How are you feeling?

[jess]

I would like to share a thought or experience, parts of things that happened to me although I honestly don't know how to put them together.
Lately I have not been able to have stability due to certain family situations, although at the same time they have made me reflect on the very fine line that delimits the mental dimension, the physical, the internal forces or spirit and the evil (STS).
Several months ago I had in mind the firm intention to return to meditate at a certain time, I thought about it, I scheduled it in my day and I told my husband that day that I wanted to meditate, and that same day in the afternoon before meditation my 2 year old daughter fell out of her little car toy and cut her chin open, it was a small but deep tear that required emergency medical care. Naturally I attended to my daughter and we immediately went to the emergency room, for a moment I thought I will not be able to meditate and an intrusive thought came to me saying “stay away”, it confused me for a moment and made me feel a little scared, but then it made me feel very very angry, how those nasty evil forces attack, i.e. this specific thing happened to me.
Lately I've been able to get back online, I've discovered something that worked for me, I have thought that if these evil forces (STS) have the ability to hack minds and using physical situations to attack, it has made me think that maybe they can access some open area of thought, but what if you do something to put your private thoughts or soul thoughts not so accessible, kind of like putting them not on an open frequency so that they can't access your thoughts so easily.
What I did was:
-I think: I want to mediate, I want to write and then maybe not say it, maybe not schedule it, maybe not think about it again, but on the other hand, be fully aware that you want it and you are going to do it. Something like confusing the enemy, working in the mental space.
It's just a thought, a personal discovery that worked for me, to make things work for me, in my personal daily life.
Of course I keep praying, trying to maintain my physical and mental health and help my family around me as much as possible.
Personally and physically I feel that I have been in a roller coaster of situations that seem like attacks on the physical and psychological integrity of my family, could be just life lessons, temporary experiences, karma, etc., and between that time, which has been almost 2 years since this began in a more intense way, there have been discoveries of light in the soul or feelings of love at certain times. It has not been easy.

 

[gottathink]

Personally and physically I feel that I have been in a roller coaster of situations that seem like attacks on the physical and psychological integrity of my family, could be just life lessons, temporary experiences, karma, etc., and between that time, which has been almost 2 years since this began in a more intense way, there have been discoveries of light in the soul or feelings of love at certain times. It has not been easy.

Yes me too, I like your idea about psychic strategic enclosure. In hindsight I have been doing something similar. I also don’t take risks that have big consequences when I’m out riding my mountain bike or running etc. Things I maybe used to challenge myself to do I chose not to. I also take safe routes driving etc, don’t go out when the weather is really bad etc. l employ lots of risk management on a day to day basis. I feel like so much random stuff can happen these days. I pray and call on the images from our meditations to protect myself, my pets and family etc.

 

[Aliana]

What I did was:
-I think: I want to mediate, I want to write and then maybe not say it, maybe not schedule it, maybe not think about it again, but on the other hand, be fully aware that you want it and you are going to do it. Something like confusing the enemy, working in the mental space.
It's just a thought, a personal discovery that worked for me, to make things work for me, in my personal daily life.
Of course I keep praying, trying to maintain my physical and mental health and help my family around me as much as possible.
Personally and physically I feel that I have been in a roller coaster of situations that seem like attacks on the physical and psychological integrity of my family, could be just life lessons, temporary experiences, karma, etc., and between that time, which has been almost 2 years since this began in a more intense way, there have been discoveries of light in the soul or feelings of love at certain times. It has not been easy.

I really like that idea - confuse 'the enemy' and maintain strategic enclosure. I have also noticed that if i make some statement or decision that i want to do something, but don't do it right away - it gives time for one of those 'I's to begin a resistance strategy, and I assume the 4D brats are always lurking and ready for mischief, so perhaps spontaneity is a better strategy!

Have been battling a bit of depression lately, and generally try to keep myself occupied with useful pursuits so as not to fall into the abyss. I also listened to a recent clip posted to the Cass site on YT, where Laura describes her meditation procedure to Jay and Hunter. This is the one where she visualizes a happy conclusion to some need or problem while on the treadmill. I started doing that as well - and basically anytime I find myself ruminating on some concern - either for myself or a family member, I switch to seeing us all happy and congratulating each other on happy news! So - at the very least it's a form of mental blocking - and perhaps good news will arrive, but mostly I am just trying to stay balanced, and in non-anticipation mode!

Yes me too, I like your idea about psychic strategic enclosure. In hindsight I have been doing something similar. I also don’t take risks that have big consequences when I’m out riding my mountain bike or running etc. Things I maybe used to challenge myself to do I chose not to. I also take safe routes driving etc, don’t go out when the weather is really bad etc. l employ lots of risk management on a day to day basis. I feel like so much random stuff can happen these days. I pray and call on the images from our meditations to protect myself, my pets and family etc.

I too have been extra cautious lately - have been keeping up with predictions thread and watching a bit of Joni Patry on YT - she's been a bit hysterical lately, but it's not difficult to understand her reasons. So while I take her with a grain of salt, I HAVE been paying attention, and I think the times merit caution!!

