Our Odie was put to sleep on July 12, 2010 at a little before noon.
At noon my husband called me and told me he had taken him to the vet and had him floated down very slowly and then he was peacefully laid to rest. We had talked about this off and on for a few weeks as Odie was 18-20 years old (we had had him for 15 years).
In honor of his life, not considering his cast off shell, his body like common garbage, we had his body cremated and he will be buried with my ashes.
My husband handled this difficult task. We had spoken about it and yet I resented the day he did this out of the blue and I was not present at Odie's final moment.
But, my husband stayed with Odie till the end and told me, "If you had come along, Odie would have known and been very frightened" and my husband was right.
Up until a week before July 12th, Odie never went to the bathroom in the house and he could barely manage stairs.
For a whole month, I watched as my husband carried our 72 pound English Pointer up and down the stairs each time he had to go to the bathroom.
Finally it got to the point when Odie no longer knew when he had to go at all.
The day before he was put "asleep" he looked up at me as he was going in the house and his eyes said, "I don't want to live like this, I have no dignity and I am in pain". He would wimper as he walked or got onto the couch.
Now, I recently had gum surgery. The medicine I am on caused me to one night gush out feces like water before I could make it to the toilet one morning. Like my dog, Odie, I am a very clean person. To be covered in filth like that was beyond horrible.
I called the doctor and he said to take another medicine that stopped this problem for me but, within that brief moment, I knew, I realized that what my husband had done was right.
If I ever get so old that I poop in my pants, I can no longer feel when I have to go, If I am in so much pain that simply walking hurts and pain medicine can no longer relieve it, if I can no longer care for myself, please please please somebody give me a shot that slowly floats me down and than stops my heart.
Let me pass with dignity.
We have three sons. If you tell any one of the three anything, they all talk together so you cannot keep a secret.
Our youngest son is autistic and trained Odie. He had a special bond with him. He could not accept euthanasia as an option. We talked about this for weeks before hand.
I normally do not lie but Sean could not accept Odie being put to death by a vet. It would have destroyed him psychologically.
The story we have told them (and this is the only lie we have ever told all three of our sons) is that Odie passed away in his sleep on the couch the morning of July 12, 2010.
It has been more than six months now and my heart still aches physically every time I see his picture hanging on our wall.
His ashes are in my bottom drawer. It costs more to have a dog privately cremated, but like a member of our family, he will be buried with us. I refuse to have my beloved companion put in a garbage bag and thrown out like garbage. His shell, his body out of respect will remain with and be buried with our family.
I watched as our previous dog, a 12 year old shepherd husky, St. Sinbad, was laid to rest with a shot. Sinbad was a 92 pound shepherd husky who one morning his back legs gave out completely as well as he had had a stroke.
The vet said he could not save him, his heart would not make it through hip surgery and his brain was gone. It would be more merciful to lay him to rest. To free his soul, and I believe dogs have more souls than most men I have met.
Our vet, who we knew to be a good, moral and compassionate person said it was time to release Sinbad’s soul from his body.
I was there and this is what I witnessed. I held his head in my lap, I kissed him, and kept my head next to his. We, my husband, my oldest son (who isn’t austistic and I) told him he was a good dog and that we loved him and that he would be at peace and to please not forget us. To please connect with us again if possible. We told him he would go to sleep and when he woke up he would be well again and he would no longer hurt.
The vet gave him one shot to float him down gently, get him high and then, after a minute gave him the second shot that ended his life on this dimension.
Sinbad looked at peace. I gave his body one last hug and said a prayer that his soul would find peace and safe journey.
I cry as I write this. Sinbad’s ashes are also in my bottom drawer and it is because of Sinbad’s death that two days later, Odie’s life was spared.
Odie had been tied to a tree for 4-5 years and his owner was going to take him to a kill shelter. My son asked if we couldn’t “try Odie out”. I wanted another Shepherd Husky, and Odie was an English Pointer with spots. But, I figured at least Sinbad’s death would mean one more dog would be spared the gas chamber or kill needle so I said yes to bring Odie home and not let him be taken to a kill shelter.
I felt this simple act would give Sinbad’s death meaning.
