Back in 2012, when I was a New Ager, a student of the serious channeled materials, a researcher of the human condition, raising my consciousness via various modalities and practices, researching the nature of reality/universe, and into all manner of books and teachings, from the East to the West, enlightenment and ascension, contact with higher dimensional entities and ayahuasca... seeing UFOs and so on.... on top of all that good looking New Age CV type stuff, was I also having bad sleep paralysis.
While I was living that typical New Age/mystical/esoteric lifestyle, I knew nothing about Jesus Christ from the Bible. I knew about Jesus a little bit as a Westerner, but one could sum that up as: "He is apparently the Son of God who is part of the the Trinity. He died to save everyone." But that's it. How Christianity worked I didn't care about, because I had written it off as a primitive and useless spiritual tradition for the less intelligent.
One time during sleep paralysis, I had finally had enough of having to go through the horrible experience, the fear, the lack of control, the presence of darkness masquerading as light... for some unknown reason to me at the time, I yelled out (within myself) the name of "Jesus Christ." Now... I was never a Christian before that, nor did anyone ever tell me that his name is somehow special or that he is associated with authority and power. I knew all about the ascended masters, but I had no reason to single out Jesus as above anyone else in that group.
However - as soon as I called out Jesus' name, the sleep paralysis instantly ended. And I regained normal body control. Much to my relief and delight.
The sleep paralysis would happen several times after that time. And each time I called on Jesus' name it helped me end the evil oppression upon my chest and mind.
One time, interestingly, as I was calling out to Jesus, I heard another voice/thought in my mind that went along the lines of: "Why are you calling him? You have your own power, you are your own authority. You don't need anyone. You can do it all by yourself. Trust in yourself and you will succeed."
And so as I was exiting that paralysis episode, I said to myself: okay, I will not call on Jesus any more, since I have my own power and authority. Who needs Jesus, I am self-sufficient!
Mind you, at that time I did not go and research the many possible reasons for this phenomena. What little I did find waved SP away as nothing serious. Not researching something is quite common among the spiritually sick, they rarely research the very thing that is keeping them spiritually sick. Also, most people nowadays lean on their own understanding or on sources of spiritual knowledge/practices which do not come from God - and which are powerless to help. And so, they never really are victorious over darkness, but co-exist with it.
So... the next time I had sleep paralysis, I excitedly wanted to try out my own power over whatever was happening to me. I was almost looking forward to it. (What an idiot!)
Late in the night, as soon as I had that feeling of consuming darkness and oppression upon me, and I could neither move body or mouth... inside of myself I started saying words to the effect of: By my power and sovereign authority I demand that this stop. Stop now I command you..... Nothing happened. I tried a few other commands. Some simple, some more elaborate.
Pretty soon I started panicking. And then I suddenly remembered to call on Jesus. And as I did, I inherently felt ashamed that I had pushed him aside. And so, I called on Jesus. But this time nothing happened - for a moment. Then I heard an evil laugh off to the side, as if it was both enjoying seeing me fail at freeing myself, and the fact that I was a weakling for calling on someone else, particularly "Jesus".
But I also felt in me that I had been foolish and that having listened to that other advice about self-sufficiency, that I had somehow taken the place of God, thinking I could have the same power and authority that God inherently has over all creation. I felt that I had done wrong and that I should never do that again. I felt ashamed. It was a moment of "aha, this is a spiritual lesson that I must learn".
For what felt like an eternity, in a moment of time I realized that I was not above Jesus, that I was not more enlightened. That I was not from a higher density than he (apparently) was. That I was not more than him or even equal to him. Lessons that I would quickly forget, until many years later. Because the screaming reality of them was in direct conflict with the path I was upon, the spirituality and worldview I was practicing.
Suddenly the severe grip upon me loosened. And I breathed a deep sigh of relief and sat up in the darkness, checking my body to see if everything was still functioning properly, thanking that I was alive.
I did not thank God, because obviously I was into channeled materials and the general New Age worldview - a worldview that does not acknowledge a personal God, but rather a vague field of consciousness, or "the universe", or various other definitions.
