How do you sleep when you are aware of the horrors of reality?

[Jones]

Melatonin and magnesium have been big game changers for me. I've found that I get the best out of melatonin if I take it around 6.30pm. I still have some nights where I don't feel sleepy until late - like around 11.00pm or so, but if I've taken melatonin early I can be asleep by 9.30 or 10ish.

Also read recently that that the blue light spectrum can impact the autonomic nervous system and prevent relaxation so blue light blocking glasses were suggested for after sundown and during overcast weather to help with calming.

 

[Amor]

You might want to look into GABA supplements. GABA is a neurotransmitter balancing glutamate which is an excitory neurotransmitter. Actually too low GABA can even be damaging the brain due to oxidative stress caused by glutamate. GABA can help to slow thoughts a bit down. Also there might be low serotonine or vitamin d factor which can cause ANTs (automatic negative thoughts). Another thing is the programming of thought patterns before bed. The more you engage in these thoughts the more you get them. Also magnesium biglycinate should help not only with sleep but also anxiety and stress in general.

 

[aragorn]

There’s a recent thread with good insights that are related to what you describe, FRV. The thread is called ‘Shouldn’t we be fighting this’, here: Shouldn't we be fighting this?

Although the initial discussion was mainly related to the Covid tyranny and propaganda, the discussion soon evolved to a more philosophical and metaphysical level.

 

[bozadi]

that to be joyful is selfish because of the collective suffering.

I had that complex severely and the C's sessions have been a great help for me to overcome it to a significant extent, because I noticed that they are "incomparably" more aware than me of the "tortures" being suffered but still they are decidedly joyful and passionately encourage us to be joyful. "Mirth! Mirth!" said they. "Wow!" said I, feeling this suggestion to be valid but being unable to figure out how to justify it. The Ra-Cassiopaean cosmology and also some other sources like N. Maharaj's teaching of advaita provided so many insights for me to be able to fill in the blanks significantly.

Ego (false self) is a disease of alienation to our true nature. Joy, love, etc. willing to be shared are some fundamental characteristics of our true self. They are also "knowledge", as in they contain and convey a certain awareness of the fundamental reality of oneness with infinite riches of diversity.

True joy (love, positivity) is of the fundamental reality. Not all but a significant part of our sufferings is caused by our falling for the lies and manipulations of the STS conspirators.

Give what is asked for by a lie: Truth.

and

A: Guilt is basically an ego thing of a very covert nature.

 

[irjO]

Here is what I'm doing to help me sleep
Less cards, more protein & fats
Reduce caffeine again
Increase exercise
Increase mediation and breathing practices
Somatic Releases
Vitamins

Also read recently that that the blue light spectrum can impact the autonomic nervous system and prevent relaxation so blue light blocking glasses were suggested for after sundown and during overcast weather to help with calming.

Hi FVR, You have received good insight from others, but also, have you considered that you might be very sensitive to blue light? Like Jones posted, is one of the main things that can prevent you from having a good sleep or just to sleep in general. A lot of people who have trouble sleeping are more sensitive to blue light compared to most. Not saying this is your case, but is worth investigating about it. LCD screens from TVs, computers, phones, etc. could have a high impact on your sleep.

 

[Jenn]

Not saying this is your case, but is worth investigating about it. LCD screens from TVs, computers, phones, etc. could have a high impact on your sleep.

And light bulbs in the home too. I like putting on the salt lamp when I'm reading in bed and there are red/orange bulbs light like this: Blue Light Blocking Light Bulbs | The Best Red Light Bulbs or bulbs you can dim and change the colour of like this: https://www.amazon.com/Changing-Daylight-Bulbs-Dimmable-Decoration/dp/B06Y27W7NZ/ref=sr_1_3_sspa?

There's also the fact that we get less sunshine and daylight at this time of the year, that, plus blue light from devices plays havoc with the circadian rhythm. Have you looked into SAD lamps? https://www.lumie.com/products/dash

 

[FRV]

Thank you everyone for the advice, I'm going to take my time reading (and re-reading).
There has been a lot of great insights, new info, and reminders.

I think not sleeping allows me to be a great food source for STS and the reminder that there is life beyond 3D/4D STS. That connecting to love and joy is needed. I think I am addicted to feeling bad because it's familiar to my nervous system after 26 years of trauma. I am way more joyful than ever but clearly I am still struggling because I still believe that feeling joy while others suffer is "wrong", "bad", and "selfish". This thread has allowed me to see that limiting belief.

Also, I wear bluelight glasses 24/7 as they are with my reg prescription glasses and I don't use any screentime before bed. So, I don't believe that's the problem, however I can always take another look!

I feel a lot less alone and crazy now, so thank you again. As I re-read I am reply to quotes from this thread but for now I wanted to do a general thank you reply

 

[Joe]

I get such extreme visuals and visceral feelings when the intrusive thoughts about others being harmed so deeply that it takes so much regulation and it's negatively affecting my life. I'm struggling to eat, sleep, and have sex- literally the most basic human functions. The trick my brain does is it tells me if I don't think about it all the time, I'm not aware enough, that to be joyful is selfish because of the collective suffering. Any suggestions or guidance is greatly appreciated.

