it and help it grow to maturity?
I am reminded of another part from the First Initiation here:
You must understand that all the other measures - talent, education, culture, genius - are changing measures, measures of detail. The only exact measure, the only unchanging, objective real measure is the measure of inner vision. I see - I see myself - by this, you have measured. With one higher real part, you have measured another lower part, also real. And this measure, defining by itself the role of each part, will lead you to respect for yourself.
And I am asking because i am not sure whether you meant "deprive it of energy" the way i understood it, Endymion. Let me know if i misunderstood.
Thank you for asking, Alana. I read again that last paragraph in my post, and I see now that I didn't do a very good job of describing an inner process. I should not have written 'deprive it of energy'; that is not an accurate description. What in fact happens is that when I allow the child part to have his self-important demanding voice, and I watch this happening in me, just by allowing it to be there without judgement, and completely accepting it as it is, that part changes.
The demanding voice lessens in intensity, while a kind of more open, spacious, non-anticipatory asking arises. Attention is energy (and unconditional acceptance is a function of love) so I have been giving my demanding inner child energy (attention) and love and the result has been some measure of transformation. I observe and accept completely the demanding inner child, while not allowing him to take over or indulging him. This process I think is described by G's quote about measuring a lower part with a higher.