Our paranormal experiences

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Il y a quelques jours, un après midi, j'étais sur mon lit dans ma chambre entourée de mes chat et ma petite York, HELLA, quand tout a coup, j'entends des oisillons chanter de très jolis vocalises pendant 10 minutes, dans le haut de mon armoire fermée....
Cela s'est reproduit une fois, quelques secondes, le lendemain après midi, provenant du même endroit...
Bien entendu, il n'y avait pas d'oiseaux ni de nid dans le haut de mon armoire fermée...
J'ai trouvé cela très joli, intéressant et ravissant, aucune négativité n'a été ressentie bien au contraire...

A few days ago, one afternoon, I was on my bed in my room surrounded by my cat and my little York, HELLA, when suddenly I heard baby birds singing very pretty vocals for 10 minutes, in the top of my closed wardrobe....
It happened again once, a few seconds, the next afternoon, from the same place...
Of course, there were no birds or nests in the top of my closed cupboard...
I found it very pretty, interesting and delightful, no negativity was felt quite the contrary...
 
I've only related these paranormal experiences to a few people over the years, but here goes...

by 1992 in my life, I had just graduated from University and all the "woo" was long gone. I had been a kid in the 70's into UFO's, Squatch etc. but little by little I had completely disregarded those mysteries for a more materialist view. Being in my early 20's I was ready to be a "serious" adult with an academic leaning mind and to navigate the world properly. I needed rational answers in a rational world.

The first event happened on Halloween 1992. I had my first "serious" girlfriend with me and we drove out to my parents house near Vermilion Bay, Ontario for the weekend. My parents had gone to bed and we wanted to watch an fitting Halloween movie around 11. We chose Amityville Horror. I had left the VHS rental in the car in the driveway and went out to get it.

My parents' garage lights lit up the driveway halfway up to the road, but the woods were dark the rest of the way up to the road which was about 50 yards. When I opened the car to get the VHS I looked into the yard about thirty feet away. I saw a group of what I thought were white rabbits. After a second I knew there aren't white rabbits in the northern woods of Ontario - they're brown or grey (Hares are white in winter - this was still fall and I know what a Hare looks like). And these weren't regular rabbits.

They were elongated like cats and had red eyes. They didn't hop like rabbits either. They'd jump and float in the air for a moment then land. They also made no sound whatsoever even though they were in thicker lawn and there was no wind - the woods were dead quiet. I stared at them for at least a minute. I had a lot of trouble wrapping my head around what I was seeing. I hadn't had any alcohol or drugs and had been on the highway at night for three hours - so I was very lucid and alert.

I suddenly got very scared and went back in when I couldn't get myself to believe they were rabbits - locking every door I could find. When I went back downstairs I half thought about telling my GF to come out yo see what I saw and then I thought twice - she'd think I was crazy, because I knew they'd be gone. As soon as I was at the TV with her she wanted to talk about serious "relationship" concerns. It was just a dazed conversations to me as all I could think about was the floating, long rabbits.

I never discussed it with anyone for many years, but regularly I'd try to find some info on mutated "jackalopes" to try and explain what I had saw. It always bugged me. There was no explanation until I came across the concept of "window faller". That was finally a plausible explanation.

Since then, there's been no weird animals or window fallers, but a handful of unusual airborne objects. The first return of the "weird" was in doing yard work in my backyard five years ago. I saw what looked like a large bunch of silver Mylar balloons moving fast from Southwest to Northeast. The problem was, we had an east wind that day. We have an old mushroom plant a mile east from us, so when we get a rare east wind, we notice the smell right away. This bunch of balloons was cruising fast against the wind and as I watched it, it looked to change shape. I thought of getting my wife or neighbour to take a look - but once again that feeling of "don't do it" came over me. Get a camera - "don't do it".

