Tobacco choices
dant said:
I wonder if it is cheaper to buy your own raw materials and either get a pipe or get
your own papers and roll your own (with your fingers. It's quite fun once you get the
hang of it and also it slows you down a little preventing you from finishing one drag
and whipping out another in succession aiding "in moderation"? :)
It's not so fun if u're a woman and have ur own long nails,
it becomes a technique of it's own then, but once u get it-
the products are yellow nails and finger's top, after a while...
And... all the time which one acquires to make it... as if a benefit to ur health,
I've passed that, after a while of experimenting, in an easy way of
making a complete pack at once, like a ritual, during morning coffee...
Well, the yellow nails is the same as from just smoking, I guess... only sort of contribute to it.
Altough, u have ur pride of being a „smooth roller“
From a smoker point of view: I have no idea at the time...
I know that tobacco, as in origin, has some possitive effects,
That's clear and easy for anyone, a bit curies, to find out, through history...
But what they are doing with the tobacco today, in order to „lighten it up“
and to make it „less harmless“... Heh!
I know it's no good!!! I have more than few informations from the people
involved in the very process itself, which they explained to me...
The tobacco is changed and in a bad manners...
At the same time, I am sitting in front of my PC, because of who I am at the moment,
for way too long.... Too long- in a way: I have an addiction,
for 10 or more years now, to light up a cigarette after cigarette
(no matter what I consciously and physically smoke)
and just can't get rid of it... I've tried, but it results in a way
of not being able to operate sufficiently as I'm used to...
And I have "way to much stress" going on "to even try to add a new level at it"- as: stop smoking.
I've tried for more than few times and no thank you but no please.
An addiction? For sure!!! And I hate it as such...
It shows my weak side, so obviously... I know my body don't need it...
It's me... Actually, someone said to me, 7 years ago, that... like...
When u have a habit like that, the one that's affecting u in some bad way;
it comes from some kind of a trauma source, and it's like a relief, for that particular trauma...
The way, a path, like a bridge which leads that trauma to some sort of discharge.
And if u wanna „set ourself free“ from a habit, an addiction of sort,
U have to deal with the very cause of it. With the basic trauma which caused it.
Or u simply get rid of that particular habit & end up with some other sort of relief
and another harmful habit, in order to get ease 4 the very same trauma.
And, while speaking of „trauma“, it doesn't have to be a dramatic thing,
It can be like... A boy has to serve his time in an army (here in Croatia U have to do so)...
And... leave his loving girlfriend behind... and, for example, that's the trauma...
and u deal with it in a way to start smoking... And years after that,
the basic shock stays and u have to clear that one out- in order to heal the complete thing.
So, this is what I've been told way back, interesting way for u to look at it...
U can take it for real or don't, I have actually no opinion on this theory as such,
as for the moment, I'm way to addictive to my pack of cigarettes right now, to deal with it...
Even if, after all these years, got some conclusion of what could may started it, at the first place...
And, I must admit, finding some things about smoking, here, on this source,
(although not completely defined) goes in a way, sometimes, like:
aliens don't like people who smoke and if: so much rush being produced about it
(within government/earth level)- it must be smfg deeper than just a simple „good concerens“...
etc...
It adds to my habit, in a way to finally get some relief,
from constant pressure of everyday's propaganda, about 'stop it!'...
And... I do agree... in a way... What do u mean,?!? Suddenly
u are concerned about smfg about lil people?!?
Common... Who are u kidding?
But, at the same time, I do find myself waking up with these sensations as:
thirsthy until I drink a lot of water, with a confusion within my head/body,
until I make a cup of coffee and light up a cigarette...
Like... that's the point when I can start to function.
(I'm NOT a morning person, among all, but still...
)
I've been lead through some Native American's teaching, and,
I do find some sort of the explanation for this kind of habit in it...
But... These days, it's been so interrupted, it's like...
Let's plant my own tobacco and then deal with my addiction and all the products!
I do believe this is the only reasonable thing I've came up with, so far, and,
sorry to acknowledge, I didn't realize, so far...
I even didn't try to find some simple farmer with tobacco field,
the one which, I'm positive, wouldn't mind to sell me some aside...
Maybe, some simple things in life we don't like to see as that.
We go and buy and find a perfect explanation why.