No more running away

[doublea1535]

The other thing is conscious suffering, especially denying myself unnecessary things I want to do and then observing what happens inside when I do that. This may be something small, for example I may want to stretch, or cross my arms, but I resist. Or maybe it is the urge to look at a beautiful woman walking past.

I hope this will be a good starting point.

I think that denying yourself the pleasure of attraction to a beautiful woman will be helpful, to not look and pay attention, but to deny your body the urge to stretch when it needs to is folly. You have to remember you are a machine right now, and even when you can escape from that, you will still be stuck in a machine as long as you exist in 3D. You have to honor your body and it's needs, and give it what it needs. It's something you cannot escape until you do, which is something very far off.

Try not to be the machine, but respond to the machine that is your body. It has it's own needs, independent of what you may want or need. If it needs to stretch, you should do so. G. also said that the first course of action for us is to get our (physical) machine in order. I can say that working on my physical, resolving my chronic pain, has been tremendously helpful for me in terms of dealing with the "higher level" things going on in life. Have you ever had body work performed on you? I have encountered so many people in life so resistant to the idea, and yet I can see with my own eyes how distorted their own body posture is. So much lies underneath the surface of your skin, waiting to be exposed. Rolfers have a term, peeling the onion. One layer after another, until there is nothing left to peel. Only the best of us, not me for sure, have nothing to gain from bodywork such as Rolfing, so that is what I would recommend. It might seem like a side-road, but it can yield great results, if you have the right attitude about it.

 

[abeofarrell]

Thanks Ignis, I know what you mean. I guess what I was trying to describe was denying unnecessary physical habits rather than natural body responses. EE has taught me a lot about the importance of following my physical instincts in order to achieve healing. But I have many physical habits. I will stretch or fold my arms for example when I am nervous or defensive. I can distinguish the difference between a nervous gesture and a physical necessity.

Yes I would love to have something like Rolfing. I need to see if they offer such services in Japan. Many people have spoken to me about this before. I think it would be great for me. I know I have a lot of physical problems stemming from the past. I often have unexplained pains or other discomforts, and I am sure it is to some degree psychological or emotional rather than true physical problems.

Thank you again for your response.

 

[Narco]

Hello abeofarrell, I'm pretty much in the same stage of development as you are and all I want say to you is that if you truly care about your development and you truly want to become true to your self then his fire that has ignited inside you will never go away, it might become static for a while or it might get weaker from time to time but eventually growth will come if you actively pursue it.

The best chapter of your life is now beginning, good luck