How are you feeling?

[jess]

I would like to share a thought or experience, parts of things that happened to me although I honestly don't know how to put them together.
Lately I have not been able to have stability due to certain family situations, although at the same time they have made me reflect on the very fine line that delimits the mental dimension, the physical, the internal forces or spirit and the evil (STS).
Several months ago I had in mind the firm intention to return to meditate at a certain time, I thought about it, I scheduled it in my day and I told my husband that day that I wanted to meditate, and that same day in the afternoon before meditation my 2 year old daughter fell out of her little car toy and cut her chin open, it was a small but deep tear that required emergency medical care. Naturally I attended to my daughter and we immediately went to the emergency room, for a moment I thought I will not be able to meditate and an intrusive thought came to me saying “stay away”, it confused me for a moment and made me feel a little scared, but then it made me feel very very angry, how those nasty evil forces attack, i.e. this specific thing happened to me.
Lately I've been able to get back online, I've discovered something that worked for me, I have thought that if these evil forces (STS) have the ability to hack minds and using physical situations to attack, it has made me think that maybe they can access some open area of thought, but what if you do something to put your private thoughts or soul thoughts not so accessible, kind of like putting them not on an open frequency so that they can't access your thoughts so easily.
What I did was:
-I think: I want to mediate, I want to write and then maybe not say it, maybe not schedule it, maybe not think about it again, but on the other hand, be fully aware that you want it and you are going to do it. Something like confusing the enemy, working in the mental space.
It's just a thought, a personal discovery that worked for me, to make things work for me, in my personal daily life.
Of course I keep praying, trying to maintain my physical and mental health and help my family around me as much as possible.
Personally and physically I feel that I have been in a roller coaster of situations that seem like attacks on the physical and psychological integrity of my family, could be just life lessons, temporary experiences, karma, etc., and between that time, which has been almost 2 years since this began in a more intense way, there have been discoveries of light in the soul or feelings of love at certain times. It has not been easy.

 

[gottathink]

Personally and physically I feel that I have been in a roller coaster of situations that seem like attacks on the physical and psychological integrity of my family, could be just life lessons, temporary experiences, karma, etc., and between that time, which has been almost 2 years since this began in a more intense way, there have been discoveries of light in the soul or feelings of love at certain times. It has not been easy.

Yes me too, I like your idea about psychic strategic enclosure. In hindsight I have been doing something similar. I also don’t take risks that have big consequences when I’m out riding my mountain bike or running etc. Things I maybe used to challenge myself to do I chose not to. I also take safe routes driving etc, don’t go out when the weather is really bad etc. l employ lots of risk management on a day to day basis. I feel like so much random stuff can happen these days. I pray and call on the images from our meditations to protect myself, my pets and family etc.

 

[Aliana]

What I did was:
-I think: I want to mediate, I want to write and then maybe not say it, maybe not schedule it, maybe not think about it again, but on the other hand, be fully aware that you want it and you are going to do it. Something like confusing the enemy, working in the mental space.
It's just a thought, a personal discovery that worked for me, to make things work for me, in my personal daily life.
Of course I keep praying, trying to maintain my physical and mental health and help my family around me as much as possible.
Personally and physically I feel that I have been in a roller coaster of situations that seem like attacks on the physical and psychological integrity of my family, could be just life lessons, temporary experiences, karma, etc., and between that time, which has been almost 2 years since this began in a more intense way, there have been discoveries of light in the soul or feelings of love at certain times. It has not been easy.

I really like that idea - confuse 'the enemy' and maintain strategic enclosure. I have also noticed that if i make some statement or decision that i want to do something, but don't do it right away - it gives time for one of those 'I's to begin a resistance strategy, and I assume the 4D brats are always lurking and ready for mischief, so perhaps spontaneity is a better strategy!

Have been battling a bit of depression lately, and generally try to keep myself occupied with useful pursuits so as not to fall into the abyss. I also listened to a recent clip posted to the Cass site on YT, where Laura describes her meditation procedure to Jay and Hunter. This is the one where she visualizes a happy conclusion to some need or problem while on the treadmill. I started doing that as well - and basically anytime I find myself ruminating on some concern - either for myself or a family member, I switch to seeing us all happy and congratulating each other on happy news! So - at the very least it's a form of mental blocking - and perhaps good news will arrive, but mostly I am just trying to stay balanced, and in non-anticipation mode!

Yes me too, I like your idea about psychic strategic enclosure. In hindsight I have been doing something similar. I also don’t take risks that have big consequences when I’m out riding my mountain bike or running etc. Things I maybe used to challenge myself to do I chose not to. I also take safe routes driving etc, don’t go out when the weather is really bad etc. l employ lots of risk management on a day to day basis. I feel like so much random stuff can happen these days. I pray and call on the images from our meditations to protect myself, my pets and family etc.

I too have been extra cautious lately - have been keeping up with predictions thread and watching a bit of Joni Patry on YT - she's been a bit hysterical lately, but it's not difficult to understand her reasons. So while I take her with a grain of salt, I HAVE been paying attention, and I think the times merit caution!!

 

[Breo]

I really like that idea - confuse 'the enemy' and maintain strategic enclosure. I have also noticed that if i make some statement or decision that i want to do something, but don't do it right away - it gives time for one of those 'I's to begin a resistance strategy, and I assume the 4D brats are always lurking and ready for mischief, so perhaps spontaneity is a better strategy!

