@Lamp of Orion ,
I suppose what you are saying
is kind of a "shock" in the paragraph above. Most of what you said before makes sense. Why do you feel you need to "reserve the right to act as I please" and "provide a shock"? And why do you consider yourself "a technician of Ecstasy"? Many of us have found value in Gurdjieff and Castaneda and even aspire to be "warriors of Light" or STO by learning our lessons.
How long have you been feeling this way?
I am running through all the possibilities as we speak. I have figured that I am best off working with no constriction, also known as fear. Fear gives way to ecstacy in 4D and unbreakable, balanced certainty in 6D.
A primordial or inchoate expression of this emerged when I said that "I reserve to act the way I please". I was as a newly-fledged 6D being then. The comprehension then is one and the same.
You are lacking in Being. In your obsessions with a certain facet of reality, you have lost your way, and I see that what you need are major shocks. The means suits the ends, so long as it is perfectly in concordance with Reality. So infinite ways of doing it. You have the correct emotional substrate and the comprehension, but you would kill yourselves were you faced with the shocks all at once. I would know, because I've been there too.
Do not fret, you will have your place on the other side. On the other side is a heterarchy, where all beings feed each other, exactly as needed. Your expertise will not go in vain.
The knowledge has been with you all along, you haven't learned to decode it yet.
The interplay of expansion and contraction goes like this. You move little tiny baby steps to Truth so long as you follow your heart. Each step, you can comprehend exponentially more of Reality without the 'filler' contraction. The contraction is there just to make the message palatable to you. Believe me, once you let go of contraction, you will be at awe with what you will start to see. I can see the Cassiopaeans have indeed provided this contractile 'filler' for your sake. But the time has come for you to get shocks. So get at it.
I am indeed a warrior of Light because I have forsaken Fear for the sake of my Heart and all other beings. I am indeed a technician of Ecstacy because I have also taken one other person with me. They see what I see, I see what they see, and we have fed each other perfectly. Indeed, the perfect coincidence. Or are there coincidences?
I have always had this knowledge planted in me, but I never allowed the true personality to descend, because true personality is extinguished with contractility. Indeed, contractility extinguishes everything, even itself. It's hunger is infinite. But as for your question, I have started the ascent in earnest 2 days ago. I engaged in battle and had an incorrect crystallization smashed as a result.