Sounds like you need to reprogram those beliefs. They're nonsense, and you can remind yourself of that every time they come up, and write down a few phrases that are the opposite. You don't need to be aware of the suffering of others all the time to be "aware enough", you already are aware enough. It is not selfish to be joyful, in fact, the exact opposite is true. The suffering of people on this planet is not your fault or responsibility. Your responsibility - if you chose to accept it (and you don't have to) - is to pay attention, to a reasonable extent, to what is going on on the planet, which involves a lot more than people suffering, and learn the valuable lessons that are there to learn from doing that.

 

[FRV]

Sounds like you need to reprogram those beliefs. They're nonsense, and you can remind yourself of that every time they come up, and write down a few phrases that are the opposite. You don't need to be aware of the suffering of others all the time to be "aware enough", you already are aware enough. It is not selfish to be joyful, in fact, the exact opposite is true. The suffering of people on this planet is not your fault or responsibility. Your responsibility - if you chose to accept it (and you don't have to) - is to pay attention, to a reasonable extent, to what is going on on the planet, which involves a lot more than people suffering, and learn the valuable lessons that are there to learn from doing that.

Wow, this almost had me tearing up.
You're right and I needed to hear this stated like that, these beliefs ARE nonsense and there IS more than people suffering.
I have been working hard to unlearn that being joyful is selfish because underneath the programming I believe its soulful to reclaim our connect to joy. I'm really glad I reached out instead of trying to figure it all out myself. I appreciate that the c's emphasis networking as someone who was hyper independent and often had an echo chamber in my own mind.

 

[Breo]

Networking is so great :) My post a little late.
If its still of worth, there is this little phrase that I noticed in your post:

The trick my brain does is it tells me if I don't think about it all the time, I'm not aware enough, that [...]

I have these patterns too and it was relevant to work with it also in a physical/sensory way through breathing and awareness. Maybe you are familiar with how to sense such patterns, if not, I found the meditation exercise that was posted above by Ca., very helpful. Along with regular EE. There will be a cleansing of emotions, calm, flow and expanded learning. It dissolves the "I am not enough", the drain often right away.

You anyhow figured it out. I just want to add, striving for beauty, joy and the good is also to balance and protect our meaning in life. If we deprive ourselves of loving life through creativity, beauty and striving for the good, we continue to allow the feeding. Its the higher emotions that keep us on track in gaining knowledge.

Two reads come to my mind.
Pauls letter of love and along with The Wave Chapter 72: The Nonlinear Dynamics of Love and Complex Systems: Debugging the Universe

We hang in there together :) Thanks for sharing, @FRV

 

[loreta]

There is a time to cry, and a time to laugh. You have to laugh. Do you laugh during the day? It is essential. It relaxes.
So there is a time to cry and it must happen during the day. And at night, you have to sleep. You have to regain energy to go and fight this NWO. Read a boring book in bed, take melatonin, and also eat some chocolate. I know, suffering insomnia is not funny. You can take Bach flowers, they sell Rescue Remedy for the night. It works.

The times we live in - and if we are a little hypersensitive are hard, but the night is for sleeping, you have to tell your brain so that it understands. And before you fall asleep pray, pray for your friends, and give thanks for being alive.

Anyway, what is happening is there to educate us, to open our eyes, to make us experience humility, compassion, love, and solitude. Allow your body to rest... During the day move, do exercises, laugh, take air. Cut the addiction to know what the horror of this planet, for one day or two. See how you feel. See if you can sleep a little more.

 

[FRV]

There is a time to cry, and a time to laugh. You have to laugh. Do you laugh during the day? It is essential. It relaxes.
So there is a time to cry and it must happen during the day. And at night, you have to sleep. You have to regain energy to go and fight this NWO. Read a boring book in bed, take melatonin, and also eat some chocolate. I know, suffering insomnia is not funny. You can take Bach flowers, they sell Rescue Remedy for the night. It works.

The times we live in - and if we are a little hypersensitive are hard, but the night is for sleeping, you have to tell your brain so that it understands. And before you fall asleep pray, pray for your friends, and give thanks for being alive.

Anyway, what is happening is there to educate us, to open our eyes, to make us experience humility, compassion, love, and solitude. Allow your body to rest... During the day move, do exercises, laugh, take air. Cut the addiction to know what the horror of this planet, for one day or two. See how you feel. See if you can sleep a little more.

Wow, the more I ponder and reflect I am addicted to thinking about the horrors of reality, literally addicted. But I have overcome other addictions so I have proof I can overcome this as well. I also get weighed down trying to be perfect and do everything right which in turns just increases stress which then makes it harder to sleep. I really like the tone of your message, you are taking my concern seriously while bringing in a light hearted energy that I need.

