How are you feeling?

[Cat_Sass]

Thank you, I will find these!

 

[Fluffy]

The last two days I feel like reality has changed, everything looks the same but it feels different, uneasy, foreign, and downright weird. It feels like a different reality.

Laying down to rest in the day is uncomfortable, I need to rest but the mindless rummaging the brain does before falling asleep is starting me back to wakefulness, not because of the thoughts but more like there’s as mismatch between them and reality… hard to explain, as if I don’t resonate with the thoughts or there’s some negativity or obscurity about them that my body finds disturbing, I get a feeling of panic and jolt out of what is usually a comfortable drifting space between awake and asleep.

It’s not happening at night, but by then I’m very tired and just fall asleep without the mind meanderings.

The daylight is strange too, I really don’t have words or concepts I can relate to what I’m trying to explain because I simply don’t have any understanding of it. I have experienced a shift or change something like this before, may be at around the same time last year, I could even say I felt the program change the C’s talked about.

This what I’m feeling doesn’t feel good, it’s dense and thick, icky, really throwing my energy off and making me feel cautious and unstable.


Anyone feeling anything similar?

 

[meadow_wind]

Nothing similar for me, but the past 2-3 months, I've been experiencing a lot of "blanks" or distraction, such as forgetting words, forgetting things (getting my wallet stolen because I left it in the grocery cart, for example), dyslexia when I type or write, etc.
I started taking Mind + (4 days up to now), and it seems to have helped.

In my neighborhood, I drive 5 min twice a day to bring my son to daycare. I don't know if it's the heat, but people seem like burnt heads: in 1 drive yesterday, there were 4 people doing stupid things on the road (it can be a driver, a biker, a pedestrian, or a mix and match).
Coming back from the pool, a young lady did not respect lane priority and almost drove into me. We both had to slam the brakes, and our cars ended at 5 cm from each other... She would have driven into my side of the car. I yelled all the Québec swear words that exist (our famous church words), so furious I was. I almost lost my car when I'm supposed to leave for a summer camp this Sunday. I'm still livid just thinking about it.

I'm at a point where I almost hate having to go out of the apartment.

 

[seve]

Anyone feeling anything similar?

I've been feeling the same way for the last ten days or so. There's a lot of bad energy in the air and my sensitivity to energy has become even more acute. So I'm on an energy rollercoaster. I have to re-center myself often, and above all I stay alert to any invasive energy.

 

[3DStudent]

The last two days I feel like reality has changed, everything looks the same but it feels different, uneasy, foreign, and downright weird.

Yes, me too. That first full week of July it seemed like I was just going through the motions of things. Sort of like an eerie new reality.

as if I don’t resonate with the thoughts or there’s some negativity or obscurity about them that my body finds disturbing, I get a feeling of panic and jolt out of what is usually a comfortable drifting space between awake and asleep.

Yeah, when I would sit down and close my eyes to rest, I would have lots of negative hypnagogic imagery and would jolt out of it as well. Seems to have gone away though now.

Nothing similar for me, but the past 2-3 months, I've been experiencing a lot of "blanks" or distraction, such as forgetting words, forgetting things (getting my wallet stolen because I left it in the grocery cart, for example), dyslexia when I type or write, etc.

Yes, lots of cognitive issues like forgetting things or stumbling over words. I've been taking plasmalogens for many months now and I'm not sure they really helped. But I wasn't taking them on an empty stomach, just along with the other morning supplements I take. My issues are mostly due to being stressed and overworked, so my mind has been dull.

I also noticed a few weeks ago I was having weird dreams where I would have superpowers like it was some 4D type stuff. There was one where I slightly woke up at night and in the dream I said "This is 4D." But I went back to sleep and had only remembered the few dreams just before waking, heh.

 

[loreta]

Everyone seems tired these days. I, too, felt very tired for a few weeks. So I took the horse in my hands and started drinking fermented milk that my Moroccan sells. And since then, my husband and I feel much, much better. The fatigue has almost disappeared! I read a lot because reading helps me concentrate. I also forget words, but maybe that's normal. I speak four languages (Spanish, French, English, and Catalan), so sometimes I get them mixed up. But when you read, everything calms down. I've cut down on the Internet and the news about the war. I continue to do yoga and I take walks with Arturo. It's the fatigue, mental and physical, that turns everything upside down. Find a way to make the fatigue disappear, and everything goes back to normal—that is, crazy, but it affects us less.