I mulled this over in my mind for a long time, but during that time became much more familiar with sightings and reactions etc. So when the next one came up the following summer I was more prepared. This one looked like a batman logo shaped overinflated balloon. It was moving with the wind and I thought for sure, some kid's birthday balloon escaped. So I brought my wife out to look at it. We watched it for a minute - then she asked "Why is it slowing down?" It did and once again, shimmering and fuzzy edges. She went to get her phone, which was dead. It picked up speed again and was gone in a few seconds, but we both saw it and I don't think it was a balloon.

In November 2019 I went out into the yard for a smoke and looked up at the stars on a clear night - as I do multiple times every night. I noticed that the usual constellation pattern over my neighbor's house bugged me. I realized it was because there was a triangle of stars under the high cloud cover. At this point I know I'm just seeing a trick of the light - I tell myself - great - an Orion mother ship or a TR-3? Laugh out loud. The cloud passes underneath it and there's the middle light - this sick pinkish orange glow.

Suddenly I have fear - paralyzing fear. On two of the tips of the ship orange orbs shoot out and head out into the western sky at the same elevation and hover. I get the feeling they're looking at me and only me. If I don't go inside right now they'll get control of my mind. When I go back in the house I start asking myself, what did I do today to make me hallucinate that? I run over the inventory of stresses, foods, weather etc. It's like I can't say that I saw that ever. It took me an hour, but I finally told my wife - she was not happy to hear what I had to say. I did tell my co-worker the next day and it felt good to get it off my chest - but still to this day, I do mental acrobatics to find a rational explanation for that one.

The last experience I had was last summer at our trailer near Belmont, Manitoba. Our trailer lots are close to each other, but we have oaks and shrubs between us. Our neighbours are our best friends out there and we know when they leave on the weekends. It was a Sunday night and there was no one at their site. I woke up at about 3am for no reason and saw a dully luminescent pinky lozenge about five feet wide floating in the trees between their site and ours. As soon as I went to the window it silently faded out. I asked them the next weekend if they had people staying or a light like that - no.

At the fire fire the next night, I asked everyone there if they thought "rednecks" might be wandering around on a Sunday night with lights. Everyone laughed. "The rednecks have more money than all of us combined. what do you think they're looking for?" Our one neighbour who grew up in the area says - "Those lights show up all the time".

So that's my entire paranormal confession ;-) I feel like it's sort of noise as none of it can be substantiated, but maybe other members have similar experiences. The more I talk about it with people who I don't think would be receptive in the "normal" world - the more I find many people want to talk about that kind of thing.

I think bringing these experiences forward - paranormal or not - gets some weight off - for me anyway ;-)
 
I've only related these paranormal experiences to a few people over the years, but here goes...

by 1992 in my life, I had just graduated from University and all the "woo" was long gone. I had been a kid in the 70's into UFO's, Squatch etc. but little by little I had completely disregarded those mysteries for a more materialist view. Being in my early 20's I was ready to be a "serious" adult with an academic leaning mind and to navigate the world properly. I needed rational answers in a rational world.

The first event happened on Halloween 1992. I had my first "serious" girlfriend with me and we drove out to my parents house near Vermilion Bay, Ontario for the weekend. My parents had gone to bed and we wanted to watch an fitting Halloween movie around 11. We chose Amityville Horror. I had left the VHS rental in the car in the driveway and went out to get it.

My parents' garage lights lit up the driveway halfway up to the road, but the woods were dark the rest of the way up to the road which was about 50 yards. When I opened the car to get the VHS I looked into the yard about thirty feet away. I saw a group of what I thought were white rabbits. After a second I knew there aren't white rabbits in the northern woods of Ontario - they're brown or grey (Hares are white in winter - this was still fall and I know what a Hare looks like). And these weren't regular rabbits.

They were elongated like cats and had red eyes. They didn't hop like rabbits either. They'd jump and float in the air for a moment then land. They also made no sound whatsoever even though they were in thicker lawn and there was no wind - the woods were dead quiet. I stared at them for at least a minute. I had a lot of trouble wrapping my head around what I was seeing. I hadn't had any alcohol or drugs and had been on the highway at night for three hours - so I was very lucid and alert.

