luke wilson said:
My reply to you was meant to reverse the impression I got from your reply, confusion.
Well, that was my first impression. Then I second-guessed myself and began to wonder.
luke wilson said:
But I came to understand you were describing the authoritarian follower.
Yep. That's how the post was intended to read. For you, it was offered in no uncertain terms as a potentially "feelable" or demonstrated answer to your question as a way of keeping a prior 'agreement' to either help or reveal my idiocy.
As an aside to that, this topic of the authoritarian/follower dynamic so goes to the core of human 'being' for so many people that it is probably also the single most important lesson for many of us to learn in order to get into some 'doing'.
luke wilson said:
I don't know if you know this, it's not like a criticism or anything like that, but you're very unique in the way you talk/write, everything comes down to either a computer/neurobiology reference for the most part.
A great deal of your mechanic's knowledge and awareness is invested in his understanding of how all the parts of your car work together. As a result, a lot of his metaphors in communication may be related to "a mechanic's understanding". It's not much different for me, I suppose. Having learned what I've learned, all I have to do is "intend meaning" and the linguistics automagically sort themselves into the needed structure. I keep forgetting that I need to re-translate for the benefit of our multi-cultural readership.
luke wilson said:
Definately something that pushes one to really use his mind to understand. How did you get this way bud?
I push myself to really use my mind to try and understand the stuff I feel is too important to leave to chance. I don't want to "believe", I want to know. And of course, I'm still learning.
luke wilson said:
I doubt you grew up communicating on such a highly refined intellectual level...
I grew up mostly upset that most people seemed not to know the real meanings of the words they used or to be interested in refining their consciousness UP the ladder of abstraction while still referring to something in the realm of reality. Idiotic "connotations" usually kept me off balance.
I still have dimwit moments though and I like to play (probably) too much. Just this evening at dinner, I was moved to go into "bobblehead" routine. Every time my wife was about to say something, I would start bobbing my head 'yes' at the very first word. The goal of this game is to keep a straight face until she "catches on". Tonight it took about 5 minutes and when it dawned on her, we both practically fell out of our chairs laughing at each other.
The point is...for me it's easier to learn as long as I don't take myself too seriously, though, for me, it doesn't always come across that way when limited to the written word.
luke wilson said:
but then I suppose you could have been a child genius..
No, just dissatisfied with what I was learning and dissatisfied with my inability to see the sense in things when I relied on others to explain.
luke wilson said:
Was it university or your job? Just asking.
Just me being a product of my life experiences and the will to live and learn, I reckon.
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luke wilson said:
My question to bud was a sincere one...
And I understood it that way.
luke wilson said:
I have no reason to have ulterior motives towards bud but I had the distinct impression that no matter how I reply, I would end up in trouble with the usual accusations.
I know that feeling. Oddly enough, my representation of you that is built on what I've read and understood of your posts, is of a kind of 'twinship', like a twin brother I suppose. I occasionally need to remind myself that I'm being read by many others and not just interacting with kinfolk. :)
:P