 

[Fluffy]

Yes, me too. That first full week of July it seemed like I was just going through the motions of things. Sort of like an eerie new reality.

Yeah, when I would sit down and close my eyes to rest, I would have lots of negative hypnagogic imagery and would jolt out of it as well. Seems to have gone away though now.

I also noticed a few weeks ago I was having weird dreams where I would have superpowers like it was some 4D type stuff. There was one where I slightly woke up at night and in the dream I said "This is 4D." But I went back to sleep and had only remembered the few dreams just before waking, heh.

I feel like mostly I’ve adjusted to whatever has changed, it’s still catching me off guard though at times and I think ‘where the hell am I’ and ‘who the hell am I’, I don’t know if it’s hyperkinetic debate though I feel my emotions are extreme and very shifty, can be happy and joyous feeling like the laughing Buddha, the next moment wanting to cry like I’m grieving the past, then really angry and feeling like I’m out of control and want to lash out.

Also needing to go to bed really early, dreaming so intensely I wake up unrested.

On top of normal life stress it’s adding another layer of stress and confusion.

Really feels like shifting (quick) sands of time and calling for me to stay hyper vigilant- more than usual.

 

[Breo]

It's the fatigue, mental and physical, that turns everything upside down. Find a way to make the fatigue disappear, and everything goes back to normal—that is, crazy, but it affects us less.

Thanks, for pointing that out. Fatigue really aggravates everything. I also noticed a heavier kind of tiredness and being unfocused in the last weeks. Whenever I did not act upon, all states got stronger. When I act upon, things start to flow again. Yesterday I helped a neighbor to clean weeds and bushes next to a little creek. It was different kinds of physical movements and work. I arrived with fatigue and when I left I was more energized than tired, in a happy and grounded way. I actually was startled about the quick shift. I am also cutting down screen time (except the forum :) Movement in Nature helps a lot.

 

[Mrs. Peel]

Yes, me too. That first full week of July it seemed like I was just going through the motions of things. Sort of like an eerie new reality.

The last two days I feel like reality has changed, everything looks the same but it feels different, uneasy, foreign, and downright weird. It feels like a different reality.

I swear there has been a timeline change, maybe a little over a week or so ago. Little things, something I had lost weeks ago suddenly turned up in plain sight. Something else that was gone showed up. Behaviors of people who were on an even keel have reverted, old pains that had disappeared suddenly came back for no reason. People who had really bad health issues last time I were heard about them, are now doing well, and vice versa. Someone remarked about a clocked that hadn't worked in years, suddenly started ticking again. Other things I can't think of now, but it seems like there is a different vibe out there.

 

[Fluffy]

I feel like mostly I’ve adjusted to whatever has changed, it’s still catching me off guard though at times and I think ‘where the hell am I’ and ‘who the hell am I’, I don’t know if it’s hyperkinetic debate though I feel my emotions are extreme and very shifty, can be happy and joyous feeling like the laughing Buddha, the next moment wanting to cry like I’m grieving the past, then really angry and feeling like I’m out of control and want to lash out.

Also needing to go to bed really early, dreaming so intensely I wake up unrested.

On top of normal life stress it’s adding another layer of stress and confusion.

Really feels like shifting (quick) sands of time and calling for me to stay hyper vigilant- more than usual.

Hyperkinetic sensate… someone needs to proof read their messages better!

While we are on the topic, I’ve noticed in other people that we are all getting challenged with behaviours and unresolved issues that are from the past, I would even go as far to say it’s like a past life review happening in realtime. Whatever these energies are they’re encouraging, or it feels like a kind of forcing, us to resolve and make peace with what old dramas are stored in our energy fields, may be to accomodate a new reality? It really feels like we are in the moments before dawn, that quiet chaos of everything stirring just before it wakes up.

 

[Vajra91]

I haven't noticed anything particularly noteworthy in the world and people right around me, but I swear ever since the beginning of July there has been an unbelievable positive shift in me. Which actually followed a month of *extreme* negativity in June. Now as time goes I feel more and more like a new person, like I'm finally, actually getting closer to what I should be / want to be.