 

[Breo]

I really like that idea - confuse 'the enemy' and maintain strategic enclosure. I have also noticed that if i make some statement or decision that i want to do something, but don't do it right away - it gives time for one of those 'I's to begin a resistance strategy, and I assume the 4D brats are always lurking and ready for mischief, so perhaps spontaneity is a better strategy!

Yes, me too, I experimented with this too. One way for me is shifting patterns. I think these critters have a very good sense, where intrusion is possible. When I sense there is an influence around, that tries to pull into a certain direction, I become neutral.

Another thing I noticed is, that when I focus my awareness on becoming "hole", concentrating, feeling and physically experiencing it its, like a split that closes. Maybe its also illusion dissolving. The effect seems to being less reachable for attack.

Also the last months have been a steep and often very challenging training ground to keep on track - no matter what. And me too, I became very cautious about interactions, places, taking risks. And within all this, happiness is growing too :)

 

[Breo]

Another thing I noticed is, that when I focus my awareness on becoming "hole", concentrating, feeling and physically experiencing it its, like a split that closes. Maybe its also illusion dissolving. The effect seems to being less reachable for attack.

Sorry, I misspelled. It´s "becoming whole" (not hole).

 

[Pat]

I have experienced the concept of having an idea and being derailed by sts influences. Yesterday I had an attack of such by family member out of nowhere. I felt the intentional feeling of sts with wanting to take my mind away from my resolutions (new studies started 2 days ago). I understand that I left the door opened for such attack by consuming Netflix like never before!
I see the process, I expect it and it happens.
The idea of psychic strategy enclosure is not new to me although I never saw it for what it was, but it worked. The shift of the mind is hard at moment although I counterbalanced the Netflix binging time with meditation, I find this particular time very exhausting to achieve something. Detachment works but every time something comes up asking for my emotions to jolt.
Taxing time ahead.

 

[Lucelle]

Everyone seems tired these days. I, too, felt very tired for a few weeks. So I took the horse in my hands and started drinking fermented milk that my Moroccan sells. And since then, my husband and I feel much, much better. The fatigue has almost disappeared! I read a lot because reading helps me concentrate. I also forget words, but maybe that's normal. I speak four languages (Spanish, French, English, and Catalan), so sometimes I get them mixed up. But when you read, everything calms down. I've cut down on the Internet and the news about the war. I continue to do yoga and I take walks with Arturo. It's the fatigue, mental and physical, that turns everything upside down. Find a way to make the fatigue disappear, and everything goes back to normal—that is, crazy, but it affects us less.

I was just talking about this with my friend last week. It seems that many people are tired and so much has been happening this month. It's heartbreaking to visit friends who have lost their loved ones, and every week, I hear news that someone is in the hospital. I also noticed that at work, most of my workmates are reactive. And three storms just passed the country.

I just spend most of my time with family, reading books and catching up with the threads here in the forum, and intentionally spending time with "positive" people and have adequate rest to keep me sane. I hope things will calm down a bit.

 

[FM258]

I just want to vent how hungry I am right now...lol. I can smell people cooking BBQ miles away...every restaurant and fast food place, im day dreaming about making food and enjoying every bite...going on day 2 I know this is the worst time, so will pass. I never seem to remember how bad it gets day and 2, sorry for rant.

 

[Fluffy]

I just want to vent how hungry I am right now...lol. I can smell people cooking BBQ miles away...every restaurant and fast food place, im day dreaming about making food and enjoying every bite...going on day 2 I know this is the worst time, so will pass. I never seem to remember how bad it gets day and 2, sorry for rant.

Fasting sucks! Good on you for surviving the aromas.

If you want to watch something that will help you not want to eat then here is one of my favourite fasting tools when I want to eat things. This guy is disgusting.

 

[FM258]

Fasting sucks! Good on you for surviving the aromas.

If you want to watch something that will help you not want to eat then here is one of my favourite fasting tools when I want to eat things. This guy is disgusting.

OMG I watched it all! How the hell can he do that?? And no cheeseburgers? Just junk food...dayum

BTW today is much better...that starving feeling passed...

 

[Seato]

I ended up spending more time than usual with someone I find to be good at triggering me yesterday. I’ve been trying to practice my mental blocking recently as I feel its one of my weaker areas. In yesterday’s encounters I seemed particularly alert to my own thoughts. I managed to observe them from an outside perspective and in a far more analytical way than I normally accomplish.
It was funny in a way to observe, as these thoughts drifted by all minor aggravations with questionable legitimacy and seeing this it was easier to let them go or reject them. I did then get the sense the stray thoughts were getting more agitated as if they were searching for any leverage something to hook onto. Given this I suspected something might happen to escalate things further.

In spite of success earlier in the day in later hours eventually the other individual did something with helpful intent on their part that pressured me to do something I felt conflicted about. The actual issue wasn’t particularly important but the energy that had been hounding me all day seemed to pour in though this point of contention and turn into a negative thought loop, that I struggled to push away for the rest of the day.
I felt rather drained and down. This morning, I tried to revaluate things and contain the thoughts. Since on reflection it seemed that following through on the persons suggestion might prove helpful and my indecision seemed to just be further building up energy for a thought loop I went ahead and resolved the matter with the basic idea that if all these negative thoughts were against me doing it, I should probably do the opposite. Anyway, I resolved the matter early today before it could fester any longer and things have been much calmer as I was then able to let the negative thoughts drift away without anything to grip onto.

