knowledge_of_self
The Living Force
Galahad said:Bohort (Namaste) said:It is so true and i would even say that the word "sad" is not strong enough to describe our feeling when we realize that.
It is like that all our world was falling in small pieces and that after that we have to rebuild it piece by piece.
"Gutwrenching" is how I would put it.
And to look out at the world and see everyone going on with no idea of what is awaiting them. I have friends who are expecting a baby in December. It isn't easy at times to share their enthusiasm. Even if there are no comets, the planetary lockdown is coming at us faster and faster. What a world in which to have a child!
It is the exact same for me. I know a few people who are having a baby soon and when we talk they ask me when I will have a baby of my own and I say probably not in this life-time, and they get all upset. WHY? they ask- and I say because of personal views about our life on planet Earth. They kind of get quiet and change the subject which is understandable. I don't mean to put people on the spot, but I really don't think it's the best time to bring a child into this world. Especially if you're narcissistic, and you know it-- and you know that narcissism passes down from generation to generation, so really what is the point unless you are sure that at LEAST you have gotten rid of the narcissism within yourself.
I admit, my approach may not be fully externally considerate, especially when I see the faces of the expecting mothers. So I try really hard not to say anything, and pretend to be excited for them, but deep down inside, I'm thinking... "poor kid that will be brought up in a world such as this." And of course this thought is "gutwrenching" to say the least.
Also, I recall when I first came across the C's material. There were some points during my reading that I would cry for hours after having my illusions about religion/life after death etc.. shattered. As if all your life you have been fed lies and finally when you hear the truth, and the world of lies (the only world you have ever known) shatters all around you. You feel like you can't even breath-and at that point, truth doesn't seem like your best friend, but in the end it is the truth that will set you free-- that is why I chose that as the 'quote' below my avatar.