It feels like I've been stuck into a dark, torturous abyss for a lifetime and now I'm finally out. My mind and heart have never been so clear and stable, or my will so strong. I find myself able to keep my emotions in check, to observe myself more objectively, catch myself quickly when I slip up and my former behaviour tries to creep back in. I don't think I was ever really able to do that before. The many, diverse and dreadful shadows that tormented my mind (and I mentally indulged, unable to purge them) for so long are just.. Gone. Expunged just like that. That doesn't feel normal, decades old mental habits are not supposed to vanish overnight, but they did. And when the negative thoughts try to come back, as they sometimes do, they feel like mere echoes of what they used to be. And I can just.. Decide that I don't want to align myself with any of that. I've never felt so clearly my ability to choose. It's like I went through a mental/emotional/spiritual healing crisis (or desperate assault?) in June and was finally cleansed of this old, overpowering "infestation" in July. I'm infinitely grateful, but I don't really know how to explain this.

While we are on the topic, I’ve noticed in other people that we are all getting challenged with behaviours and unresolved issues that are from the past, I would even go as far to say it’s like a past life review happening in realtime. Whatever these energies are they’re encouraging, or it feels like a kind of forcing, us to resolve and make peace with what old dramas are stored in our energy fields, may be to accomodate a new reality? It really feels like we are in the moments before dawn, that quiet chaos of everything stirring just before it wakes up.

Yes! A few times recently I half-jokingly wondered if I had unknowingly died and moved to 5th density for a "review", that's how weird this all feels. Like a deep cleansing for me, for lack of a better term.
Grateful, but.. Y'know.. *A little* confused?

 

[SlipNet]

I had a funny experience a few days ago which I'll relate. I've been an insomniac for years, but I'm really struggling to sleep these last few weeks, and it takes me 1-2 hours in bed before I finally drift off to the land of nod. Anyway, I've also noticed that I feel poorly when I awaken too. I'm managing about 6-7 hours most nights. But one morning last week I felt really dreadful upon waking, so I curled up to rest a while longer rather than get up and face the day. As I lay back, eyes closed, I heard a female sounding voice clear as a bell in my mind, saying, "don't worry, it's not long now...".

I've heard this voice before during psychotic episodes, and it's always a voice that soothes me rather than antagonises. It's just got me wondering what was actually meant in the messaging? Not long for me? Or not long before the earth changes ramp up? I've made my peace with death, I'm ready to face 5d whenever the time comes. I kinda think that the message was personal rather than universal, so I'm ready to face the prospect of leaving this pathologically ravaged 3d STS realm now. I don't want to just yet, but I can't help but suspect that the message was preparing me for what's to come, whatever that may be.

It's been interesting to read the recent posts from folks on this thread. A general air of weariness seems to be the overriding theme. We all have our breaking points, and perhaps "checking out" of this grim world isn't so bad a thing? I've lived a colourful life, but the 50 years seem to have flashed by. It remains to be seen what the future has in store for us as both individuals and as a collective. But those quiet moments when I just listen, rather than opine or vent, seem to carry more weight within me these days. I'm tired, tired of the wars, the bullshit, the lies, the constant arguing with dickheads on X. All the sound and fury of this world has finally worn me down.

Take care guys and gals, and be good to yourselves as well as your nearest and dearest. These are the times that would try the patience of a saint. Personally speaking, Truly, I've grown tired of this world, and sometimes I wonder what's the bloody point of all this suffering? All I know is that, after some drug-fuelled years when I was pretty selfish, nowadays I care more about how I treat those close to me. I used to be very hot headed and had a short temper, but that seems to be receding too. Not wanting to sound melodramatic, but yes, it does feel like things are changing now. But what will those changes bring us? That remains the question...

 

[loreta]

I had a funny experience a few days ago which I'll relate. I've been an insomniac for years, but I'm really struggling to sleep these last few weeks, and it takes me 1-2 hours in bed before I finally drift off to the land of nod. Anyway, I've also noticed that I feel poorly when I awaken too. I'm managing about 6-7 hours most nights. But one morning last week I felt really dreadful upon waking, so I curled up to rest a while longer rather than get up and face the day. As I lay back, eyes closed, I heard a female sounding voice clear as a bell in my mind, saying, "don't worry, it's not long now...".