Yesterday was perhaps the most I have managed to focus on thought observation and control, so I suppose it’s not a coincidence that the negative pressure increased in response.

 

[DeeDB]

Thought I'd start a thread here on this seemingly very general topic. The reason being that, from time to time, members have posted in other threads (or started new ones) to express odd feelings about the state of the world or the society in which they live, and how it may be impacting them psychologically and emotionally. I also noticed a few notable people on social media mentioning that they were feeling particularly weird or negative in recent days/weeks, with one or two saying that they had been unusually waking up at 3am recently with dark or "demonic" thoughts.

Anyway, that's what this thread is for; for members here to highlight any odd, out of the blue feelings or perceptions that may, or may not, be related to the less than optimal path that our world seems to be following.

Basically, it's a place to share 'how you are feeling' about yourself, the world in which we all live, and the events that are taking place on it.

I think the term is "Cognitive Dissonance" where two realities don't seem to jive and we internalize it.
Especially those who have had decades of absolutely wonderful years, and now all of a sudden there is censorship, there is public discord, there are assassinations of innocent activists, and it's just a lot, a lot for the one who just wants to live in peace and connect to their inner "god" energies.
I think a lot of us are heartbroken at the state of the world, but it is necessary for the recalibration of reality - for the ways to deal with the tipping of the energies towards the negative, the STS.
it was really good for a long time, now it's tough going and we need to get used to that. We need to toughen ourselves in order to stand up to the current energies. And it's not an easy thing to face.

 

[Rhythmik]

It's taken me a while, longer than it should have, but I've made some significant changes in my life and discarded some things that weren't serving me - so I feel good that I can now fully focus on the path of knowledge to the best of my ability. I've known for a while that "networking is key" but I felt like I had nothing really to offer the forum as I considered the discussions here so intelligent and was hesitant to contribute out of fear of just making noise.

Instead of sharing/posting I focused on reading (I don't read as often or as quickly as I would like). I had the habit of starting a book and not finishing it before starting another one so I made a promise to finish the next book that I started. That next book was Laura's 'From Paul to Mark'. But halfway through reading it I realised that I probably should have read the bible first as I didn't understand the context of everything in the book. So I half-broke my promise but I decided to put it on hold and read Paul's epistles first. What I did was research the chronological order of Paul's letters and then I asked the AI to give me one chapter at a time but add annotations to each verse (I prompted it to pretend that it was a follower of Paleochristianity/Pauline/Divus Iulius etc.). It's AI so I'm taking the commentary with a grain of salt but it has given some quite interesting comments and context to the verses. Once I finish Paul's books then I will continue with Laura's (and then the 200+ more books I have on my list).

I was born into a Jewish family so I was only familiar with the OT and in hindsight I was really indoctrinated to feel an aversion to the NT/Christianity, although I also was very skeptical of organised religion in general. Around a decade ago I posted on this forum naively asking about the Israeli/Palestinian conflict and the answers I received (plus the C's sessions) really opened my eyes to the situation. Unfortunately my family were never as open-minded as myself, even in light of the recent shocking events in the region, so I've learned to keep my opinions to myself in order to keep things harmonious with family.

I've been praying daily for years but only recently started doing more disciplined EE practice and meditation. I'm not sure what else I should be doing but I'd like to do as much as I can in order to contribute for good and make a difference so if anyone has any suggestions or links to relevant topics they'd be appreciated. Apologies for the procrastination and thank you all for the work that you do.

 

[Il Matto]

It's taken me a while, longer than it should have, but I've made some significant changes in my life and discarded some things that weren't serving me - so I feel good that I can now fully focus on the path of knowledge to the best of my ability. I've known for a while that "networking is key" but I felt like I had nothing really to offer the forum as I considered the discussions here so intelligent and was hesitant to contribute out of fear of just making noise.

I know where you're coming from in this regard @Rhythmik - I've lost count of the number of times I've convinced myself that I need to 'read more' so that I can contribute to discussions on this forum. The thing is, I was just trying to rationalise not doing something that would challenge me.
There will be a good number of other people of the forum who feel or have felt the same thing. One thought that has helped me: contribute on the forum, not out of anticipation of whether others will judge it as 'noise', but out of a desire to help others learn from what you yourself have learnt. We all have a part to play.

I've been praying daily for years but only recently started doing more disciplined EE practice and meditation. I'm not sure what else I should be doing but I'd like to do as much as I can in order to contribute for good and make a difference so if anyone has any suggestions or links to relevant topics they'd be appreciated.

Clearly you're aware of the recommended reading list and already doing some great work on Paul's letters and 'From Paul to Mark' - share your experiences and what you've gleaned from them by the way, I'd be interested to learn from you.
In terms of other things you could be doing (if you're not already), this really useful document from @Mari is excellent and contains loads of suggestions:

FOTCM protection techniques and methods

Which will definitely help with regards this:

We need to toughen ourselves in order to stand up to the current energies