I suddenly got very scared and went back in when I couldn't get myself to believe they were rabbits - locking every door I could find. When I went back downstairs I half thought about telling my GF to come out yo see what I saw and then I thought twice - she'd think I was crazy, because I knew they'd be gone. As soon as I was at the TV with her she wanted to talk about serious "relationship" concerns. It was just a dazed conversations to me as all I could think about was the floating, long rabbits.

I never discussed it with anyone for many years, but regularly I'd try to find some info on mutated "jackalopes" to try and explain what I had saw. It always bugged me. There was no explanation until I came across the concept of "window faller". That was finally a plausible explanation.

Since then, there's been no weird animals or window fallers, but a handful of unusual airborne objects. The first return of the "weird" was in doing yard work in my backyard five years ago. I saw what looked like a large bunch of silver Mylar balloons moving fast from Southwest to Northeast. The problem was, we had an east wind that day. We have an old mushroom plant a mile east from us, so when we get a rare east wind, we notice the smell right away. This bunch of balloons was cruising fast against the wind and as I watched it, it looked to change shape. I thought of getting my wife or neighbour to take a look - but once again that feeling of "don't do it" came over me. Get a camera - "don't do it".

I mulled this over in my mind for a long time, but during that time became much more familiar with sightings and reactions etc. So when the next one came up the following summer I was more prepared. This one looked like a batman logo shaped overinflated balloon. It was moving with the wind and I thought for sure, some kid's birthday balloon escaped. So I brought my wife out to look at it. We watched it for a minute - then she asked "Why is it slowing down?" It did and once again, shimmering and fuzzy edges. She went to get her phone, which was dead. It picked up speed again and was gone in a few seconds, but we both saw it and I don't think it was a balloon.

In November 2019 I went out into the yard for a smoke and looked up at the stars on a clear night - as I do multiple times every night. I noticed that the usual constellation pattern over my neighbor's house bugged me. I realized it was because there was a triangle of stars under the high cloud cover. At this point I know I'm just seeing a trick of the light - I tell myself - great - an Orion mother ship or a TR-3? Laugh out loud. The cloud passes underneath it and there's the middle light - this sick pinkish orange glow.

Suddenly I have fear - paralyzing fear. On two of the tips of the ship orange orbs shoot out and head out into the western sky at the same elevation and hover. I get the feeling they're looking at me and only me. If I don't go inside right now they'll get control of my mind. When I go back in the house I start asking myself, what did I do today to make me hallucinate that? I run over the inventory of stresses, foods, weather etc. It's like I can't say that I saw that ever. It took me an hour, but I finally told my wife - she was not happy to hear what I had to say. I did tell my co-worker the next day and it felt good to get it off my chest - but still to this day, I do mental acrobatics to find a rational explanation for that one.

The last experience I had was last summer at our trailer near Belmont, Manitoba. Our trailer lots are close to each other, but we have oaks and shrubs between us. Our neighbours are our best friends out there and we know when they leave on the weekends. It was a Sunday night and there was no one at their site. I woke up at about 3am for no reason and saw a dully luminescent pinky lozenge about five feet wide floating in the trees between their site and ours. As soon as I went to the window it silently faded out. I asked them the next weekend if they had people staying or a light like that - no.

At the fire fire the next night, I asked everyone there if they thought "rednecks" might be wandering around on a Sunday night with lights. Everyone laughed. "The rednecks have more money than all of us combined. what do you think they're looking for?" Our one neighbour who grew up in the area says - "Those lights show up all the time".

So that's my entire paranormal confession ;-) I feel like it's sort of noise as none of it can be substantiated, but maybe other members have similar experiences. The more I talk about it with people who I don't think would be receptive in the "normal" world - the more I find many people want to talk about that kind of thing.

