The Living Force
Thanks for the link, I just read it -your first post, though- I find their behaviour, very usual, I had/had been/still have too, encounters with that kind of people, even family members that had change my perspective about them, yes, many are vampires like, and is better for the sake of our mind to saty away, but sometimes, one/me cannot do it physically, but once I begun to learn the about the Work, one thing that had help me a lot is to remember that the others do not do it, work with themselves as I am in that process, they do not want, do not know, are not intersted etc, and when I feel uncomfortable, angry, hurt, I so remember about it, and it helps, because things/situations are being placed in another perspective, and had helped me and others, mostly close ones, like family/friends/employees, to express it, that way assumptions/misunderstandings become comprehension instead of "going to the unresolved issues that are filling whatever size glass, that later become a bigger emotional problem, and I am giving myself the opportunity to say it, because I thought I was not allowed and being angry came from it.Dakota said:This summer I been working with some really "crazy" people. I wrote about it in the post: https://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,39204.0.html
After the season I fought that I have learned some really good lessons. Now, I'm not sure. Then I fought that this people are vampires and it is better for me to stay away. But their behave is not unusual, my it is. I wanted to do everything regularly, through standard and etc. It is not matter am I professional or not, I have to adapt to survive or at least to have better surviving.
I have realized this when I start to work on this new job and realize that is not important what is my story what I have experienced on my last job, because people think that I'm not obedient, that I cannot suffer "little bit".This is not "my" world and I want to leave this as soon as I can (even that is STS thinking - wishing), I need to adopt to them, not be mad or something else because they behave STS.
The one "cannot suffer a bit", I related to "tolerance to frustration" and almost everyday it persues me too, and in many times, is when I am struggling with my otherself, something is to learn there, and, I suppose that involves other aspect in which what kind of experiences, society, countries, we choose to came here to learn -how unfortunate is that I can reconcile my set of learning's, that's another struggle , and yes, sometimes is frustrating.
I am sorry, I understand better why is so hard to you, it sure be difficult. ... I think is good to have you mom with you, perhaps/I hope one day you will be ready to deal with that pain, if that is the case.Dakota said:Thank you for sharing your opinion about this. For me, this one will be so hard. I used to be Christian. Now I despise the Church. But they run good business (at least from STS view and for short time). I didn't think about this for years and I just realized how much anger I have because of their fraud.
About funeral's: My mother has died when I was 18 years old. Even then that was just a charade for me. In so complex Universe someone found funeral, putting the body in the hole, like something important and that has higher purpose . For me that is like spitting in the "face of Universe". I know that people need some form of saying good bye, but I have never felt that my mother is really gone from me. She is in me, with me. Or maybe I'm just hate funerals because I still didn't deal with that pain. I don't know, will see.
I think I understand your point of view, in this latest C's session that talks about aligning to a certain group of people, I do began years ago to to not get identify with the people that went to church, from my point of view there were a bunch of hypocrites, and with the Work I begun to see myself as hypocrite as them ... along with other many other issues.