Honestly I have no idea what happened to me almost 2 years ago but it could have been mental breakdown as well, emotional shock for sure. It came from disappointment how shallow people really can be underneath this intellectual pursuits, what @SlipNet mentions. I had a dream this year that I'm operating brain surgery on me, so I was a doctor and a patient at the same time and I was butchering my brains. When shall I be perfect? And for whom exactly? I'm just going to enjoy what's coming and that's all.