I think bringing these experiences forward - paranormal or not - gets some weight off - for me anyway ;-)
Thank for sharing your high strangeness encounter Jtucker, like you I had my share of them. For me it really started after encountering Laura is work, never paid much attention before to the unseen world. I wrote much post about them and like you I learned not to share them with everyone. Most suffer from cognitive dissonance and are just not able to look or even being made aware of those denizen of the hyper dimension, window faller or ufo. I will share with you and the forum one event that to this day I still can’t explain.

In 2011 I went fishing by myself in one of the many wild life reserve around my area. Usually, my daughter accompanied me; it was our summer activity par excellence for the past few years and many to come. We will go for 3 days fishing trip almost every 10 days if not every weeks that summer but this time she had a friend anniversary if I remember and said that she would like to pass this trip. So I went alone to our newly discovered lake for walleyes in a remote area of the reserve. One of it characteristic was that you needed a 4X4 to get there, the road was ruff and we loved it because we were always alone in the camping area by the lake during the week. That trip was as usual, I was alone and had the lake all for myself. On the second night, I woke up in the middle of it to empty my bladder. The night was splendid, a bright full moon and it refraction on the lake illuminated everything, no need of a flash light. As I went behind an ever green to do my business, I was contemplating that gorgeous full moon when suddenly something flew in front of it. It was moving slowly and I could easily discern it shape, it was just like you would see in a horror movie a Black Bat but it was huge. I was speechless following it with my eyes in this clear night sky, could well see the shape of it distinctive bat wings and was now absolutely awake and totally aware that this thing was not natural and may have panicked if not for a gentle voice in my head that told me, it is just a bat. So instead of fear and panic, I when back to the tent and went back to sleep till early morning and finished my fishing trip in late afternoon before driving back home.

What was it that I saw that night? Another one of our pass time to me and my daughter was to observe bird when in nature so we got our self a book with all the species in Quebec. I used to live on a farm and see bat all the time at night feeding around the spot light in the court yard. Never have I seen a bat bigger than a few centimeters in size and none exist in Quebec and probably Canada bigger than 10 cm. I saw fruit bat on a trip in Nepal in Katmandu probably the biggest in the world of the bat species but there are none here. To this day, I can’t explain this encounter, it was surreal. I read John Kell moth man prophecy and frankly to this day it seems to be the most logical or illogical, depending of your knowledge, explanation. What size was that bat I frankly can’t say as it was a clear cloudless night and distance was difficult to evaluate in those condition but, the slow moving of it wings was totally unnatural. If like me you have observed bat, you know that they flap their wings very rapidly and don’t glide like bird. That was what told me that it was huge and it was way above the tree line and let say that if it was flying at more than 200 feet above ground, it would have been taller than me and I’m 5’11’’.

That was the last time I went on a fishing trip alone lol, not that my daughter could have done anything off course, she was only 9 years old but still at the time, I did teach her how to drive the truck so as if anything happen to me, she could drive us out of the wood.

Here a picture of my daughter during the previous trip at the same spot that summer. The binocular always around her neck ready to observe birds.
 
Don't go blaming me if your dinner is spoilt. :scared: Seriously though that looks like a girl that will tackle any problem. She is beautiful and her eyes say she loves the outdoors.
Has she gutted a fish yet?.......Hope you enjoy your dinner!!!!!

No worry, the diner was a success, as for my daughter she is indeed an outdoors lover and will at every chance go camping with her boy friend. As for gutting her own fish, I have to admit that, no she did not. Our understanding was that she gets them and I gutted them and walleyes need some strength as you need to cut through the bone from head to tail fin, opening them up like a butterfly to extract the filet. As for the picture, I’m please that you like it because it as a special story behind it. It isn’t the biggest fish that we cut during our years of expedition but it’s the one that we will always remember and it as it own place in our family room (on photo of course). Once in a wild, my daughter will look at the picture and say, do you remember that day I catch that fish father. Do you remember how you called the shot that night? Our eyes will met at that moment both remembering the ‘’magic ``behind this story.

