Thanks you so much, again, dear people.
Yesterday I went to see my chiropractor and when he asked how Safi was doing (I had cancelled two appointments with him) I burst into tears. I didn't see it coming and couldn't stop it (nor did I want to). He was very sweet, got me some water and took some extra time out of his very busy schedule to talk to me.
He also explained that most people hold a lot of tension in their neck, shoulders and diaphragm when they are in mourning, even if they hadn't seen their loved ones for years or even if the passing was peaceful.
So, he worked on my neck , shoulders and diaphragm and I have another appointment with him in ten days.
I am beginning to understand that Safi wanted to transition alone and I am grateful that she could on her own terms more or less. It does feel as if she is still around somehow and indeed I can still hear her.
Thank you so much again, your replies are truly invaluable to me.