I'm really grateful for you kind words, everyone. Thank you.
I've visited the baby today as well. But... Things don't look good and I fear for the worst... I just hope I'm wrong.
Pete said:
My apologies zhenqing. Rereading my post I now realize that this was a discussion for a different topic. You only asked for my prayers and not my opinion. As I said it was just the first thing that popped into my mind when I read about her but I should've been more understanding to what your all going through now. It is a heartbreaking thing to experience and I do wish all of you the best whatever the outcome may be. As long as its okay with you I will still keep Marta in my prayers and again I'm sorry for upsetting you at a time like this.
No need to apologize, Pete. I wasn't upset. I understand what you were trying to say and why. To tell you the truth, you might even helped me a little, as I struggled with those thoughts, too.
The thing is, it's quite different to deal with the situation with clear head and away from the hospital, and totally different when I'm there with my friend and her family, seeing little Marta. Also, I'm not a mother myself, so I can't even begin to imagine how it must feel to see your own child in Intensive Care and knowing it may not be alive tomorrow... It's just... indescribable.
The worst part is, if my friend lose her baby, there will be nothing I can do to help her with her grief. Even now, I can't say a thing to her, because I know she doesn't wish to hear it. But I respect that, even if I'm sad inside. I just so hard to watch her. All of them.
At least, I'm grateful that I can talk about it here. There is no place like this Forum.