As this tread is about our paranormal experiences and my previous post is about one of my numerous encounter with it, story out of our conditioned boundaries need not to be always of a negative nature. The cosmos will always seek to balance the opposite in our dual universe and as such, we need to be open as well to accept sign of positive experiences. Unfortunately as we were so thoroughly condition to ignore and not see the unseen, we were as well conditioned to ignore our own capacity from within, our insight or intuition a part of our whole being and will in that occasion when it rise trough the barrier that we were teaches to build, be interpreted as chance and luck or other term, to delegitimize it. So let me share with you the story behind this picture of that one fish.

As you can see in the picture, it was late in the day. It was early July and after sunset so probably around 10 pm when I took it. Gabrielle was tired, we had been fishing since morning and she asked me if we could call it a day. We were right next to the camping ground which was the best spot at that time of the day. There was a narrow between the lake and the beginning of a river that started 400 meters away and it forced the fish to pass this shallow narrow to enter their feeding ground in this small bay before the river. I could see that she had reached her limit and was about to agree when from I don’t know where within me came those words and had to speak them out. I said, let do a last pass through the narrow, you will catch a fish, a big fish, it will be 4 pound in weight and it will be your biggest fish so far. My daughter eyes were as round as saucer as I finished saying this, I was as surprised as her but still asked her if she wanted to do a lass pass and she accepted. So we went out of the narrow and back again with our line down and on the return, she got a bite but it was heavier than previously. She thought that she cut a log as it wasn’t fighting (a characteristic of walleyes, they are not very combative we learned after many expedition) but as she brought the line in, a fish appeared at the end of it. I cut it in the net, unhooked it and weighted it on the scale. The fish was exactly four pound in weight and I said so aloud. Turning to look at Gabrielle, her eyes were still like saucer but this time her mouth was open as well, speechless for a moment before saying daddy you called the shot, exactly as you told me. I did call it didn’t I, as surprised as her. A moment later on the shore, I took that picture.

There was much reason to take my daughter in expedition in nature. At first it was just camping, just to show her nature is beauty and as well, time with her away from any distraction so I could have her full attention when sharing the knowledge that I was acquiring on the forum and my reading because as the C’s once said, the children must be told. I was hoping to plant the seed of knowledge before her going through the conditioning of our higher educational system. I knew that sooner or later, this conditioning, the social environment and other mechanism in place will offer plenty of distraction and necessities that will contradict what some may call another belief. I knew that my time was short and that eventually the social engineering program will demand that she conform, to be accepted, to the global way of seeing our reality. I can tell you that I was right on that one; I had but a few years, just until she was 16 and she moved away to the city for college and then I had to be a silent witness as our journey together was replaced by the world at large with it latest influence. I can still share with her today when we are alone or all together with my spouse but, she rarely come alone since she as a boy friend and she asked me not to discuss certain topic in front of him, which I accepted. Lately, as we all here are observing our reality as objectively as we can, we are seeing the moment approaching when, well, the shit may it the fan and more difficult time may be in front of us, I kept hope that she will remember our discussion on our journey together when she was younger and hopefully make the right choice base on knowledge that I shared with her.

Time will tell, she is now an adult and take her own decision and make her own choice. We, my wife and I, as accepted it and Gabrielle know well that our house is open to her and her partner, if she choose so, if thing change suddenly for the worse. When darker time come, my hope is that she will remember that there are still light in this world and within us and hopefully at that moment remember the ‘’magic`` that rise within us , that she remember the fish.
 
I'd like to join in sharing some of my weird experiences.

The first is the one I remember the least about, as I was fairly young. Neither I nor my mom can remember precisely when it happend, but I was less than 10 years old, maybe 7-8. One day I remember noticing a red mark on the side of my chest, extending on my back, like a very elongated handprint. My mom remembers seeing it too. According to her I lamented the fact that it kind of burned and "maybe" (she's not entirely sure somehow) told her about a nightmare I had about some kind of demon grabbing me. I honestly can't remember neither the nightmare nor the burning sensation, but I clearly remember the mark looked like a hand with abnormally long fingers.
In the same time period I also remember being really scared of a certain room of the apartment where we lived. Mind you, I attribute this to a simple infantile fear. My mom used that room as a sort of junk room, so it was always closed and dark and messy, but I remember "hallucinating" the handle slowly lowering and the door kind of opening and closing slightly on more than one occasion. The visual was kind of distorted too, but that may be attributed to me fixating my sight on the handle for an extended priod of time (you know how the visuals start distorting and you start seeing a sort of aura around things).
(addendum: now that I think about it, there is one presumably unrelated strange dream that I remember from those years, about my face coming off, almost like a thick mask, revealing the flesh and sinew underneath.. Wonder where that would come from, for a young kid)