So while I personally never let go of the idea that there is a personal God, I never really thought that He cared or participated directly in the universe. That's just not a New Age concept. So I didn't think I needed to thank God.
Anyway, I went quickly to sleep and for some strange reason, never had another episode of sleep paralysis again.
Nor did I actually research why specifically calling on Jesus did the trick. Nor why of all of the numerous "gods", out of nowhere I called on him.
3 years later in 2015, still a part of alternative spirituality, and writing a book on the subject of consciousness, trying to create a more spiritual outlook of reality than any of the world's religions.... in the midst of my work, the God of the Bible shows up, and calls me out of it all! Explaining, that none of the work I was doing is of "the truth" or of Him, and that the past 5 years of my life - instead of drawing me closer to truth/God as I had thought, in reality pulled me far away from Him, because I was ACTUALLY following the very teachings I had been born to expose. I was under the authority of the Enemy of mankind, Satan, the very one I was to expose.
I went ballistic!!!!
Suddenly, out of nowhere, a real hate and distrust for God came out of me, an anger and a deep confusion that I didn't know I had in me. The fact that I had completely gotten EVERYTHING wrong and the fact that I was spiritually poisoned, upset me so much: that I had wasted years of my life essentially following
demons/fallen angels masquerading as God's angels, as positive and negative aliens, as spirit guides, as the "higher self", and as higher dimensional channeled entities and civilizations.
Ironically no one has a problem with God as long as they follow Satan. But it's when God Himself comes into your life and asks you to draw the line, to choose between Him on the one side, and Satan or yourself on the other side, that's when the sleeper infusion of hatred that Satan put inside of you towards truly godly things, that is when it comes out in full force, to make sure you do not escape the invisible web that entwines and penetrates you. Darkness protects itself, much like how Islam threatens to kill you if you leave it. You are not allowed to "wake up", but numerous false awakenings to false concepts, lifestyles and worldviews - yeah that is very much encouraged! Anything to keep you in "the matrix". As the Bible says: "
Woe to those who call evil good, and good evil; Who substitute darkness for light and light for darkness; Who substitute bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter! Woe to those who are wise in their own eyes, and clever in their own sight!" - Isaiah 5:20-21
And so, suddenly what appeared as light for so long was no longer the true light, but one of the two faces of evil, the seductive false light - the beautiful side of evil. Soon most of the spiritual teachings of the world collapsed before me as not of God, but from the father of lies. It was devastating. So much wisdom and knowledge to the bin, because it was exposed by God as being nothing more than an elaborate deception within a deception within a deception.
At first I did not want the God of the Bible to truly be the one true Creator, the Most High, the Creator of the universe. But God was patient with me in my rage and confusion, and showed me where I and most who go into the New Age get it wrong. And how and why people who seek the truth most often end up being the most deceived by Satan - because the ruler of this world has redefined key concepts: life, death, good, evil, sin, right, wrong, truth, love, and God. If Satan is able to redefine God, he is able to redefine all of the rest of creation, and to fill the world with numerous false philosophies appearing true to spiritually uneducated humankind. If the people believe the lies, then he no longer has to work to actively deceive, he sits back and watches people deceive one another, because all of them believe the deception is a higher level truth that will liberate, enlighten and empower them.
Those who care not for spirituality, there are other deceptions for them: carnal pleasures and worldly power.
And so, as soon as God called me out of the New Age movement, He told me to stop all its practices, and to drop ALL channeled materials, esp. Ra's
Law of One series - and other similar high-level channeled teachings (I had collected quite a few and was a student of them.).
Then after the Creator had exposed evil in and around me, He gently explained the good message of the gospel and the need for salvation from sin and death. I.e. standard Biblical Christianity. And again, I really did not want it to be true, but the way God explained it, His message broke the camel's back, and even though my mind was full of the New Age concepts which I wanted to be true, and my heart was reeling with numerous emotions swirling around, my spirit deep within knew that there was no going back, that what I had been told about the gospel and about Jesus being the one and only path to life, that this was true!
