Recently I read in Wave something that struck me so hard. Something that was an answer of so many of my questions.
In first I felt numb and overwhelmed with informations. But now I'm so thankful for all of this.
For someone who always wanted to understand love and relationship and been so many time "in love" these words are key to deprogramming all these false beliefs that held me decades in a trap of illusion.
That was beginning a lot of bad relationships. I said "I love you" so many times. "Forever yours", "You're my destiny", "We're soulmates" and etc.
I get through the same process every time. And this next quote summary most of the years of my life.
I couldn't think of anything else. I have almost completely lost touch with the real world.
It was a dangerous situation (something that is also, IMO, a symptom of 'love bite') because all this happened on my job. Also, she was a girlfriend of a psychopath that tried to force me to quit because I was in the way of his agenda, to take over the restaurant. With the awesome help of Forum and my experience of "cosmic love" I managed to become aware that he persuaded her to seduce me and in that way exposing me as a bad person (being a gay person). But, I still wondered if she feels something for me. When the working season was over I hug her one more time before we separated and I experience something really weird but somehow revealing. But when I open my arms to hug her I had the impression that she is an old witch with a skin with a very old woman (she is very young). It was a bizarre feeling and after that I was kind of awakening from this illusion. But through all this time I lived in agony to be addicted at the same time that I will be exposed on my job.
After I discover these informations I talked to one my friend in which I was, also , "in love". She couldn't love me back and because of that our friendship suffer a lot. But we manage to overcome this through to years. She reads Wave and transcript and it is very interested in the subject. When she said:"You see, now you have your answers" I felt in my sternum area strange waves, like something is release.
And I also think how many times I was a vector of love bite in my relationships.
I feel like I was born again.
So, if you're in some way touched by these informations (the way I did) and like to share your "love bite" experience please do.
P.S. I tried to share my experience, thoughts and feelings in the best possible way but I was shaking through writing so I apologize if I don't sound clear enough.
In first I felt numb and overwhelmed with informations. But now I'm so thankful for all of this.
For someone who always wanted to understand love and relationship and been so many time "in love" these words are key to deprogramming all these false beliefs that held me decades in a trap of illusion.
I was seven years old when I was the first time "in love". Yeap! And this infatuation lasted for seven years. She didn't feel a thing for me and when I said to her that I'm in love with her she humiliates me, because of my feelings, in front of my colleagues in school. After that I tried to commit suicide but I couldn't.Further, loving unconditionally means to love the self in the same way. If your “unconditional love” of another means that you must “act” in any way other than what is authentic to you, then you haven’t gotten it. Further, if this other person does not love you in the same way, allowing you to be fully accepted as you are, and you think that by continuing to hold them close and love THEM unconditionally, that they will finally figure it out and “change”, then you have already violated the law of unconditional love. In terms of daily living, you can only live in unconditional love with another who understands it in exactly the same way you do.
That was beginning a lot of bad relationships. I said "I love you" so many times. "Forever yours", "You're my destiny", "We're soulmates" and etc.
I get through the same process every time. And this next quote summary most of the years of my life.
Every simulation of "cosmic love" that I have experienced in this life begins with one moment in which I started to feel (and think) differently about someone. A rush of adrenalin, a sudden feeling of attraction even though I didn't notice or didn't like that person very much before. For example, I have hug one of my coworker couple of years ago, just to express my wishes for her birthday, and hole my body start to shake. I had trouble to walk because of this feeling of dizziness. And I felt that feeling for a couple of minutes. After that moment I become addicted to her.The usual next stage in this drama is to cause the Wanderer to be attracted to a particular type of person who is a sort of “false image” of STO. This can be what researcher Eve Lorgen calls a Love Bite relationship where a great “cosmic love” is simulated, only to fall flat as soon as the EM vector is “turned off”. The intended result of this betrayal is to induce suicidal feelings or to set the Wanderer up for the NEXT variation of the game.
I couldn't think of anything else. I have almost completely lost touch with the real world.
It was a dangerous situation (something that is also, IMO, a symptom of 'love bite') because all this happened on my job. Also, she was a girlfriend of a psychopath that tried to force me to quit because I was in the way of his agenda, to take over the restaurant. With the awesome help of Forum and my experience of "cosmic love" I managed to become aware that he persuaded her to seduce me and in that way exposing me as a bad person (being a gay person). But, I still wondered if she feels something for me. When the working season was over I hug her one more time before we separated and I experience something really weird but somehow revealing. But when I open my arms to hug her I had the impression that she is an old witch with a skin with a very old woman (she is very young). It was a bizarre feeling and after that I was kind of awakening from this illusion. But through all this time I lived in agony to be addicted at the same time that I will be exposed on my job.
Like someone who always relied on emotions this is really crucial for me to learn.The point is: it becomes almost impossible to trust one’s emotions when considering this factor! So, again, we see the necessity for knowledge about the environment and thoughtful examination of our internal state at all times in order to avoid such traps.
After I discover these informations I talked to one my friend in which I was, also , "in love". She couldn't love me back and because of that our friendship suffer a lot. But we manage to overcome this through to years. She reads Wave and transcript and it is very interested in the subject. When she said:"You see, now you have your answers" I felt in my sternum area strange waves, like something is release.
And I also think how many times I was a vector of love bite in my relationships.
I feel like I was born again.
So, if you're in some way touched by these informations (the way I did) and like to share your "love bite" experience please do.
P.S. I tried to share my experience, thoughts and feelings in the best possible way but I was shaking through writing so I apologize if I don't sound clear enough.