Then I remember a couple of years later, in a new apartment, I often felt observed by something I couldn't see and sometimes even saw a dark shape moving from the corner of my eye. I remember at some point I even drew an eye surrounded by darkness or smoke or something like that, on a piece of paper. The building was new by the way, so definitely no ghosts of former tenants. Seems the feeling vanished at some point. There are still times when I feel observed or in the presence of something invisible, but nowadays it tends to happen only when some external influence, something I've read or watched, influences my train of thoughts, a rather common experience I'd wager.

A few years later still, there was an interesting episode. I was taking an afternoon nap and had a very peculiar dream. In the dream I was right there in my room, but standing still rather than lying on the bed, and the door was open instead of being closed. I felt an invisible presence entering the room through the open door. The presence didn't feel threatening at all, in fact it felt quite benevolent, like it wanted to embrace me, hug me, but I got scared and kind of "pushed back" mentally (I also used to have a lot of dreams where I could move things or even move myself with my mind, so it wasn't that strange of a feeling), and the dream ended. As I woke up, my mother knocked on the door and came in to tell me that my dad had just called her to announce that a relative had died. This relative (an older man) was also named Carlo, like me, but I had only seen him once or twice in my life. At the time I rationalized it thinking that I might have subconsciously heard my mother's side of the conversation and dreamed about it. Possible, but.. seems a bit unlikely in retrospect.

The next one is not exactly paranormal, but the timing and the situation are too absurd to consider this normal. It's also a bit.. Shameful. But hey, what can I say, I was a weird and edgy teen lost in his hormones and emotions:lol:
So, I had this terrible crush / unrequited love for a very close straight friend. This used to be a recurring theme in my life and a source of much heartache, a big weakness, so to speak.. But let's not get sidetracked.
I was very intrigued by the vedic texts at the time. I had also convinced myself that if I proved to be a strong and brave and reliable mate then this guy would somehow end up interested in me... Put the two things together and you'll find me praying to some unknow vedic deity of strength and war and whatnot for a chance to prove myself.. It's incredibly embarassing (and foolish) to remember :lol:
No more than a couple of days later we, along with 3 other friends, go out to drink something (one of us was 18). Out of nowhere we find ourselves in an parking lot surrounded by a small mob of young men (some armed with pipes) looking for.. trouble? I'm not entirely sure how the situation came to be, it was very much out of the blue. Also we lived in a fairly small and tranquil provincial city where such a thing was pretty much unheard of and it wasn't particularly late either. Thankfully most of us were able to keep calm and defuse the situation before it could degenerate. The synchroniciy seems kind of undeniable to me. And a good lesson to remember: careful what you wish for, because something out there might actually decide to listen.
(this would also be, give or take a couple of years, the period in which I had a truly dreadful dark man dream,, which I wrote about many years ago. The only one so intense that it left me terrified of opening my eyes after waking up, sensing some horrible, deadly presence close by)

A somewhat similar situation happened a few years later still. One day my mother opened up with me, telling me how she was feeling a bit depressed, useless, like she didn't have much of a purpose in life. We talked about it and I did my best to show her that she was loved and appreciated and far from useless or without purpose. But then, my own mental situation was already abysmal at the time so it wasn't easy for me to openly share my own feelings or effectively cheer up another, I think.
So, later that night, I earnestly prayed to the DMC (yes, the period of, shall we call it, "religious or spiritual promiscuity" had long since come to an end) to help my mother, if possible and appropriate, to find her purpose and meaning to life.
No more than a couple of days later my grandmother (my mother's mother), fell and broke her leg. And so my mom no longer had a chance to feel useless for a very long time, as she had to constantly care for her infirm mother (who had already fallen victim to a stroke and was growing increasingly "absent" and non self sufficient, unfortunately). After sharing this detail with her, my mother jokingly asked me to refrain from praying for her for a while.. :lol: There may be a lesson here as well: maybe do everything YOU can do before going around asking for direct help from the universe.

