Another thought I had was, in some of therapy/coaching sessions, I have been asked when I experienced anxiety, what was I thinking at the time, sometimes I can remember and point to a thought that caused it and sometimes I have no idea, or I don't remember anything in my inner landscape that was going on that could have triggered it. Would this be an unsymbolised thought?
Haven’t watched the show yet but I’m looking forward to it.
On the above, I thought that I was very self-aware, and when attempting to identify thought patterns or processes that triggered my anxiety, I couldn’t think of any in the beginning and so I thought that my anxiety must be solely a physical problem.
But through subsequent self-observation, I’ve found that there are indeed thought patterns, or underlying thought patterns (perhaps more subconscious), that trigger it. Beliefs about the way things should be, or the way I should respond, that lead to anger, frustration or exasperation.
My anxiety is/was always triggered in situations at work, where the work load would build up, or I was already busy and then management would come along and decide they were going to change a process, or ask me to do something extra. The fuse would light inside me and I would feel it burning away, and then an internal emotional explosion would follow.
I know now that my underlying thought processes and/or beliefs were causing it: “Oh, for God’s sake!”, “I don’t have time for this!”, “This is stupid!”, “This isn’t fair, don’t they know how busy I already am?!”, “This is ridiculous. What I’m being asked to do is impossible and it’s a waste of time anyway. There’s no need for it!” But these thought patterns weren’t really verbal - I just know that they fit the ‘flavour’ and are the roots of what was triggering my emotional and physical responses. The term you used from the show - unsymbolised thought - sounds like a good descriptor.
So I changed my reactions. I realised, why on Earth am I making such a big deal out of these things? I’m making myself ill. These things simply don’t matter. I just try to always remain calm and relaxed now and not let the snowball start rolling down the hill, picking up speed and mass until it becomes a wrecking ball.
I guess it’s Gurdjieff’s practice of non-identification: not identifying with the things that are happening around us so that we lose ourselves in them, and through that, hand control of our inner world over to external things.
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Star Trek is full of intelligent astronomical phenomena and large space entities. I'm glad I wasn't the only one, who came up with the idea. Transcript from the amazing show at - see video below:
I've seen one of his Flat Earth videos, and this recent discovery of mine does tie the whole lovely package together (warning, some F-bombs):