Also, maybe my brain doesn't think night time is for sleeping since I've had insomnia as a child and then worked late night jobs. I do need to tell my brain night is for sleeping, I never thought about it like that. Thanks!

"I am not enough", the drain often right away.

You anyhow figured it out. I just want to add, striving for beauty, joy and the good is also to balance and protect our meaning in life. If we deprive ourselves of loving life through creativity, beauty and striving for the good, we continue to allow the feeding. Its the higher emotions that keep us on track in gaining knowledge.

I am currently working through my worthiness wound/ not enough program and did not realize that it's coming through here until you pointed it out. When I can't sleep because of the horrors I feel not only helpless but not enough since I can't help everyone or even most people. Which links to what bozadi posted:

Session 18 May 2019 said:
A: Guilt is basically an ego thing of a very covert nature.

So many dots are being connected. I think I will also try:

GABA supplements

Does anyone have some recommended articles on these supplements?

and rereading both:

Pauls letter of love and along with The Wave Chapter 72: The Nonlinear Dynamics of Love and Complex Systems: Debugging the Universe

I wonder if pauls letter of love before bed often would help.

 

[Joe]

You're right and I needed to hear this stated like that, these beliefs ARE nonsense and there IS more than people suffering.

You should make conscious efforts to catch these kinds of thoughts and correct them in the moment. You can also write down a few phrases that contradict these negative beliefs and read them out loud to yourself every day, ideally in the mirror, like before you go to bed and after you wake up.

 

[Menna]

I've been aware of the horrors of reality since a young age, which is part of the problem. I found out about a lot of this stuff when I was around 12 with no guidance. I had religious parents that thought all this was crazy conspiracies.

I've had insomnia since a young age due to personal trauma THEN finding out about the truth of reality made sleeping even worse.
I've tried mediation, yoga, reading, dancing, talk therapy, somatics etc and have healed a lot of trauma but the lack of proper sleep is so frustrating.
I don't know how to deal with the fact that as I breathe before bed there are literally millions of children, women, and men getting tortured and hurt.
People on the forum how do you not not drown in that? How do I stop it from keeping me up every night?

Some months are better than others but I noticed it flared up intensely lately.

I get such extreme visuals and visceral feelings when the intrusive thoughts about others being harmed so deeply that it takes so much regulation and it's negatively affecting my life. I'm struggling to eat, sleep, and have sex- literally the most basic human functions. The trick my brain does is it tells me if I don't think about it all the time, I'm not aware enough, that to be joyful is selfish because of the collective suffering. Any suggestions or guidance is greatly appreciated.

I want to get to the point where my cognitive abilities are thriving so I can participate on the forum without it always being about me personally, but I know my brain is not working right with all this stress and no sleep. I don't want to be ignorant of reality but my psyche literally cannot handle thinking about the horrors 24/7 and somehow yet seems addicted to it, if that makes any sense.

There is so much good advice on here and yet it feels like nothing is working. How do I get my brain to stop obsessing about the darkness? I know light and good exist, I know you have to face the darkness and not ignore it yet I feel like I'm a steak marinating in it

I'll continue to cultivate inner light

Here is what I'm doing to help me sleep
Less cards, more protein & fats
Reduce caffeine again
Increase exercise
Increase mediation and breathing practices
Somatic Releases
Vitamins

A few ways. You are conciousness/soul having an experience in this reality at this moment. The horrors all over the world are not applicable to your experience. What the “system” gives you to deal with is your to deal with and on this forum we are STO when asked and a lot of that is in your being and how you live. Handle the horrors in your life make them better while emulating STO and your grown up higher self.

It’s unfortunate but all negative experiences are not your to bare just like all positive experiences are not yours to gain from.

Another point to make is that this physical reality is not even or fair when it comes down to individuals, if you study long and hard you may fail, if you eat right and are active you may still develop a sickness and accidents happen…Work on your awareness grow your practical knowledge of reality and yourself.

You are conciousness trying to reach its potential in a “rule set” physical reality making free will decisions

Also the system that conciousness is in here and now is learning from your potential choices so to be OVERLY concerned about what’s happening in France when you live in Brazil is not the best way to experience this reality and actualize your potential the “entropy reduction system” needs you in some sense and you have to abide by the systems rule set and the happenings in your life.

Help when asked, donate if you can and spread awareness but don’t be consumed about all Horrors just figure out the ones infront of you…Furthermore you can also teach those around you in your motions, speech, energy and results….Get busy fulfilling your potential possibilities toward STO not fear based STS AND to do all this you need at least 6+ hours of sleep

My 3 cents

 

[Ricardo]

Touching on what a few have written here , if i may , inner non confluence AND outer considering ( as per one of the recommended readings book list , gnosis ) if you persist , it helps , tremendously , but prices must be paid , stick with it and it is worth it's weight in gold , regardless of how many time you fail , happy new year ;)