The next strange situation happened maybe 8-9 years ago. I was reading (or maybe just finished) Malachi Martin's Hostage to the Devil. I found myself imagining what it would be like to be in the shoes of an exorcist, specifically focusing on the "clashing of wills" described in the book. What it would feel like, clearly sensing one's own will clashing against that of a negative entity. As I kept focusing on that sensation, I remember starting to feel a certain reaction within, like a pressure (particularly in my forehead), a strange kind of inner strength and focus. That's when one of my cats (we had two at the time) came running from another room (this is a different apartment from the previous ones, and it's the one where I currently reside). She quickly jumped on the sofa next to me and I noticed she was trembling and staring fearfully in the direction of the hallway and the other rooms of the apartment (or possibly the apartment's door, they're all in the same direction) . Never seen her tremble before or since, except at the vet. Took a while to calm her down too. I went to check the other rooms but noticed nothing out of the ordinary. Our other cat was in the bathroom with my mother, neither of them seemed to notice anything strange either.
Ever since that moment I have deliberately stopped myself from entering that particular state of mind whenever I felt somewhat close to it, in fear of attracting "attention" to myself, and eventually "forgot" what exactly it felt like or how to "access" it. Lately I've been having doubts in this regard. If there is, in fact, some negative entity or energy somewhere around, one might as well bring it to the fore and deal with it, no?

The last experience is perhaps more spritual than paranormal, but.. Not entirely beyond the scope of this thread I think? I've been meaning to talk about it for a while and this seems like a good moment. It could be moved elsewhere if it is advisable.
As I was saying in a couple of other thread, I've been in a very dark place mentally for many years and in many different ways. At the end of June / beginning of July, after a particularly crushing month, and a couple of nights after meditating with a seed of "freedom" (specifically "freedom from the limitations of 3rd density physicality", if I must be precise) I had the weirdest experience to date.
I woke up in the middle of the night and, for lack of a better explanation, it felt as if I had "two minds" at the same time. I have no frame of reference to explain it fully, but it was like there were two different, opposites parts of me thinking at the same time. One was having very positive, loving thoughts, while the other was desperately trying to inject terrible darkness and negativity into them. Neither viewpoint was new to me, I have experienced both throughout my life, and in that moment I could clearly identfy with both of them at once, experiencing both fully. The really interesting part was how the "positive" side was staunchly resisting and rejecting these attempted changes, choosing to have a different experience, and how the "negative" side was genuinely scared. There was an awareness that, if it failed to take over, it would just cease to be. I'm sure I was awake, but the entire experience felt very strange, almost "dreamlike" in a sense. Eventually I fell asleep again.
And as I woke up I realized that I felt better than I had in a really long time.. What's even stranger is that I didn't fully "remember" this experience for a few days, I couldn't really focus on it.
Ever since that day everything about me seems to be changing at a fairly accelerated rate. Indeed it feels like a very unpleasant part of me ceased to be that night. It's not like I now think of myself as some kind of enlighened and pure angel or a paragon of positivity or a willful warrior, mind you, I'm still very far from any of that. But comparatively.. The negativity I experienced in my mind and heart is pretty much gone in certain respects and greatly diminished in others. Hypotheses abound about what might have happened, from "hyperkinetic sensate", to an eclipsing of realities, a spirit release or self exorcism of sorts, a partial soul smashing, divine intervention even, but.. I really don't know.

Man, life is weird:lol:
 

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