I've been feeling the same way for the last ten days or so. There's a lot of bad energy in the air and my sensitivity to energy has become even more acute. So I'm on an energy rollercoaster. I have to re-center myself often, and above all I stay alert to any invasive energy.Anyone feeling anything similar?
Yes, me too. That first full week of July it seemed like I was just going through the motions of things. Sort of like an eerie new reality.The last two days I feel like reality has changed, everything looks the same but it feels different, uneasy, foreign, and downright weird.
Yeah, when I would sit down and close my eyes to rest, I would have lots of negative hypnagogic imagery and would jolt out of it as well. Seems to have gone away though now.as if I don’t resonate with the thoughts or there’s some negativity or obscurity about them that my body finds disturbing, I get a feeling of panic and jolt out of what is usually a comfortable drifting space between awake and asleep.
Yes, lots of cognitive issues like forgetting things or stumbling over words. I've been taking plasmalogens for many months now and I'm not sure they really helped. But I wasn't taking them on an empty stomach, just along with the other morning supplements I take. My issues are mostly due to being stressed and overworked, so my mind has been dull.Nothing similar for me, but the past 2-3 months, I've been experiencing a lot of "blanks" or distraction, such as forgetting words, forgetting things (getting my wallet stolen because I left it in the grocery cart, for example), dyslexia when I type or write, etc.
I feel like mostly I’ve adjusted to whatever has changed, it’s still catching me off guard though at times and I think ‘where the hell am I’ and ‘who the hell am I’, I don’t know if it’s hyperkinetic debate though I feel my emotions are extreme and very shifty, can be happy and joyous feeling like the laughing Buddha, the next moment wanting to cry like I’m grieving the past, then really angry and feeling like I’m out of control and want to lash out.Yes, me too. That first full week of July it seemed like I was just going through the motions of things. Sort of like an eerie new reality.
Yeah, when I would sit down and close my eyes to rest, I would have lots of negative hypnagogic imagery and would jolt out of it as well. Seems to have gone away though now.
I also noticed a few weeks ago I was having weird dreams where I would have superpowers like it was some 4D type stuff. There was one where I slightly woke up at night and in the dream I said "This is 4D." But I went back to sleep and had only remembered the few dreams just before waking, heh.
Thanks, for pointing that out. Fatigue really aggravates everything. I also noticed a heavier kind of tiredness and being unfocused in the last weeks. Whenever I did not act upon, all states got stronger. When I act upon, things start to flow again. Yesterday I helped a neighbor to clean weeds and bushes next to a little creek. It was different kinds of physical movements and work. I arrived with fatigue and when I left I was more energized than tired, in a happy and grounded way. I actually was startled about the quick shift. I am also cutting down screen time (except the forum :) Movement in Nature helps a lot.It's the fatigue, mental and physical, that turns everything upside down. Find a way to make the fatigue disappear, and everything goes back to normal—that is, crazy, but it affects us less.
Yes, me too. That first full week of July it seemed like I was just going through the motions of things. Sort of like an eerie new reality.
I swear there has been a timeline change, maybe a little over a week or so ago. Little things, something I had lost weeks ago suddenly turned up in plain sight. Something else that was gone showed up. Behaviors of people who were on an even keel have reverted, old pains that had disappeared suddenly came back for no reason. People who had really bad health issues last time I were heard about them, are now doing well, and vice versa. Someone remarked about a clocked that hadn't worked in years, suddenly started ticking again. Other things I can't think of now, but it seems like there is a different vibe out there.The last two days I feel like reality has changed, everything looks the same but it feels different, uneasy, foreign, and downright weird. It feels like a different reality.
Hyperkinetic sensate… someone needs to proof read their messages better!I feel like mostly I’ve adjusted to whatever has changed, it’s still catching me off guard though at times and I think ‘where the hell am I’ and ‘who the hell am I’, I don’t know if it’s hyperkinetic debate though I feel my emotions are extreme and very shifty, can be happy and joyous feeling like the laughing Buddha, the next moment wanting to cry like I’m grieving the past, then really angry and feeling like I’m out of control and want to lash out.
Also needing to go to bed really early, dreaming so intensely I wake up unrested.
On top of normal life stress it’s adding another layer of stress and confusion.
Really feels like shifting (quick) sands of time and calling for me to stay hyper vigilant- more than usual.
While we are on the topic, I’ve noticed in other people that we are all getting challenged with behaviours and unresolved issues that are from the past, I would even go as far to say it’s like a past life review happening in realtime. Whatever these energies are they’re encouraging, or it feels like a kind of forcing, us to resolve and make peace with what old dramas are stored in our energy fields, may be to accomodate a new reality? It really feels like we are in the moments before dawn, that quiet chaos of everything stirring just before it wakes up.
It's true Slipnet, we often wonder what all this leads to, and it's not pretty and we have to make a slight effort not to be obsessed by all this madness and pain that humanity is experiencing. But we have chosen to be here, at this moment and as you say, we are sometimes just that, patience and patience of a saint. Lately, I've been doing a meditation that helps me focus on Love. I look at my mother's gaze when she looked at me when I was a newborn, and that gaze, from my mother, is all love, just that, a great love for this child who had just been born. I focus on that gaze and then peace settles within me. I do this vision to push away the chaos, the chaos outside that wants to drag away our strength and our kindness. And it works. And it feels good. And when I pray for my friends, I ask for help from my grandmother, who lived through war, poverty, and chaos too. May her strength be with me.I had a funny experience a few days ago which I'll relate. I've been an insomniac for years, but I'm really struggling to sleep these last few weeks, and it takes me 1-2 hours in bed before I finally drift off to the land of nod. Anyway, I've also noticed that I feel poorly when I awaken too. I'm managing about 6-7 hours most nights. But one morning last week I felt really dreadful upon waking, so I curled up to rest a while longer rather than get up and face the day. As I lay back, eyes closed, I heard a female sounding voice clear as a bell in my mind, saying, "don't worry, it's not long now...".
I've heard this voice before during psychotic episodes, and it's always a voice that soothes me rather than antagonises. It's just got me wondering what was actually meant in the messaging? Not long for me? Or not long before the earth changes ramp up? I've made my peace with death, I'm ready to face 5d whenever the time comes. I kinda think that the message was personal rather than universal, so I'm ready to face the prospect of leaving this pathologically ravaged 3d STS realm now. I don't want to just yet, but I can't help but suspect that the message was preparing me for what's to come, whatever that may be.
It's been interesting to read the recent posts from folks on this thread. A general air of weariness seems to be the overriding theme. We all have our breaking points, and perhaps "checking out" of this grim world isn't so bad a thing? I've lived a colourful life, but the 50 years seem to have flashed by. It remains to be seen what the future has in store for us as both individuals and as a collective. But those quiet moments when I just listen, rather than opine or vent, seem to carry more weight within me these days. I'm tired, tired of the wars, the bullshit, the lies, the constant arguing with dickheads on X. All the sound and fury of this world has finally worn me down.
Take care guys and gals, and be good to yourselves as well as your nearest and dearest. These are the times that would try the patience of a saint. Personally speaking, Truly, I've grown tired of this world, and sometimes I wonder what's the bloody point of all this suffering? All I know is that, after some drug-fuelled years when I was pretty selfish, nowadays I care more about how I treat those close to me. I used to be very hot headed and had a short temper, but that seems to be receding too. Not wanting to sound melodramatic, but yes, it does feel like things are changing now. But what will those changes bring us? That remains the question...