At first I was furious with God, because I did NOT want Christ or Christianity to be true, I wanted them to be dumb and primitive little religions from a bygone age for people of lesser levels of consciousness. (But therein lies the deception of Satan: that the Way of God has anything to do with consciousness. No, it does not. If it was so, then far more people would perish and never have a chance at salvation - even if they wanted to. As the Bible says: "
For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is everlasting life in Christ Jesus our Lord." - Romans 6:23
In other words, here was a message far superior, the standard Christian message was far superior to anything the numerous alternative spiritualities offered. Because salvation is a free gift of God, even though no one deserves it. That's a message of pure love. And right then and there, was God confirming it, and the message He has been speaking through His people for millennia, in order to save as many humans as possible - whoever will humble themselves and hear.
Thankfully during those first few weeks, God explained to me the gospel not by using biblical language, but in a more modern manner, so that it made sense - and yet, did not contradict the Bible, as I was to confirm later. God not only explained the gospel to me but also to countless others whom He has also called to follow Him. And with each case something wonderful become clear: that God never changes, that His words in the Bible have not changed, that if God quotes Scripture to you and corrects you, that it is not a dead, outdated and erroneous book, that has been altered and is no longer trustworthy. In fact the entire modern myth that the Bible is a work of fiction was obliterated by what God demonstrated to me, as well as to countless others over the past several years.
That is when I understood that indeed there is a viable but completely different spiritual path to the numerous "religions" of Satan which advertise themselves as advanced spirituality: Hinduism, Buddhism, Taoism, paganism, esotericism, mysticism, gnosticism, shamanism, occultism, Luciferianism, mystery school religions, theosophy, the vast New Age movement with all its variations, the ancient Egyptian religion, the various tribal religions, animism, etc, etc. Including the secular "religions" of atheism, humanism, communism, transhumanism. Even the dysfunctional and the off-shoot version of Christianity are of Satan, created, like the other paths listed prior, to take souls to a sure death. That's the whole point for Satan, that as man human souls as possible inherit eternal death, believing they cannot die (reincarnation) or that death is a natural part of life, i.e. to just accept it and not care.
That's when I finally understood why calling on Jesus' name, so many years prior, actually had an effect on the entities around me. Because only God has authority over others - all creations in the universe must listen to Him. Because all life, ultimately, depends on Him.
There is also the fact that those who are unholy flee the holiness of God, they cannot bear His purity, His glory... which is why God calls for anyone who would follow Him through His Son Jesus, to also be holy, separate from the fallen world - in the world, but not of it. And that is also the reason why there have been so many false followers of Christ, because not only is the enemy without - sabotaging people and civilization, but our own fallen/sinful nature is our enemy within, that is part of us, which needs lifelong work or sanctification - which can only occur after an individual has been born again of the Spirit of God.
That's what most fail to address - they are not born of the Holy Spirit, therefore they continue living in the flesh just as they have been doing since they were born, instead of accepting God's salvation, then abiding in God by walking in the Spirit. All of Satan's "spiritualities" are custom designed to cater to the fallen flesh and soul of man, to make him believe that he is somehow advancing, ascending, and progressing. But the truth is, he is like a hamster running at full speed in a stationary wheel, totally pacified and enslaved, so that when he dies, he expects to ascend, but the truth is that something else completely different happens, he finally learns that reality is far different, and that he has to answer to that reality by facing God, instead of progressing according to the deception/s by which he lived his life on earth.
That my sleep paralysis episodes ended, while I was still following the Enemy of mankind and studying his soul poisoning teachings - that was the grace of God! (I did not deserve that.) As was His powerful and loving rescue of me from all forms of false spirituality that leads to nowhere, even as I was in the midst of my sin of following gargantuan deceptions, trying my hardest to legitimize them in the world, over and above God's own truth. He still rescued me.
The lesson is: if you're in trouble, who you gonna call? The biggest and best ghostbuster of them all: God Himself, Jesus Christ.
