Hi Flow,
This thread assumes some background knowledge in Gurdjieff's 4th Way Work. PD Ouspensky's. "In Search of the Miraculous" (ISOTM in short) is the recommended introduction to Gurdjieff's Work. If you haven't read it then I would suggest reading it if this topic interests you.
Flow said:
I read this thread and I have so much blockades and don't understand it. First of all, I'm dealing with many programs, fears etc. within myself. But, my current understanding is that the "right" Work for me is, let's say, to find a way to work with my issues in a safe-zone. It means that I do work on unpleasant, uncomfortable programs, but to try to do it on comfortable way. Like, I just have to put it in motion and when tho process start I just work with that. To put myself in that process is of course, challenging, and only way that works for me for now is that I enjoy in that process. It means that I feel somehow nourished by myself, joy, curiosity, even if the process is unpleasant.
If the process is unpleasant to you and you are able to actually go through with it, then you are practicing discipline. In my experience, there is a satisfaction that comes
after I go through such a process, even though it was unpleasant to start with.
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When it comes to topic of discipline in my work, I just can't understand that principle. My questions are: why do I have to force myself when it seems so much effective when I just do things that I like? Maybe discipline to me means to persuade myself to work, because it is interesting, it's fun to learn etc.?
I'm very confused about this. What role discipline has in someone's Work, and where somebody who doesn't understand that much should start?
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Getting familiar with the research on diet as well as the EE meditation program (links are there to the material in the thread where you introduced yourself) would be good starting points. These are some practical applications of what is being discussed in this thread
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Does discipline have to be something "hard"? And the most important question, how to balance between comfortable and uncomfortable, letting things go and control them - I think this question might somehow be a synthesis of my topic. So, I guess it would be balancing one's mind and the feelings theme.
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I think this is more a matter of practical experience. Suppose I have made a decision to meditate everyday before I sleep. Now I have had a long tiring day and though I found time to do everything else, I feel like I deserve to sleep for that extra half an hour than spend it trying to meditate. Even though it
feels unpleasant , my body can take half an hour of sitting. If I go through with the sitting meditation in this situation, I go to sleep in a more satisfied and happy state.
Then suppose I twisted my ankle during the day. It is not serious but somewhat painful if I take up my customary sitting posture during meditation. Now what do I do? I can follow through with the regular routine , not only going through with meditation at the end of the long day but do it in my customary posture which strains my ankle more. When I go to sleep, my ankle hurts - so I am not happy - but I feel proud that I was able to do it despite the pain.
Instead of this, I can go through with the meditation but choose a different posture than my usual one - which does not put any strain on my ankle. When I am done, I am happy but not proud. So I followed discipline but in a flexible rather than a rigid way in keeping with the situation at hand.
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Sorry for the noise and please delete my topic if it it's inappropriate.
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You asked a sincere question, Flow. It is appropriate and valuable, for you and for others. Personally, I think this forum could use more sincere questions. People have them, but they refrain from asking due to some imaginary fears that may be covered up by different justifications and narratives.