Euthanasia is a serious choice. It is death with dignity.
In both cases my two dogs were in pain, they both were at the point where they could no longer function or have a happy quality of life. One was only 12 the other was at least, according to the vet a remarkable 18-20 years old.
It has been six months since Odie’s death and as I write this, I cannot stop crying, my heart physically still aches. As stated before, Odie’s ashes are next to Sinbad’s and when it is my time to take leave of this existence, their ashes will be laid with mine.
In order to again give meaning and honor to Odie’s death we are adopting another dog that was on death row.
She is a 5-6 year old dog named Lucy from a rescue shelter that pulled her off the “kill line”.
Because of Odie’s death, another dog will not die – it will, to us give meaning and honor to a most wonderful entity’s death.
As stated before I was mad that my husband took Odie alone and handled this – but after pooping myself that one night, I began to think. When I am really old and can no longer care for myself and others must change my diaper, personally I would rather be floated down and then out. Personally, I would rather die than be left to lay in my own filth, not knowing when I had to go and to have my dignity taken away. I am a very clean person. I cannot stand to be dirty at all. The night that I had no bowel control really made me realize the full extent of what loss of dignity can mean and yes, an intelligent dog/cat does have dignity I believe. I know both Odie and Sinbad did.
I was in nursing and watched a woman 40+ years ago take two years to die from breast cancer. When we gave her a pain shot once, the head nurse said there was so much Demerol in the syringe that it could drop a healthy horse dead within seconds, the shots didn’t even phase her that is how much pain she was in. The lady was 36, 5’7” and weighed, after death 64 pounds. The medicine never even began to take the majority of the pain away, she would lay in bed screaming for us to please end her life.
Please let me go with some dignity and stop the pain if I am suffering.
I would suggest you remain with your dog when this is done if you possibly can. Make sure to talk to the vet beforehand and specify to float your beloved one down slowly first.
I would also suggest, if you can afford it to have your dog cremated or bury your beloved companion (I hate the term pet) in his/her favorite spot. Keep the collar and his/her blanket. Odie’s and Sinbad’s are next to their boxed urn folded neatly.
Lastly, If you have the time, the money and can possibly, take in another dog or cat that is on death row, do so, in honor of your previous companion’s death, another innocent life will be spared.
Here in America we kill an average of nearly eight million dogs and cats a year because people support puppy mills, pet shops and breeders.
By saving a healthy dog/cat that otherwise would have died simply because there are not enough homes and people will not neuter or spay their animals you will in a small way give meaning and honor to your beloved one’s death.
My heart goes out to you. This is never an easy decision. My last memory of Odie was kissing him good bye and telling him I would see him after work.
My husband said that as he was floated down, he told Odie, “Mama, Sean and I love you very much, you are a good dog and soon you will feel no pain, you will once again be free.”
Below is a poem attributed to Anne Boleyn. Now some historians say she did not write it. However the meaning is significant.
Death is simply passing from one dimension into another. Einstein said that energy, (the life force) never dies it just changes form. In this case your dog’s misery will end, his / her soul will be set free and his / her body put to quiet rest.
O Death Rock Me Asleep
a poem by Anne Boleyn
Death, rock me asleep,
Bring me to quiet rest,
Let pass my weary guiltless ghost
Out of my careful breast.
Toll on, thou passing bell;
Ring out my doleful knell;
Let thy sound my death tell.
Death doth draw nigh;
There is no remedy.
My pains who can express?
Alas, they are so strong;
My dolour will not suffer strength
My life for to prolong.
Toll on, thou passing bell;
Ring out my doleful knell;
Let thy sound my death tell.
Death doth draw nigh;
There is no remedy.
Alone in prison strong
I wait my destiny.
Woe worth this cruel hap that I
Should taste this misery!
Toll on, thou passing bell;
Ring out my doleful knell;
Let thy sound my death tell.
Death doth draw nigh;
There is no remedy.
Farewell, my pleasures past,
Welcome, my present pain!
I feel my torments so increase
That life cannot remain.
Cease now, thou passing bell;
Rung is my doleful knell;
For the sound my death doth tell.
Death doth draw nigh;
There is no remedy.
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