I've heard this voice before during psychotic episodes, and it's always a voice that soothes me rather than antagonises. It's just got me wondering what was actually meant in the messaging? Not long for me? Or not long before the earth changes ramp up? I've made my peace with death, I'm ready to face 5d whenever the time comes. I kinda think that the message was personal rather than universal, so I'm ready to face the prospect of leaving this pathologically ravaged 3d STS realm now. I don't want to just yet, but I can't help but suspect that the message was preparing me for what's to come, whatever that may be.

It's been interesting to read the recent posts from folks on this thread. A general air of weariness seems to be the overriding theme. We all have our breaking points, and perhaps "checking out" of this grim world isn't so bad a thing? I've lived a colourful life, but the 50 years seem to have flashed by. It remains to be seen what the future has in store for us as both individuals and as a collective. But those quiet moments when I just listen, rather than opine or vent, seem to carry more weight within me these days. I'm tired, tired of the wars, the bullshit, the lies, the constant arguing with dickheads on X. All the sound and fury of this world has finally worn me down.

Take care guys and gals, and be good to yourselves as well as your nearest and dearest. These are the times that would try the patience of a saint. Personally speaking, Truly, I've grown tired of this world, and sometimes I wonder what's the bloody point of all this suffering? All I know is that, after some drug-fuelled years when I was pretty selfish, nowadays I care more about how I treat those close to me. I used to be very hot headed and had a short temper, but that seems to be receding too. Not wanting to sound melodramatic, but yes, it does feel like things are changing now. But what will those changes bring us? That remains the question...

It's true Slipnet, we often wonder what all this leads to, and it's not pretty and we have to make a slight effort not to be obsessed by all this madness and pain that humanity is experiencing. But we have chosen to be here, at this moment and as you say, we are sometimes just that, patience and patience of a saint. Lately, I've been doing a meditation that helps me focus on Love. I look at my mother's gaze when she looked at me when I was a newborn, and that gaze, from my mother, is all love, just that, a great love for this child who had just been born. I focus on that gaze and then peace settles within me. I do this vision to push away the chaos, the chaos outside that wants to drag away our strength and our kindness. And it works. And it feels good. And when I pray for my friends, I ask for help from my grandmother, who lived through war, poverty, and chaos too. May her strength be with me.

I've often said it: I live on an island where people are kind, I always feel safe, I'm not afraid to talk to people, because kindness is always present despite the difficulties and chaos. Perhaps my inner guide led me here to make it easier to get through all this.

 

[Fluffy]

Through all of this, the nightmarish reality, the burden of time, pain, the sense we are living in hell, the fear that it will go on and on til we’re bled dry, the terror for our children and loved ones and what they might go through, the gut wrenching misery of the collective suffering, the unbelievable ways people keep themselves asleep, knowing we are cattle feeding an insatiable desire for control and domination… I still feel like there’s a silver lining, it’s all worth something, not for nothing, all of it counts and each one of us is here for a reason. No amount of brutality and evil is gonna take that away from me.

 

[Seato]

Across most of June I felt myself getting very angry or triggered by traces of evil. Every time I seemed to recognise some level of 4D STS role in a situation across the world I would fill with righteous anger at what was being done. A particular example being watching over some of the UFO media and the content of the ‘Cosmosis [Formerly The UFO Rabbit Hole]’ channel and every time a new encounter was brought up I felt a surge of anger, even with most of the accounts being fairly tame when it comes to hyperdimensional shenanigans.

In contrast I felt far happier in the last week of June and first week of July, and I ended up humming a lot of music that seemed to come into my mind. This also corelated very closely with doing the past life meditation by Laura. Since which my dreams have increased in intensity, included repeating themes and I have begun to return greater focus into my health and wellbeing.
In fact just days after the meditation I seemed to encounter a sudden dramatic improvement in my communication and social anxiety issues that I have been facing since early childhood.
I personally suspect this development is strongly connected to the past life meditation. During the section on asking for forgiveness I had the sense that I had caused harm with my words in that lifetime. I did not think much of it at the time but a couple of days later I found myself able to share and express my thoughts in a way I had been unable to before where I felt I was constantly repressing everything.

Though I had been making incremental progress since becoming acutely aware of some of my personal issues in more recent years the improvement seems like a quantum leap relative to the state I was in before. I would also attribute my recent increase in activity on the forum to this, as before I would regularly observe the discussions but would only rarely find the courage to share my thoughts. I still have a long way to go but the experience thus far has been life changing in my opinion. Things definitely seem to be moving unnaturally fast.