melatonin
Jedi Master
Thanks Polly for your kind words.Hi melatonin, and thank you for sharing. I'm sorry to hear of your situation. Your words resonated as 3D life can feel inescapable sometimes and the desire to do good in the world may seem elusive. I cruised a few church parking lots and just never made it out of my parked car. Had a similar issue as you mentioned, "...i want to live truthfully as possible and to not be insincere, and i could never fully believe a mainstream religion." Then I tried out an weekend walking group, a pottery class at a local museum, and volunteering at a municipal garden pruning rose bushes and weeding. I'm no extrovert, and sometimes I don't say much more than "good morning, nice to see you all" and "see you next time, glad to help". But I sincerely mean it, and did get to experience collective purpose and community. Try, explore - ROOTING FOR YOU![]()
I was wondering if my desire to be so authentic is a stumbling block in itself, especially when the only authentic thing (at this point for me) is "the work" and growing my self observation. I'm hoping this growing perspective might remove some road-blocks I have from socialising. I too am an introvert, or I think I am. I think the more I learn about myself, the more I'm finding it hard to define myself, which feels contradictory. Working with flowers and plants would be very theraputic if I could be around others in a safe environment.