Yes, me too, I experimented with this too. One way for me is shifting patterns. I think these critters have a very good sense, where intrusion is possible. When I sense there is an influence around, that tries to pull into a certain direction, I become neutral.

Another thing I noticed is, that when I focus my awareness on becoming "hole", concentrating, feeling and physically experiencing it its, like a split that closes. Maybe its also illusion dissolving. The effect seems to being less reachable for attack.

Also the last months have been a steep and often very challenging training ground to keep on track - no matter what. And me too, I became very cautious about interactions, places, taking risks. And within all this, happiness is growing too :)

 

[Breo]

Another thing I noticed is, that when I focus my awareness on becoming "hole", concentrating, feeling and physically experiencing it its, like a split that closes. Maybe its also illusion dissolving. The effect seems to being less reachable for attack.

Sorry, I misspelled. It´s "becoming whole" (not hole).

 

[Pat]

I have experienced the concept of having an idea and being derailed by sts influences. Yesterday I had an attack of such by family member out of nowhere. I felt the intentional feeling of sts with wanting to take my mind away from my resolutions (new studies started 2 days ago). I understand that I left the door opened for such attack by consuming Netflix like never before!
I see the process, I expect it and it happens.
The idea of psychic strategy enclosure is not new to me although I never saw it for what it was, but it worked. The shift of the mind is hard at moment although I counterbalanced the Netflix binging time with meditation, I find this particular time very exhausting to achieve something. Detachment works but every time something comes up asking for my emotions to jolt.
Taxing time ahead.

 

[Lucelle]

Everyone seems tired these days. I, too, felt very tired for a few weeks. So I took the horse in my hands and started drinking fermented milk that my Moroccan sells. And since then, my husband and I feel much, much better. The fatigue has almost disappeared! I read a lot because reading helps me concentrate. I also forget words, but maybe that's normal. I speak four languages (Spanish, French, English, and Catalan), so sometimes I get them mixed up. But when you read, everything calms down. I've cut down on the Internet and the news about the war. I continue to do yoga and I take walks with Arturo. It's the fatigue, mental and physical, that turns everything upside down. Find a way to make the fatigue disappear, and everything goes back to normal—that is, crazy, but it affects us less.

I was just talking about this with my friend last week. It seems that many people are tired and so much has been happening this month. It's heartbreaking to visit friends who have lost their loved ones, and every week, I hear news that someone is in the hospital. I also noticed that at work, most of my workmates are reactive. And three storms just passed the country.

I just spend most of my time with family, reading books and catching up with the threads here in the forum, and intentionally spending time with "positive" people and have adequate rest to keep me sane. I hope things will calm down a bit.

 

[FM258]

I just want to vent how hungry I am right now...lol. I can smell people cooking BBQ miles away...every restaurant and fast food place, im day dreaming about making food and enjoying every bite...going on day 2 I know this is the worst time, so will pass. I never seem to remember how bad it gets day and 2, sorry for rant.

 

[Fluffy]

I just want to vent how hungry I am right now...lol. I can smell people cooking BBQ miles away...every restaurant and fast food place, im day dreaming about making food and enjoying every bite...going on day 2 I know this is the worst time, so will pass. I never seem to remember how bad it gets day and 2, sorry for rant.

Fasting sucks! Good on you for surviving the aromas.

If you want to watch something that will help you not want to eat then here is one of my favourite fasting tools when I want to eat things. This guy is disgusting.

 

[FM258]

Fasting sucks! Good on you for surviving the aromas.

If you want to watch something that will help you not want to eat then here is one of my favourite fasting tools when I want to eat things. This guy is disgusting.

OMG I watched it all! How the hell can he do that?? And no cheeseburgers? Just junk food...dayum

BTW today is much better...that starving feeling passed...

 

[Seato]

I ended up spending more time than usual with someone I find to be good at triggering me yesterday. I’ve been trying to practice my mental blocking recently as I feel its one of my weaker areas. In yesterday’s encounters I seemed particularly alert to my own thoughts. I managed to observe them from an outside perspective and in a far more analytical way than I normally accomplish.
It was funny in a way to observe, as these thoughts drifted by all minor aggravations with questionable legitimacy and seeing this it was easier to let them go or reject them. I did then get the sense the stray thoughts were getting more agitated as if they were searching for any leverage something to hook onto. Given this I suspected something might happen to escalate things further.

In spite of success earlier in the day in later hours eventually the other individual did something with helpful intent on their part that pressured me to do something I felt conflicted about. The actual issue wasn’t particularly important but the energy that had been hounding me all day seemed to pour in though this point of contention and turn into a negative thought loop, that I struggled to push away for the rest of the day.
I felt rather drained and down. This morning, I tried to revaluate things and contain the thoughts. Since on reflection it seemed that following through on the persons suggestion might prove helpful and my indecision seemed to just be further building up energy for a thought loop I went ahead and resolved the matter with the basic idea that if all these negative thoughts were against me doing it, I should probably do the opposite. Anyway, I resolved the matter early today before it could fester any longer and things have been much calmer as I was then able to let the negative thoughts drift away without anything to grip onto.

Yesterday was perhaps the most I have managed to focus on thought observation and control, so I suppose it’s not a coincidence that the negative pressure increased in response.