T.C. said:I think one way a perfection program can manifest is in projecting it onto other members here - for me anyway. Then the fear of opening up comes from a fear of rejection: if I admit I have a problem with something, I'm not meeting the standards set by those who are 'stronger' than me - i.e., more perfect. But that in itself is a limitation of knowledge and understanding of the other members here and what the forum really is and how it works. Because the only prerequisite for participation is the desire to change for the better. Paraphrasing the C's: You don't have to already be 'there' in order to 'get it'.
Am guilty of that as well! Thinking that I have been around here long enough, that I should be over “x, y or z”, completely forgetting that everything is a process and that every one of our struggles provides an opportunity for others and can give them courage to share problems that they may otherwise be too embarrassed to discuss.
I was also thinking that holding back keeps one at the level of an acquaintance, depriving us of feeling those shared bonds that give us the sense of being part of a large family of like minded souls. I know that every time I have read posts by people who were courageous enough to share very difficult issues that they were trying to overcome, I feel a much stronger connection to that person and deeper sense of compassion and caring. I can’t imagine thinking – “Can’t believe he/she is still working through that”. Funny how we are often so much harder on ourselves.